#traver
The mirror is shattered.
So without any reflection on the misuse of this image,
The shards will be incarnadine.
The bleeding will ne'er end.
It drips drops of thick sick thoughts,
Smothering the scattered shards.
A sight bred for horror.
Speckled endlessly, sorting sorrows
Into uniquely spattered shards.
The fulmination of self-imitation.
No longer are little words taken lightly.
You are now obscure shards.
I, too, once saw clearly.
Sep 29, 2015
Sep 29, 2015 at 5:02 PM UTC
Needless to say
I'm a disaster.
Peaceful breathing
Next to my
Endless seething
About the constant feelings
That confuse me
And enslave me
And ravage me
And leave me craving an escape.
Your peaceful breathing
How it ever so slowly calms my raving mind.
I can't sleep.
You're lying next to me and I am
Helpless, needy, and hurt.
Helpless - though your attempts to calm me are caring and sweet, I can't help you sleep by staying awake.
Needy - I desire your company at 3AM when the world should be silent and yet here I sit wanting your attention.
Hurt - I can't hurt myself anymore than to know I am hurting you.
I love you.
I lie here and weep.
I need what you have,
Your peaceful sleep.
Aug 30, 2015
Aug 30, 2015 at 2:55 AM UTC
Sometimes I just want to see another way of being me
Another way of being free of all insecurity
But there are times when that is hard
And there are wounds that have been scarred
And now I'm trying to get by with what in my life has been marred.
I keep trying to escape all of the lies that cover my eyes like tape; such a disguise, I can let out only sighs.
It's hiding all of my fears deep inside all of my tears that never flow, I don't let them go, so I keep moving, I reap what I sow.
So no, I'm not fine, I walk a fine line between peace and what is at least my foreseeable destruction.
And I know I'm laughing and requesting you leave it alone but what is worse is the curse of knowing I am and will always be unknown.
All weight will drop off my shoulders, but before, it gets much colder,
So cover me in this vacancy of emotion and make me bolder.
Make me able to stand under the pressure of the hand that smacks my hand and tells me "Man, it's just a phase." which does the opposite of
Raising me up and making me new, so if you only knew that what you do makes me rue the so-called man that I've become and now
The future man that I will be will never rise up from his knee
So I'm left stirring in this mind of never-ending insecurity.
Aug 28, 2015
Aug 28, 2015 at 10:32 AM UTC
I walk
Nightly
To the place where I find
Silence.
Silencing the world
Silencing the mind
Silencing all that creates
Havoc.
I create havoc.
Day after day
I walk
Wondering when I will
Finally
Be able to find that
Silence.
But day after day I am
Silenced.
That is why
Nightly
I walk
To the place where I find
Silence.
To the River
Where drowns the havoc
Around me.
Where flow the souls of the silent.
To the River
Where I find
Silence.
Aug 26, 2015
Aug 26, 2015 at 11:52 AM UTC
I used to think there was a common lure,
A common attraction to the love we built.
But every relationship begins to crumble
As now we are.
If I could simply explain that all of your
Words cut me. All of your flowered colors wilt.
But I simply cannot and I fall into mumble
As now we are.
What was clear between us begins to blur.
There is grey area, no clear sign is felt.
But how is it we never used to stumble
As now we are.
You were impossible to blame
And as was I.
But the Moor left life due to outwardly shame
And the lure into our deceit was too great
And what we had built no longer held meaning
And the stumble was hardened by the foundation
And it was no more,
As now we are.
Aug 24, 2015
Aug 24, 2015 at 10:21 AM UTC
If dreamed any harder
Vivid light would fade away
Under the ecstasy of color
That would illuminate the day
May 23, 2015
May 23, 2015 at 1:21 PM UTC
Quickly come
Harshly rushing in
Flurries of inklings
Blow in through my pen
Slowly come
The unique flakes I know
Wisp around in my head
Creating drifts of snow
Forever come
These blizzards, suffice
Enticing my hand
To form sculptures of ice.
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 5:04 PM UTC
Never ending in my head
Notes I love and simultaneously dread
Dancing from ears to mind to tongue
Leaving not a single song unsung
Around and 'round the classy tune
Convinced I am the happiest loon
By this art that does consume me
Playing my heartstrings constantly
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 10:43 AM UTC
There quiet you lay
Body cold as wintered day
Hurting in silence
Subject to violence
Waiting for the coming of May.
