#tremor
My body jitters like a cage full of trapped sparrows. My bones vibrate with a thin metallic ringing, as if someone struck my skeleton like a bell and forgot to stop the echo. My heart is not just beating, it is everywhere, ricocheting through my wrists, my knees, my teeth, a frantic percussion stitched into marrow. I do not know what happened. One moment the world was steady glass, the next it warped like heat above asphalt. I zoned out and when I came back the room had grown strange, tilted slightly, like gravity had been tampered with.
It has been hours. The clock crawls, stubborn and slow, but my body refuses to settle. The air feels electric, prickling against my skin like invisible static. I lie in the dark with my eyes open, watching the ceiling ripple into unfamiliar shapes. Sleep stands somewhere distant and unreachable, a pale animal at the edge of a frozen lake, watching but never approaching.
It is three in the morning and the night feels enormous. My nerves spark like frayed wires. Frustration burns under my ribs, a hot coal that refuses to dim. Anger coils through my chest like a storm serpent searching for a place to strike. Confusion spreads through my mind like spilled ink, blotting everything into strange, indistinct shapes.
My thoughts race in circles, frantic comets trapped in orbit. I want to scream. I want to tear the silence open and let something out of me, something loud and violent and bright. My body feels like it might burst into a thousand startled birds.
But nothing happens.
The room stays quiet. The night stays still.
And I sit here trembling, a vessel filled with too much thunder.
Mar 7
Mar 7, 2026 at 3:32 AM UTC
upon reading your poem
Tremor^
and this what I think:
when reading your seamless
writing connecting of moments
of immortality,
only one question remains,
why, does our own writing
not approach the level of your exquisite precision
soul's ***********
is it our
own immorality
that permits our soon-to-be-
discontinued pretenses,
wherein, whereby,
we can still believe
our own words should be
deservedly disowned,
disinherited to the
scrap heap heated,
burned, eradicated
and
why do we even try?
sigh
>.<
dare not read it twice,
lest my inked fingertips
surrender to my
indecent indecision
Sep 26, 2025
Sep 26, 2025 at 5:19 AM UTC
Today again I saw a gate in the sky.
Streams of pale light trickled through it.
I no longer looked at the sun, only straight ahead,
My silhouette reflected in the ***** tram window.
I looked farther, hypnotized,
sipping words veiled in the dust of the autumn sun.
Dry spaces. Leaves.
Golden bile sparkled,
And no one saw this wonder in the sky.
At the stop, in the crowd rushing by,
An experiment took place:
A man wrapped in copper threads.
He searched for relief while anger bound his soul.
He fought the air, attacked with words,
Like a puppet moving in convulsions.
Hands clenched, anger in his eyes.
“This will pass, this will fade,” I thought,
Moving to another car.
A primal tremor. A change of frequency.
Someone is turning the **** of our universe.
How many more cells of the body will they spoil
Before it is ground to ashes?
Until all ends in colonization,
A reward for micro-souls from another world.
People sunk in their minds
do not hear the hum of strings.
And I plead in my thoughts:
listen, look, be your reality.
Behind the gate a hundred weeks ago,
a crackling gramophone plays.
My calm relieves someone’s thoughts.
Somewhere, thousands of hours ago,
the past becomes the future.
Next time when you pass by me, indifferent,
the warmth of my thought will warm your
Dry, wrinkled hands.
I will never know You, and I would like to know
what you will say when these trembling words arrive on the wind.
In the autumn glow of the setting sun,
Like a gentle brushing of leaves at the next opening of the gate.
I will be there in the crack like a stray thought
that wanted to become immortality.
Sep 25, 2025
Sep 25, 2025 at 5:59 PM UTC
What’s a lil turbulence,
I came out of a shell shock
Jun 1, 2025
Jun 1, 2025 at 2:36 PM UTC
Signs say stress.
I say the End of the World.
A mental break
Or a fractured world.
The walls of my mind tremor
The world falls apart at the fringe.
Acute stress, prolonged stress.
Acute suffering, prolonged suffering.
Good lord, its the end.
Oh God, the end of times.
I see hints, hidden in plain sight.
This diseased world, is apocalypse bound.
Yet they'll say I'm not mentally sound.
But the world dangles on a string.
May 2, 2018
May 2, 2018 at 5:50 PM UTC
There is a light, it's flickering a pale white blue.
The carpet is rough on my face, silence permeates the house. I should get up.
I should pull myself into personhood. My hands tremor, I let my finger tips find the end of the carpet. Skimming the floor boards shaking fingers beginning to tap tap tap out the only sound.
I used to drink the restlessness away, now I am left a craving in its place. Tap tap tap say the fingers.
Violent imagery flashes across my mind, car crashes, rending metal, glass breaking, bones snapping there are sharp falls and hit and runs and stabbing on the sidewalk, knife sliding into my flesh. Leaping into oncoming traffic, my heart skipping beats and laughter always my laughter. The final moment of freedom replayed over an over. I can't tell you why it makes me smile, I don't know why myself.
Tap tap tap tap tap irrattic finger tips might be getting angry. Have your limbs been angry at you before?
