#traumarecovery
tricked myself
into believing
i was okay.
took another path,
veered off course—
now my
neuropathways
are backfiring.
forcing myself
to keep my head high,
so i don’t slip
into the same
chaotic state
that’s way
too familiar.
it’s all
so tiring.
i’m sick
of it.
tired of
feeling comatose,
unalive,
just drifting.
with tired
eyes.
i’m ready
for what’s next.
i need something
with weight—
with substance.
with meaning.
i’m done
keeping my
head down.
i’m done
drowning.
it’s my time.
this isn’t
my ending.
this is the
beginning
of an era
they thought
was lost.
i’m reclaiming
what’s mine—
i’m ready
for
what’s next.
because nothing
will hold me down
anymore.
Jul 29, 2025
Jul 29, 2025 at 2:51 AM UTC
i try to see
the bright side
every day,
but deep down,
i’m scared—
my nerves
frayed,
worn thin
like overused threads.
i spent years
simply surviving,
keeping my head low,
waiting
for the right timing
to make it out
unscathed.
but cuts
and scrapes
still touch the surface,
and the light
inside my heart
flickers—
on repeat.
i know
what it’s like
to feel something,
but life
isn’t fair,
and the pain
i bear
makes me question:
will i remain
broken forever?
or will i
break free
from this cycle—
free from
the fear—
and like a phoenix,
take flight,
rise from the ashes,
and finally
fix my broken heart?
Jun 29, 2025
Jun 29, 2025 at 7:27 AM UTC
Never let someone who hasn't been in your shoes tell you how to tie your laces.
Laces are complicated, and they take time to figure out.
If you can't tie your laces, you'll figure it out eventually.
It's okay if you need help tying your laces, we all start somewhere.
Are your laces ***** We can clean them.
Too thin? It'll work out somehow.
Thick? We'll find a way.
If you have velcro instead, that's okay too.
You can't tie your laces in a normal way? We can find another one, even if it's more complex.
If you don't tie your laces, you'll fall in them.
If you do, you can keep walking, maybe even run,
and eventually forget you had laces in the first place.
In the end, you'll realise that,
your laces, messy or neat,
have always been yours,
and that's enough.
Jun 2, 2025
Jun 2, 2025 at 11:38 AM UTC
The beginning of 2018 I was struggling beyond words
I was struggling to get out of bed
I was struggling to find happiness within myself
I was struggling to eat a simple meal
2018 was the year I attempted to end everything
2018 was the year I sat in treatment in the hospital after a suicide attempt and opened up for the first time in my 21 years of life at the time
2018 was the year jersey shore medical saved my life and made me feel something again
2018 was the year I knocked down every wall I ever built since the age of 7
2018 is the year I went back and accepted the fact that I couldn’t save my 7 year old self no matter how much I wanted too
2018 is the year I rebuilt my life, making it more open and filled with scenery
2018 is the year I took my life back
2018 is the year I threw my emotions into writing
2018, you’ve been one hell of a chapter in this book, and my god I am so thankful it wasn’t the last chapter
2019 I’m ready for you baby
Dec 31, 2018
Dec 31, 2018 at 2:05 AM UTC