#toxicfriends
Some friends you think are permanent
Some friends are here to teach a lesson then leave
You were one of the friends I thought were permanent.
Hurting me
Making the friends I’ve known longer chose you.
So it hurts it hurts so much to the point of me thinking I wonder who would miss me if I just
Disappear
I want to cry i cant though at school so many people asked if I was ok.
I wasn’t I said I was.
7d ago
May 27, 2026 at 1:00 PM UTC
I drunk the acid,
It burns and burns,
It smelled so sweet,
Just like the very mention of your name.
I drunk the acid,
It tasted so bitter,
It fooled me,
My insides burn,
Yet i take another swig,
Just like that very first cig,
I drunk the acid,
Why is it cruel?
Why does it burn?
Why does if fool?
Why did you leave?
I drink the acid,
It makes my insides shrivel and hide,
It burns and burns,
I want it to leave.
Why did you burn?
Why did you lie?
Why did you even bother to stay by my side?
I drink the acid,
I melt and rot,
My skin falls off.
I drink the acid,
"Go away!" i say.
I drink the acid,
Only scattered bones and melted skin remain.
Mar 8
Mar 8, 2026 at 2:51 PM UTC
A gift to make my day
Grace me with your presence
Then take it all away
Well, if that's all you can do
Then you can keep it
Because I've dealt with so much worse
Than just your ******* silent treatment
Aug 28, 2025
Aug 28, 2025 at 7:24 PM UTC
you left me
feeling sorrow
telling them
"he'll forget about it tommorow."
your hugs were empty
no love, or care
and then i knew
my feelings you couldn't spare.
because you don't love me
you never did
why would you do this
we're just kids
you saw it as fun
while you dragged the knife
painfully across my skin
and slowly took my life
but somehow i still miss you
so much about you
i miss your empty hugs
you weightless compliments
i miss the way
i cared so much about you
even though i knew
you never cared at all.
Mar 6, 2025
Mar 6, 2025 at 3:31 PM UTC
maybe your love language
was anger
maybe your love language
was hate
maybe your love language
was treating me like ****
maybe your love language
was saying: "lol can't relate"
because that's all you treated me with
so i hope those are your love languages
because i hope you loved me
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 11:51 PM UTC
I'm sorry, really.
I hadn't meant to bother you by
Messaging you everyday for a week,
Each following one more frantic than the last,
Because you wouldn't respond.
I was scared.
Really, really scared.
Scared that you had done something to yourself...
Scared that, maybe, you
Stayed in bed too long
Cut too deep
Went too many days without eating
Too many days skipping your meds-
Or maybe, took all your skipped pills all at once---
It's irrational, I know.
I'm sorry.
...
I remember, I've done this before,
I was... 10, it was 2020.
I remember, my best friend, Kaydence, wouldn't respond to my texts
for a month.
We had fought,
It was some stupid Minecraft game.
And then, she just
Stopped texting
Back.
I was lonely, it was quarantine after all, and I didn't have no one else to talk to.
I texted her every single day
Cried every single day.
I was being dramatic, obviously,
I'm always so **** dramatic.
When she came back, she acted like nothing had happened.
Her mom had just taken away her phone, or something.
I didn't have to worry.
...I think that month I spent, alone,
Thats when it had started to get bad.
...
When you did respond,
you told me that you were sorry.
That you were
alive.
I think you understood where my worry came from.
I asked you where you had been,
and you said that you were just doing school and sleeping.
It was another depressive episode.
Oh, well.
I feel bad to feel relieved,
But
It could've been worse.
You could've
Cut too deep
Or stayed in bed
Or skipped your meds
Or taken too many...
You could've
Left me.
I said sorry for being such a bother,
Said that "I hope you feel better."
And even though thats not quite right thing to say,
But I think that's the closest I could've gotten.
