#toyed
You treated me like I was your toy,
I had plans to become your boy,
I thought of what all,
But never imagined this fall.
The fall of our love,
The fall I will serve,
This isn’t what I deserve,
I thought our love could preserve.
Yet we are standing here,
With eyes full of tears,
We could have been peers,
If you had kept me as your dear.
Instead, you asked me to help you,
I thought this was to grow closer,
But you were just my player,
and your game ---a love slayer.
I would give you that,
You are a very good liar,
And I am just a cryer,
Now start finding your new buyer
Wrong is what I am not,
for even after your plot
My heart still loves you,
All it is perceives blue.
Are you happy now,
After treating me like a cow,
Is your personal vendetta complete,
can I find someone else to please.
But I will still ask you,
Why did you choose me,
What made me a key,
What is that you plea?
When I see your photo,
Tears fill my eyes,
my hairs start to rise,
While my mind still ask---
“Why me?”
My love for you was true
But you treated me like your crew
Now I need something strong to brew
To forget that you ever flew
Sep 17, 2025
Sep 17, 2025 at 2:47 PM UTC
She wanted to remain pure,
unstained,
unpoked.
She had toyed with getting a tattoo
but realised it wasn’t
individual anymore.
But she was in need of validation.
Was she past her peak? She’s still cool right?
The needle stuck into her skin like the scent of an old lover. It left a fizzy sensation behind.
The ink spread.
She kept poking,
stabbing,
stick n poking.
What emerged was a star.
Startled,
strained by Tar,
scarred,
her sparkle faded.
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 7:22 PM UTC
It was a lonesome and cold love
A heartless love
A painful love
A love that wasn’t love
A forbidden lust disguised as “love”
And like love it was strong and powerful
It moved my emotions
It moved my thoughts
It altered my views
It changed my ways
And it made me miserable
It made me long for something unreachable
Unattainable but felt like it was already at my fingertips; although never closer. Never further.
The fear of moving away from it
Kept me holding on
Trying
Losing
A battle never to win always to lose
Like a soldier I fought and I continued
Just to learn
That I was not supposed to be a soldier
It was not my battle
I bled for nothing
I fought for nothing
Lies laid there like dust never to be cleaned
Slowly did I learn
I had to let go
Let go and move on
But how do I?
Teach me to be as heartless
Teach me how not to crumble
Teach me something I already know at heart but refuse to accept
Stop coming back
Stop leading me
Leave your dust and do not come back to whirl it around the room again
Just let me let go
Please
Apr 11, 2018
Apr 11, 2018 at 7:26 PM UTC