Rolling over the popcorn ceiling swirls,
I realized a while back if I pay attention to the patterns they shift, I hallucinate mildly on most days. I think I might miss it if I were being honest. I focus on my skin, the way the air touches it, the way cold feels, if I savour this enough I almost feel high, high is almost always on the other side of sensation.
I might always be a touch high compared to how the average Joe feels. This is not a desirable state, but if you talk to me tomorrow I might say it's a gift.
I slowly stand, my knees cracking fingertips tap tap tapping up the wall. Giving up drinking was like giving up one of my last connections to my dearly departed. Gin and alcoholism kept a part of him close to me. Medication and therapy take me further and further away from the person who knew him.
I walk barefoot, the texture of the floor boards underfoot, stepping into the kitchen I pull a wine glass from the cupboard. I want to hear it sing, I flick the glass, I hold the opening of the glass near my ear. I can feel the sound touching my ear. Soft ringing until it's quiet again, I've tried to savour the experience by listening in to the sounds of my world.
Listening to the slow crunch of a crisp apple, the sound of the city, the bubbling of the fish tank. Perfect beautiful sounds ripe with happening.
You can hear the happening of what is at all times if you choose to.
There are other ways to savour, I think it helps to be here and now, the savouring it I mean. By "it" I mean everything your senses allow you to perceive, the everything that is your sensory image of the world around you. Your brain built the image of the world, it's a reflection of you. The world is a mirror to your mind.
Often the reflection is not something I'm proud of, other times I'm exploding with pride.
I wish I could share what I've found with him, but I wasn't fast enough, I wasn't paying attention.
Attention to here and now has been the key I keep dropping and picking up.
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 8:51 PM UTC
atop the apex
is a most precarious point
to be stationed
the slightest tremor
can topple down the tip's vantage
engineers know this
yet some will insist
on being seated trickily there
clinging to the edge
like inane humpty dumpty
setting himself well up for
an inglorious fall
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 11:28 PM UTC
A reminiscence of a kiss
A paradox of loneliness
Addictive vased solitude
Unscrewed from the walls
I drown in ecstacy
To deck on your shores
As the strong wind fades
I hold the strong anchor
Plucking the unknown
Compressed in reality
Pressing the known
Caressing the phone
To nip, heaped dips
Sinking down depths
The broadcast of us
Where earthquakes traps
Rub my soreness
Deflate the reforms
Unroll the society
Your tremor, my tenor
I extend my arm
Afar to your side
Hold my embrace
Feel my want, my all
Mar 11, 2016
Mar 11, 2016 at 2:17 PM UTC
Feel the tremor…
…The flicker…
The static charge
Of bliss
Whisper HER sweet
Breath through
Your Being.
No time to stop,
No time to be waylaid
By Fears’ tearful face.
Kiss this moment awake
Caress it’s cheek,
Open your eyes
To the Beauty beating
In your trembling breast.
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 6:47 AM UTC
And I was falling,
So fast
Reducing constantly
To become nothing
And I was barely breathing
A heart forced to beat
Eyes bloodshot
But you could not see
And you were blinded
From the self-despair and pity
A heart
Torn and stomped all over
And you were shaking
From the tremors
only You could feel
But I could not steady your hands
I was waiting for you to save me,
I forgot magic only happens when you least expect it
You were waiting for me to notice
You forgot I was too caught up fighting my own battles
You were bitter
Over the times I had let you go
You forgot
I loved you w every ounce of my being
I was broken
Over the times you did not care enough
I forgot
You are a human with your own limits
And so we fell apart
In the most common ways
We forgot what we had
Because we were too busy grieving what the other person lacked
And now that the end is near
I see where we went wrong
I loved you and you loved me
But love
is almost never enough
And I got my wish
With my last breath I took your name
The earth shook,the sky turned black,
This is my last farewell
I'll never see you again
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 6:49 AM UTC
Most of all. it's the truculent desire hardly shielded,
creating whirlwind, shaking the woods of my mind,
then insistent fingers in an ****** day dream,touch
intimately to arouse my hood, those robust waves
inch forward to my shores, I shudder,again and again,
like a sea swell, in an intense want, we are engorged,
a mania for the moon, slouching behind the clouds,
your eyes had always spoken gently, yet brewed storms.
I sense a wish that yearns culmination in my invasion,
full luscious red lips, smeared with the spices of amour,
their own symbolism eloquent, as wet they are, whispering yes, yes
coal black eyes can't hide the eagerness, they peer,
your body, now so tender has a tremor,anticipating my touch,
you are ready for a journey together, to the far deeper ends
an impatient waterway, aren't you,awaiting my row boat,
for a fervorous exploration together, through the watery canals
Apr 9, 2015
Apr 9, 2015 at 7:03 AM UTC
everything i've ever known
turns to dust, spiraling in a
constellation of tremors and
hyperventilation and worry,
so much worry, and every
moment in which i exist i
can feel my heart threaten
to beat straight out of my
ribcage and maybe i
want it to.
Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 7:26 PM UTC