#undying
a poem of gratitude,
the sun has emerged
after a week of
relentless rain, multi~ugly variegated blacked grayling
on a pseudo-mocking-teasing background of pockmarked puffs of
white, while I endless still instilled, coughing hacking,
meanwhile,
we schedule life where the
precipitous precipitation chances is only less than 20%,
so I am suffused with gratitude
everyday
I awake in our mini-paradiso,
the writing comes so easily,
we, can’t compete with our other business like self,
and just pile
up drafts enough for another year and half
but my chiefest joy is the overflowing inbox
of the delightful crazy concoctions you shed
into my eyes, and gasp, to grasp the pool of
talent among we plebeian poets…
my woman happy beside me, contented by being
on her 4th book in 5 days,
more than suffused, I am
***effused
the blood is further heated by 20 .oz of
Blue Mountain highly caffeinated beans,
and she turns and asks:
why am I emanating, emitting
sunshine inside the house so bright,
she says, pass my sunglasses!
because my brain is cluttered by
words of pleasuring and not a word of mine,
just a justification for all of those who commit
the writing act, the action of filling my soil
with extra large green grapes juicy with
happy tears…
May 26
May 26, 2026 at 9:25 AM UTC
They loved each other.
That’s the worst part.
There was no lie to expose,
no moment where she stopped caring,
no sentence that began with
“I don’t love you anymore.”
Just people outside the room
deciding what was allowed
inside her heart.
I wasn’t beaten by distance,
or boredom,
or silence.
I was beaten by conversations
I wasn’t in.
By old moments
dragged into the present
like they never ended.
I had already moved on.
They wouldn’t let me.
She loved me,
but not loudly enough to defend it,
not strongly enough to choose it.
So even though the love stayed real,
it still lost.
That’s the tragedy.
The worst part,
That's what hurts.
Nothing was wrong,
and yet everything still ended.
Now I carry something unfinished,
a story that didn’t get ugly,
didn’t get resolved,
didn’t even get a proper goodbye.
Just an undying love.
Just a soft ending
that shattered me anyway.
And maybe one day
she will get over me,
like she said.
But I will always know
we didn’t end because love died.
We ended because
it wasn’t allowed to live.
Jan 8
Jan 8, 2026 at 9:46 PM UTC
Today I decide to believe
I believe in my undying beauty
Today I choose to be self encouraging
This epic beauty is undying
Nov 1, 2020
Nov 1, 2020 at 7:39 AM UTC
Undying sadness;
Undying tears;
Undying pain;
But a dying soul.
Sep 5, 2020
Sep 5, 2020 at 7:35 AM UTC
It’s said that ‘true love can never die’
and the heart of the lover knows why.
As this love blossoms and becomes pure
throughout all of eternity it does endure.
__________
Jun 10, 2020
Jun 10, 2020 at 10:39 PM UTC
What if
you could spin your paint or words
and make a Vampire shed a tear
What If
in purest visage or eloquence
a Werewolf loses doubt, and fear
Imagine art
emotions rare
genuine honesty
above beyond
compare
Reaching out
grasping the essence
something scarce
or scant
Bringing all sincerity
recalling a dead heart to life
something alone
they
can't
Mar 11, 2020
Mar 11, 2020 at 9:27 PM UTC
Mag-iiwan ng bakas ang apoy sa aking palad,
Manunuot ito sa balat hanggang tumatak,
Mahapdi ang pagdampi ngunit 'di ako bibitaw,
Maging gaano man ito kasakit.
Sep 26, 2019
Sep 26, 2019 at 11:14 AM UTC
The ignorant runs after pleasure,
Sinks into the entanglements of death...
the wise seek the undying,
And hence found himself.
The knower of self,
the self, which is here, is hereafter;
Hereafter is here.
He who thinks otherwise,
Wanders from death to death.
May 23, 2019
May 23, 2019 at 7:39 AM UTC
I shall wrap you in a bed of my love,
with sweet sweet rose petals
surrounding your form.
