#toxin
The black cat stares at me intently
As if it feels it's letting me down gently
Watching my every move attentively
The echos of past curse my god ridden soul
Screams and taunts fill my body like an uncureable toxin
Please give that antitoxin
She begs for someone to help let that critter in
All for something that could have been
Dec 5, 2025
Dec 5, 2025 at 12:41 AM UTC
Unforgettable days described
on a scroll
soaked with sin.
Toxín.
Bright and smart,
she was so alive,
pure beauty of life.
He took all he could gain
showing her just disdain,
whispered words
that she wants,
getting under her skin
but toxín.
And she heard
that her fate
is a widow from now,
silent vow.
So let it begin
with toxín.
He thought that woman like her
won't be able to leave,
will be silent, naive
and consent just to live
next to him -
so relentless and grim.
Just to serve,
just to live in the shadow,
just to try to deserve.
Feigning grin.
Who is he to get those vague jokes
about toxín?
He thought he would drink to the bottom,
but drops flowed down the glass.
Why this soul is so rotten?
Why he incessantly looks at
her silhouette?
Why he's searching for rhyme like poet?
Now he lurched..
Her toxín is his end.
The stars will go out,
his rough desire to hear her voice like tweet,
feel her touch, hear her sound...
She won't be there anymore,
she will never give treat,
and he won't ignore
broken bound.
Every minute is poisoned.
Toxin.
The morning is dawning,
the wind scatters birds,
and now he is calling
to say that he loves.
A fragment of her heart will be healing,
she knows.
Infernal existence,
time flows,
and he's full of faith
whispers name.
Does he know that his distance
is passing away?
She cries and asks how to live,
she's sincere in tears -
she needs time to relieve.
He did hold her..
No way,
every hour was poisoned,
so he had once to pay.
One of them had to
take all that toxin.
Jan 24, 2025
Jan 24, 2025 at 4:50 AM UTC
...I mean, where do I begin?
Her toxin,
It has me locked in
Open to every sin
A reckless passion
Electrifying the skin
She reminds me softly through a coy grin
That there's no rules but she likes the discipline
So I jumped in
Just for it to be a solo swim
Don't trust a whim
©2024
Jun 30, 2024
Jun 30, 2024 at 1:32 PM UTC
and i can't feel like myself,
i'm locked inside the world of,
somebody else.
where the walls feel like a box,
and this skin feels like a toxin
to me.
i wanna be free
Jul 2, 2020
Jul 2, 2020 at 3:43 PM UTC
Queens Loves Poets. (for Em MacKenzie)
———————————————————-
*Kings love making war,
no wonder, the people,
remember well fond
their femi-mine
rulers with femi-fervor,
Queens, who loved poets.
You fear Jesus,
Adore Mary,
generosity of understanding.
because it is hard
for woman to do
cruelty,
till she has been abused
by men who thought
they were kingly by being
beknighted, unbeheaded
for now at least.
Men who invented Brandy,
in the be of night,
were stupid men,
they forgot alcohol, the
Brandy of Channing,
is not fit for manning,
for it is a*
toxin, like me, like me.
Jul 4, 2020
Jul 4, 2020 at 3:14 PM UTC
A vile of acid on your tongue.
You words are like toxins I inhale,
suffocating every breath I take,
injecting self doubt in my veins.
Muscles trembling with every pace,
landfiling my heart with every beat.
Blaming and calling
crazy and emotional
in response to your says,
leaving me to question
my own sanity everyday.
You felt like a insidious catalyst;
a cancerous wound,
a rabid havoc,
a malicious destruction
withering me in the subtlest of ways.
But here we are once again,
rekindling old flames
even when we know it's poisonous for us to stay.
Don't know if we're too weak to leave
or are too mindlessly lusting
for the poison to infiltrate our bloodstream
and corrupt us to our cellular level.
Either way, it's a grosteque addiction
for the soul, mind and heart.
Jul 24, 2019
Jul 24, 2019 at 12:38 PM UTC
I don't know if you can see,
What I have become
For so long and so far,
Has been the distance that I run
Yet no matter how hard I try
To stand against the cold
It freezes me straight to the core
And so I stand alone
I found you, I fell for you
I guess it's meant to be
The strength of my true self
And the other turned its cheek
Surrounded by the bitterness
I fought for what I love
But now this Hell bares witness
To see it's not enough...
Oh how I love to love you so,
To touch your pretty face
The moment I laid eyes on you
My anguish was erased
But when you're far from my reach
My arms are filled with lead
A poison spreading through my mind
A fate to strike me dead
I saw you as my everything,
Isolation was my foe
So hard it seemed at times to me
To let that poison go
I knew it wasn't possible
I said it so myself
But you have always loved me like
Nobody else
The mirror shows the sticks and stones
That broke my very heart
It's held together by my faith
A faith that hates to last
So I push it further and further still
I want to stay by you
But the voices whisper in my ear
IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU!!
