#tryingtoohard
You say I'm poetry,
Too weaved, too complex at time you get confused.
But what if I'm just an object of emotional overflow, you realize?
A dry leaf flooded away anytime?
Am worried without hesitation you'd leave me behind,
And give my life a shatter nothing can repair.
And you believe I'm exotic,
Unique, bold, one fine heart worth a hold,
How if I train to be so all the time, you learn?
Dive extra miles eyes on the prize I'll get?
Fill pockets yo kind of surprises so the ambition won't dent?
I fear I'd remain what you won't carry around,
And give my soul a rip I can never mend.
Feb 10
Feb 10, 2026 at 1:42 AM UTC
I keep on getting anxious
Every second,
I try to hide it behind my smile
I try to be happy
But it just doesn't seem to stop
I started skipping meals
Not once,
Sometimes I don't eat at all
Under the table,
My shaking legs
Sleepless nights,
Tossing and turning
Cutting people off
Talking less and less
Not getting out of my room
It just seems to grow and never stop
I don't even know how do I explain this feeling
It's just killing me inside
Slowly enough
For them to not notice....
May 24, 2025
May 24, 2025 at 2:41 AM UTC