I will caress you with every heartbeat
and song that plays gracefully.
You are the king of roses
and I your queen.
You are the jewel sparkling
that I clasp on golden band.
In sleep I shall lie feeling freedom
as we join our souls
in many a dreamscape reality.
A reality where sun shines,
as winds of love spiral
and our essences bond.
And there we shall move
stopping time
in ocean waves from our hearts.
When morning comes,
I will feel wrapped in
the sunlight of our love.
A love that will never die.
Nov 12, 2017
Nov 12, 2017 at 3:51 PM UTC
Our relationship, deeper than any pizza base.
Our love, saucier than the finest italian passata.
Our feelings stronger than the maturest of fine cheeses.
Our willingness to please the other stretches such as the most glorious of mozzarella.
To what do we base our feelings upon,
Be it the interchangable toppings or the structural integrity of the strongest crust.
Akin to snowflakes no two pizzas are ever alike. Each one differing to the last, be it the char marks on it's peak or the flame kissed bottom.
Our choice in toppings may differ so vastly, you with your ghastly pineapple and myself with my overly rich and greasy bbq meatfeast.
Alas does this mean anything at all? Nothing but a matter of opinion, toppings change to peoples liking, but our bases remain the same our sauce the binding glue to hold it all together.
Mar 2, 2019
Mar 2, 2019 at 11:25 AM UTC
The gentle spring breeze kisses the blades of grass
Streams humming like a whispering melody
Life blooming in all its mysteries and curiosities
It filled the meadows with a calming harmony
Standing on at a crossroads, I tread carefully,
A man past his prime, Indecision takes hold of me
The pain of youthful love burned out all my passion
Heading carefully to where I want my rest to be
On this hill here beside you I have longed to rest,
Under the warm rays of sunlight, with the sweet-smelling grass
Under the vast sheet of starlight, when night blankets the sky
Only beside you is where I want to forever stay
Memories of our youth come surging like a flood
When love burned bright and you give me life
When sorrow took the best of me, I grew hopeless
And when I needed you most, Death took you from my arms
Yearning for love, a passion that burns out the soul
I longed for one to come my youthful heart’s way
Etched in it an undeniable desire to fiercely fight
For a love that engulfs one’s heart like a wild flame
And there it was, a point where everything changes
When it came rushing in and crushed all my defenses
When hearts come in resonance with each other
Their melodies harmonizing like two spirits merging
Young hearts come together like buzzing bees
Looking for a love like there’s no tomorrow
Lit up with a sense of passion one rarely sees
Only to be consumed by inevitable grief and sorrow
Ah! Youthful love, it burns bright yet brief
When a heart is consumed, it is doomed to fall
For when it gives its all, it is surely to get less
And when it endures, it hollows out the most
Every heart has to endure a whirlwind of emotions
Fear will come to dread it and Hate will try to **** it
A gentle insanity comes rushing in, a craze-driven passion
In which one leaves reality to run and find a dwindling ideal
The troubles of a young heart are wide and vast
Its innocence unable to shield it from heartaches
And as winter approaches, it is also forced to choose
Lie still in the snow, or endure waiting for the next spring
A love that’s taken and tested to endure
A love that is fought for and is let to consume
A love like that, I still pray to hold within my grasp
And so for that love, I must endure with all my might
A soldier in this war, I fought for the comfort beside you
A lover in this struggle, I loved you much more than I can give
And when my lips touched yours, my words become silent
How you bewitched me with your beauty leaves me speechless
But Reality is a cruel master, a monstrous fate
When I felt like I could conquer the world,
When I felt that forever in your arms I stay
That is when he breaks me hardest, deepest.
Death is an all-consuming enigma
He came to take you away from me
Like a thief he came when least expected
When our flowering lives bloomed brightest
I am left to question all that had happened
Crying out to the heavens day and night
But the beauty you embodied had taken a new form
A form only Life can recreate once more.