Oh how I love to love you so,
To touch your pretty face
The moment I laid eyes on you
My anguish was erased
But when you're far from my reach
My arms are filled with lead
A poison spreading through my mind
A fate to strike me dead
It's hard to live with myself
Knowing only I care
The second one never begun
He hates the way I stare
You're so ******* beautiful
It really makes me think
Some stories are repeats
Here's Beauty, here's the Beast!
No matter what she says to me
I'll always love you, you know
That's why I'll never say goodbye
I'll hold out for hope
Oh how I love to love you so,
To touch your pretty face
The moment I laid eyes on you
My anguish was erased
But when you're far from my reach
My arms are filled with lead
A poison spreading through my mind
A fate to strike me dead
This poison taking over me,
I figured out its name...
The poison is Obsession
And it will take me to the grave...
The poison is Obsession
And won't miss my dying day...
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 4:50 AM UTC
I painted the pollution in the sky with my own blood
I was proud
So I sat below it, as it dripped back down
Puddle by puddle
I can see what it was that pain passed on
The pollution of my own wreckage
Thick, it choked my breath
I stress over my own twisted toxins
Carrying the weight of me
On my back
Back home.
Mar 21, 2018
Mar 21, 2018 at 6:28 PM UTC
I want to speak
I want to say hello
I want to say I love you and I always have
I want to tell you I keep going in hopes that one day
I might really know you
I want to tell you how even though you are human,
Somehow, you are perfection
I want to say I'll be there for you when no one else is
I'd love to tell you death is a small price to pay
To see you smile
But instead I tell you nothing at all
Because my voice,
My voice is a toxin
That freezes hearts
And when I speak
The toxin pierces my lips
And I am helpless to stop it
It wouldn't matter what I'd say
My voice would stab you as if it were a knife
And it would leave permanent scars
My voice would stain you with
All of the horrors that are me
So I'll keep those words to myself
And pray that you'll find someone
That can make you
Smile
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 2:56 PM UTC
The very air I breathe is like poison to my system
Toxins in my veins, bravado slain, it's mischief
Wondering what's going on in my spectacular life
From the flames of a lighter to nomadic trips in the night
I'm a lost soul, a lone cause, I said that wrong
Just like everything else, bad lyrics to sad songs
I'm told to talk more, and told to talk less
A double standard board walk, a wooden plank into the depths
Coz we're all just fish food for ferocity, humanity
And if anything killed the cat it's curiosity, hilarity
Satisfaction: zero, this ain't the time to play hero
More or less to defend the rest and pass the test with a blue-coloured Biro
Pen to paper, ink the saviour, Jack be nimble; quick
Trying to do the right thing is worse than jumping candlesticks
I know I seem quite confident, give me the world I'll handle it
But you have to realise I'm only human with nightmares too imaginative
Just colouring in white pages to fill blank spaces
Is this just one for me or for the ages?
Because you can find a reason to smile in creation
But more reason to grin and laugh in the path to destruction
Jul 17, 2017
Jul 17, 2017 at 4:15 PM UTC
I found solace within a rock.
It encapsulates sunlight, a greedy absorber of:
Toxins, poisons. Maladies of an internal kind.
As it took whatever fear I gave, whatever fault I could find.
I found 31 and wrapped them around my wrist
To glance- remake, remind me:
That all fears dissapaite
In an amber coloured sea.
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 6:48 AM UTC
**** these tiny butterflies,
that rest in my stomach,
and expand in my chest...
like little paper knives,
i choke.
and
ill block my lungs one day,
and ***** them up,
coughing out each wing
and eyeball and
tooth
.
.
.
even if theyve got my tongue twisted,
and my brain scattered,
like paint,
it is venom to my
squeezing, breathing heart
and
one day
ill rip out my
intestines
just to see them
gone.
Mar 9, 2016
Mar 9, 2016 at 1:51 AM UTC
**i bleed toxins/ don't
you taste them/ in
your water/ in
your wine/ on
your
lips/
it's a
ma-
tter/
of time**
Feb 17, 2015
Feb 17, 2015 at 1:46 PM UTC
what's difficult is that you can't tell the
difference
between
a prince
and
a toxin.
the toxin is dressed in bright blue eyes
and jet black fluffy hair.
he can sing,
write,
play drums,
and is troubled.
he drags you in with one smile.
he is everywhere
and tells you enough so you'll stay.
his words aren't followed by actions,
but you believe him anyway.
he drags you in with enough to hook you.
he makes you feel guilty
because you did something small that
one time,
yet
he has done far worse
he drags you in with your own flaws.
he says sorry like its a daily pill
and means it
as much as a used piece of gum, on the underside of a table,
means to a stranger.
he drags you in with a minimum performance
he wants your body
and your body only.
you say no for so long,
you finally give in.
he drags you in with hot breaths.
he is bad for you, and you know it.
yet you take another
spoonful
of the toxic waste he is and
you drag yourself in.
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 10:01 PM UTC