Nov 24, 2024
Nov 24, 2024 at 8:57 PM UTC
Writing this because I feel like there is so much more to be said
A for anagram
Because you rearranged my brain like a nonsense sentence
B for below
Because that's what my social status is compared to yours
C for complain
Because that's all you ever did
D for dread
Because that's all you made me feel
E for even
Because even now, you mess up my brain
F for freak show
Because that's where you thought I belonged
G for girl
Because even though I was out to you, you still called me one
H for help
Because I think you need some…
I for idk
Because whenever I asked you a question, that's how you responded
J for joker
Because that's what you are, like the card in a deck. Useless
K for kid
Because you act like a toddler
L for lies
Because those are all you told me
M for me
Because that's who you never cared about
N for never
Because that's when you will realize what you threw away
O for okay
Because you know that I'm not
P for power
Because i never realized, but you had it all
Q for quick
Because that's how our friendship ended
R for revenge
Because I know it won't help
S for sap
Because just like sap, you are sticky and annoying
T for thumb
Because I always had to be the one to give you a thumbs up
U for umbrella
Because I was always the one to protect you from the rain, getting nothing in return
V for vacation
Because I sure as hell need one from you
W for whatever
Because you keep saying that, thinking it makes you sound cool
X for xenophobia
Because I think you have that
Y for YOLO
Because I really hope that you do
Z for zzz
Because that's the noise you made when I needed you the most
I think we might need another alphabet…
I know this one is worse, but it still says a lot and was hard to write sooo…
Nov 23, 2024
Nov 23, 2024 at 1:58 PM UTC
10 years of drawing
9 years of being friends
8 years of being bullied
7 years of being bullied by you
6 years of guilt
5 years of trying to fit in
4 years of writing poetry
3 years of letting you manipulate me
2 years of knowing something was wrong with our friendship
1 year of trying to tell you
0 years of freedom
Nov 20, 2024
Nov 20, 2024 at 8:12 PM UTC
fake
like plastic
left me alone
to cry
and die
and deal with my own problems
didn't care
that i was struggling
didn't care
that i was hurt
didn't care
about me at all
didn't care
you never did
you are just a piece
of useless plastic
in the junk yard
worthless
making the earth worse
harming
hurting
haha i hate you so much
Nov 14, 2024
Nov 14, 2024 at 2:41 PM UTC
sometimes i wonder
if you even cared about me
i wonder if you there's anything about me you know
i wonder if you can see
sometimes i wonder
what goes on in your brain
maybe "i'll use him for a joke"
or maybe "i'll make him go through pain".
sometimes i wonder
if inside me, there's something wrong
if inside everyone who knows me
there's something about hate... a song
a song
a melody
saying something's wrong
something's wrong with me
i can't see
you treated me like ****
but i wanted to be your friend?
why
why did i want to be your friend
you were awful to me
was it my fault?
Nov 14, 2024
Nov 14, 2024 at 2:25 PM UTC
Icy stares open
Eyes that have been touched by pain
Yet freeze ones left warm~
Nov 10, 2024
Nov 10, 2024 at 4:55 PM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, sometimes realization hits hard, like a suffocating breath:\
They broke her bones and scratched her pride
They whipped her skin and shattered her spirit
They locked her soul in her body
They stole her truth
and swept her dreams
and split her heart into a million piece
They deprived her of hope and kept her thirsty for a breath
------ravenfeels
Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 4:55 PM UTC
Why is it always you?
Why does it have to always be about you?
For once, think about others.
Did you know the night you abandoned me,
I almost killed myself?
Probably not cause you don't ask about me.
Did you know my dog has been almost 3 months?
You knew she was sick for months.
But you never asked about her.
It's always about you.
My feelings don't matter to you.
You use me till I'm dry.
You mentally ***** me up.
I'm so lost of what to do.
Your not a friend to me.
I'm just supporting you to keep you afloat.
I'm hoping one day you'll realize what I've done to make you happy.
To push you to achieve things.
Yet you blow me off when I needed you at my lowest points.
Yet, I'm still here.
I'm your safety net.
What will you do if I give out?
Your safety net is hanging on by a thread.
You better come to realization before my last thread breaks.
Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 9:13 PM UTC
you’ve engulfed me,
in foreign waters..
drowned by this sea of
petty lies and empty cries,
so you could keep me around
for your well-being
but never asking
about mine.. or, how i’m doing
you never really cared about me,
you never really gave a thought about me.
you’ve only picked at my insides
from a distance..
ripping me piece by piece
while you struggled to stay whole..
i know you prayed i’d stay blind,
and now you’ve lost your mind.
because i didn’t
Sep 8, 2018
Sep 8, 2018 at 2:53 PM UTC
There are days when I want to give up
I want to leave so I don't have to deal with you
I want to cry
But I don't think you deserve to win
You don't deserve my tears
You don't get to become 'famous' on my account
You deserve friends who are as ****** as you
You deserve to be brought up under a fake name
You deserve everything that's coming to you
Cause Karma's a *****
Nov 2, 2017
Nov 2, 2017 at 12:58 PM UTC
It stings to sit at a table with you
and know you are trying to pull my friends away
It stings to sit 3 feet away from you
and no one at the table is going to acknowledge me
It stings to think that you had my heart
and you threw it away for someone who dumped you after a week
It stings to look back on us and our good times
and realize I wasn't happy
It stings to know you still have a pull on my life
and I don't want you anywhere near me anymore
It stings so much
and you're still putting lemon in the hole you put in my back when you stabbed me
Oct 31, 2017
Oct 31, 2017 at 11:33 AM UTC
I smiled as I stepped out of school
I didn't want to reunite
Neither did I want to hug any of them
I smiled as I stepped out of school
I made tons of mistakes
Neither was I considered a 'normal student'
I smiled as I stepped out of school
I will never miss the endless torture from the books
Neither will I miss the taunts and the painful jokes directed at me
I smiled as I stepped out of school
I never had friends
Neither would I have the ones that would defend me when hate is directed to me.
Dec 8, 2015
Dec 8, 2015 at 5:05 AM UTC