You became the grass, you became the earth,
You became the gentle wind that comes in springtime,
The wind that kisses me with passion and gentle caress
When every time it whispers your voice is all I hear.
On this hill where your spirit resides
I long to be in your comfort again
Time has aged me, but not my love for you
Youth has passed me by, but not the feelings you left me with.
Wait for me beloved, my time has come,
Final breath draws near, Death follows behind me,
He who took you away now brings me closer to you
Stay steadfast beloved, today I’ll come to be with you.
Feb 7, 2019
Feb 7, 2019 at 12:12 AM UTC
The hounds of the graveyard are restless,
as the path of the cemetery looks treacherous.
The crosses of the grave stood tall,
as I walk among the dead tulips call.
The darkness resembles a long melancholy.
The bottle of whisky seems familiar to me,
as I step down from the stairs of the cemetery.
The fallen tulip meant nothing to me.
I remember my long lost past,
as the pensive sadness shackles my heart.
Now the meadows are all strange to me,
as we both walk now on fallen tulips call.
Nov 23, 2018
Nov 23, 2018 at 7:52 AM UTC
I am forever inspired by my Barbara ref 012
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I am forever inspired by my Barbara
And she tells me that she loves me
Making the time we spend together
From this day forward magical time
On each and every day a pleasure
Romancing my lovely woman brave
Enchanting with my simple phrases
Vainly lift her spirits wave by wave
Even if my girl is feeling so fragile
Rarely fails to lift her spirit high.
I am forever Inspired by my Barbara
Not on just extra special occasions
She projects me to highest heights
Poetic messages channeled by God
Inspirations to record my thoughts
Reactions to our fine togetherness
Enchanting in the way she moves
Dutiful in her many charitable acts
Barbara ! By God ! You are angel.
You can inspire the best in folk
My Goodness you're a woman fine
You dress in style and look devine
Bring me down to earth I pray
As I'm like a child on Christmas Day
Run life for us to your satisfaction
Because I trust your judgement so
As I am so inspired by our plan
Rich the gems of wisdom owned
As fine a woman known to man.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Philip. 26th January 2017.
Rest In Peace my Darling Girl.
Departed 17:00 hours 17th Sept 2018
Oct 28, 2018
Oct 28, 2018 at 12:45 PM UTC
I would stab my heart a thousand times to bleed you out of it.
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 4:02 PM UTC
Deep inside never changing is the heart,
An ambience of constant change, it is what never truly shifts its shape
Keep it perfect, keep it pure, but when it is too empty, or too enlightened, you may lose the joy of simply living, become hollow,
When memories wither like the flowers in fall,
Look into your eyes, but please, do not look too far.
Can you truly see who you are ?
Are you a beast undying, don't you have a soul left to feel ?
Or are you a living mass, undying wondering if you are still real ?
As the harsh wind brushes over the fields, announcing the coming winter with several mighty blows, roaring alike a lion before its prey,
I just have lost myself, but not in this wandering fragnance,
Without opening my eyes or being able to protect my heart in love,
I was killed, to this burnt dreams end, prevalent is your allure smile,
Do not sadden over this event, after all isn't this what you wished for?
Don't try to put the broken pieces together, you can't truly expect them to end up looking the same, a mistake is to stay forever.
Senseless as it may be, I feel this good, facing the dark clouds is the golden rule, because now I am alike you.
I have become undying.
~ Umi
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 2:12 PM UTC
It lives in its entirety
Throughout eternity.
In a multiverse of possibilities,
It remains steadfast in its certainty.
Never faltering
Never fading.
Come the storm when it's lightning and raining,
Let the world beat down with not a thing refraining.
It holds steady,
It holds fast,
As one does with things meant to last.
And even when death does us part,
Forever and always
You'll have my heart.
Sep 30, 2018
Sep 30, 2018 at 10:21 AM UTC
I’d pay the price for one night with you
an arm, a leg, I love you through and through
like tissue paper my tears soak through and through
I would steal the sun
and hide it away.