Nov 20, 2014
Nov 20, 2014 at 11:04 PM UTC
The time is too late
Flee from me hate
I now open the gate
The time is too late
It's already begun
Radiant is the sun
I now cease to run
It's already begun
Dishearten my fear
Falls not my tear
For you, my dear,
Dishearten my fear
Nov 20, 2014
Nov 20, 2014 at 10:51 PM UTC
Growing slowly in my mind
Little traces of lines I find
Lines drawing me ever closer to you
My longing desire I can never pursue
Nov 20, 2014
Nov 20, 2014 at 10:37 PM UTC
I wish I had
Nine
Reasons to give
As to why
You
Capture my gaze
Yet I'm missing
One
Reason to live
So why would
You
Lengthen my days
Nov 20, 2014
Nov 20, 2014 at 10:40 PM UTC
Never do I laugh at you
With intention to tear apart.
Only would I laugh with who
Forever holds my heart.
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 10:56 AM UTC
The coastline I walk, I walk not alone.
Solitary strolls, I do not condone.
I'd rather walk, hand in hand,
With you my love, upon the sand.
The pier we see reaching out
Into the ocean, gives no doubt
Of our love's walk off into the sea
Where we drown in the depths of our eternity.
Let not the waves disrupt our affection.
Wake in the comfort of our perfection.
Though gulls will call and sandcastles fall,
You will remain my all in all.
May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 10:54 AM UTC
I smile when the wind blows upon your face
And how you slightly laugh as it does.
I care for you as a rose within a pastel vase
And run with you from the bee's buzz.
We live free of burdens until the day that we marry
And then, will we test our love.
It will last; for you I will forever carry
Past the line where we've both had enough.
Nothing will break my eternal love for you.
The vase which holds you is my heart.
I'll be here; waiting for the only one who
Captures my being. Let us never part.
May 7, 2014
May 7, 2014 at 7:44 PM UTC
Harken ye temptious ear
To this scandalous tale
Of the indebted lovely Lady
Sorrowfully saying "For Sale."
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 1:40 PM UTC
Contain the wind and darken the Sun
Dim the stars and let Havoc run.
Let Havoc run the world once glad
And thieve the joy that we once had.
Let Summers scorch the dying soot
And Autumns grow darker than the dirt under foot.
Let Winters cover the dead with fierce cold
And let Spring's regeneration never be told.
Harken pain and mourn the slain.
Let cries fill the skies and drive thee insane.
Never smile lest it be brightly seen
And thou be known as Evil's Unforeseen.
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 1:38 PM UTC
Show me how
To continue the climb
Despite the burns
That sear my hands.
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 1:33 PM UTC
The crooked stripe across your shirt
Matches the frown that shows your hurt.
But the yellow brightly shines above.
Your slight, thin smile makes all feel love.
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 1:32 PM UTC
Around the corner the Goomsler stalks
Never he worries, Never he talks.
Always he follows, Always he's there.
Around the corner, the Goomsler stares.
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 1:29 PM UTC
Water falls over the chasm that holds eternity.
It is the thin wall that separates us from falling
Into the chasm together. We are chasing the eternity that lies at the bottom,
Where all the world no longer matters and all that remains is our joy and love.
Then can we simply be.
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 9:29 AM UTC
If I am salt
In your wounds, I burn
In your mouth, I leave distaste
In your glory, I am the particle swept away
In your ocean, I am the invisible lost one
In your life, I am salt
If I am salt
Then what good am I?
In your burns, I bring cleansing
In your wounds, I bring healing
In your distaste, I bring flavor
In your glory, I stand aside smiling
In your ocean, I bring life
If I am salt
May 24, 2013
May 24, 2013 at 9:44 AM UTC
I fail; still you succeed
I cry; still you smile
I stumble; still you stand
I crumble; still you're strong
Where my failures fall into a darkened hole
They hide and grow and wreck my soul
They torture me until I am no more
And like a lion they fiercely roar
I scream; you answer
I need; you supply
I find; you're treasure
I fall; you rescue
I find you like a dove alighting
And I slowly, slowly give up my fighting
I run into your outstretched arms
Where you protect me from failures and harm.
Jun 11, 2013
Jun 11, 2013 at 9:38 AM UTC
I remember the hope you once had
When you knew happiness as a lad
But the clock ticking
The attacks kept knicking
Away at your heart once glad
Something shattered the person you were
Something initiated your life into blur
I can not know
How deep the sorrow
That your heart seems to lure
Where O light did you go?
Why this baggage must I tow?
To help you find
Your own self and mind
That your heart has long let go.
We, hand in hand, must not part
The binding of self is an art
You are me
The one who can't see
How lost, how desperate, our heart
Nov 25, 2013
Nov 25, 2013 at 11:28 AM UTC
Death was behind us
Eternity ahead
Living to whisper
Words unsaid
Drifting to drift
No goal in mind
Until certain provoking
I unhappily find
When one is dead
With one frightening goal
The living should dread
Or pay the toll
The toll beyond
What any can bear
A constant haunting
Silently lurking there
Dec 9, 2013
Dec 9, 2013 at 10:21 PM UTC