#unforgiveable
I'm so worn out
So ******* torn
I can't comprehend
What it is that needs to be done
I become irrational
So carelessly unpredictable
I just want it to end
Though I know I ain't alone
People struggle and keep
Living with their own daily dose of ************* pains
But this is mine
This is my pain
And I just can't
No I can't
My head feels inflated
Like it's about to explode
I've forgotten how to breath
So why am I still alive
For fuck's sake is anyone out there
Sleeping on the same bed as I
A thousand knives underneath the bedsheets
Hey please do me a favor
Touch my shoulders
I don't feel them anymore
Close my eyes
Before I do something stupid
Something I'd never be able to take back
I'm not afraid of death
I just don't want to face tomorrow
It kills me to stay alive
Hush these words
My own double edged sword
Aug 7, 2017
Aug 7, 2017 at 7:46 AM UTC
Find me, dear death, find me now,
I am not strong enough, I am not afraid enough.
Find me, near death, fight me then,
I am still not weak enough, I am still unprepared.
Find me, bleeding, find me broken,
I am just too wrong to see, I am blinded, I am ill.
Find me...
Jul 15, 2017
Jul 15, 2017 at 1:07 AM UTC
He tells me:
*" ***** yourself with a needle,
it will have the same effect"*
As if I am trying to harm myself.
He does not understand
this does not hurt me,
at least not physically.
It has become a joke now
- but I'm not laughing.
It isnt funny,
it isnt a joke.
His ignorance sears into me,
he thinks I have forgotten
I have not.
Dec 7, 2016
Dec 7, 2016 at 2:19 PM UTC
Things I told you to keep
which were held so deeply to me
All you had to do was not to tell
yet you did and now it dwelled
You swore you never lie
cross your heart and hope to die?
You made yourself the devil slave
unfortunately you'll be soon entering the purgatory grave!
Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 11:40 AM UTC