Your eyes are diamonds
They hide a glow that only I know
your words wrap me in silk
your touch a thrill
can’t sit still
for butterflies
in you a flame that cannot die.
Sep 5, 2018
Sep 5, 2018 at 3:40 PM UTC
Take my hand
Let's take the plunge
Let go of the fears
Get rid of the anxieties
Just take the risk
Just once in your life
I'm with you to the end
Just hold my hand
What started out
As a swipe at chance
As a gamble of hearts
As a game of fears
And a reckless risk
May turn out to be
The greatest adventure
In our young, hopeless lives
Eyes on me
Oh dearest sweet
My eyes on you
For all this time
My heart for you
No matter what
My love is yours
Until the end of our lives
I was made for you
And you for me
Even if I burn in your passion
And you stung by my thorns
I am yours
And you are mine
To love and keep
'Til our days are numbered
As we grow old and gray
And wrinkles streak on our faces
I may forget you in my mind
But always you will stay in my heart
And 'til our adventure comes to a close
Even if hell freezes over
My love for you stays
Immortalized in my heart
I am yours forever
And you are mine
I was made for you
And you for me
I'll stay with you 'til the end
Until the day I hold my last breath
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 4:51 AM UTC
True love never dies
It keeps fossils breathing
Hid in this closset heart
Its ghosts the memories done
Distant this bygones be
By date and not feeling
Forever and gone
This thoughts still breathing
Though this heart lame
On crutches doth it still stand
Wounds still bleeding,
Scars become a tattoed memorial
To reminisce
And forever miss.
Jun 21, 2017
Jun 21, 2017 at 11:40 AM UTC
The water rushes is in
Slammi--
The water laps gently
On the side of a metal container
In the darknes--
Slamming
Flooding
Almost choking
Encompassin--
The water recedes
The white froth forming momentarily
Bubbles dancing
Back and forth--
Back and forth...
Back and forth
Deafening
Silently
Ripping
Tearin--
It sloshes
Using its smooth shrivelled hands
To wave away the heat
Wiping off the droplets--
The container vibrates violently
The echoing sounds of the
Tumultuous noise ricocheting
Inside the metal walls
Of the empty
Contai--
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 7:23 AM UTC
I stare into the clouded night sky
That shines the light of the sun on the clouds
Via the moon that orbits the Earth
Continuously
Round and round
Held in by
Just the right amount
Of gravity.
Nothing more,
Nothing less.
I am the moon
That moves on continuously
Seeking something more
But spending time frivolously.
Not moving forward
Or backward
But
Riding a course almost effortlessly
Weighing the balance of my course
On the moment and not
Resisting the force of the Earth.
I am the Earth
Attracting nothing useful to myself
Losing my health exponentially
My skin scars grow deeper
With the pollution of the bacteria
Ever multiplying
Not even their deaths diminishing
The pain of my barrier being torn
By my internal conflict
And I...
Just float.
Orbiting a greater body than I.
I am the sun
Feeling not the heat that is embedded
Within me
I question
If I can really feel anymore
Even though my skin is warm
My core still fusing,
Beating,
Emotions clashing within me
So much so that my body
Distances its core
From the surface
And I forget to worry
If...
I expand so far
And then collapse
Into myself
And become a void
******* in emotions
Numbly
Because I lost what was left of me.
I am the universe
Full of mystery
Full of dark shades
And galaxies plenty
Many planets,
Stars and satellites
That whirl and whirl
Into sight
Or disappear in a black hole.
I am the universe
That continues to expand
Stretching
Straining
Out of hand
Continuing on
Because I can
And this universe
This body is not mine
I cannot end it
At least,
It has not expended enough
To implode
Nor do I want it to
By the will that subconsciously
Remains within me.
Apr 18, 2017
Apr 18, 2017 at 7:20 AM UTC