#throbbing
A person-shaped hole
burns where my heart should be—
exact curve of your shoulder,
weight of your laugh,
heat of your absent hand.
Passion carved it perfectly.
Now the wound beats louder
than any whole heart ever could,
throbbing with the shape
of you.
Apr 2
Apr 2, 2026 at 6:48 PM UTC
Is there something that can lift my bitterness away?
Can it free me of my lingering wrath?
Or help my throbbing heart to laugh?
Or empty my mind of loathsome?
Evaporating the wholesome grief I had swallowed in my hippocampus.
Yet,
God has granted this gift to our hearts.
So,
Why don't we perceive life as bliss?
Oh, Flourishing Forgiveness!
How I longed to taste your fragrance!
To obscure my grief-stricken heart with your warm radiance.
Enter the teary eyes, O Forgiveness, with your gleaming light!
Heal the grudges that make our lives tight.
Help us flip the decrepit pages.
And abandon our grimaces.
Apr 13, 2021
Apr 13, 2021 at 7:15 AM UTC
My heart is slowly falling to pieces
Breaking more each day
I don't understand what I did wrong
But something drove you away
It has to be my fault you fled
I guess you have grown tired
Sick of looking at the one thing
You used to above all else desire
It has been a long time coming
Suspected from the very start
That one day you would come to your senses
Pack your bags and depart
The melodic tones of your voice linger
Echoes haunting my head
Silence keeps me up at night
Restless in my empty bed
The beat of my heart is feeble
I wonder if I am dying
Begging for a shred of relief
But the pain keeps amplifying
Losing track of the days passing by
Irrelevant time spins around
The ticks of the hands moving on clocks
Become another meaningless sound
All I can feel is the throbbing ache
Resonating through my heavy heart
Paralyzed by the grip of agony
As my entire world is torn apart
Nov 3, 2020
Nov 3, 2020 at 6:32 PM UTC
I always hurt by caring too much
Expecting similar effort in return
This time thought I could maintain control
Some habits too deeply rooted to unlearn
There seems to be no magic number
Of heartbreaks able to change my ways
Come back to the very thing that destroys me
Resolve weakens in a matter of days
Each time I crash a little harder
The throbbing gets worse, injuries more severe
Plunged into a deep pool of denial
Would rather live a lie than face you not here
Although the agony is somewhat unbearable
Weight of dishonesty too heavy to hold
Know without a doubt it does not compare
To torment of watching our romance unfold
The most difficult decision I have ever made
Has been to give up on what I poured time into
Level the skyscraper that took eons to build
Clear unsalvagable wreckage and begin anew
Though all that remains are tiny pieces and dust
Of love we were so proud to call our home
I desperately scramble for answers in the ruins
Mind broken, I relentlessly comb
Looking like a pitiful fool
Witnesses point, scoff loudly, and stare
They don't understand how it feels to lose your heart
Should be embarrassed but I'm far too unaware
Oblivious to disarrayed surroundings
Aching nerves scorch muscles with greif
Any semblance of time long ago flew away
Have been trapped an eternity in a stupor of disbelief
****** sore palms red from scouring sharp sections
Hunting the same oversifted handfuls of our past for a trace
Of intimacy once lacing our brittle tired bones
Is it the feeling or just familiarity I chase?
All I know is functions halt when I'm on my own
Unsure if I can survive without you by my side
Whether its your soul or simply your presence I need
Or something else all together I can't decide
I was not clingy until you carried me on your back
Was not jealous before I discovered your power
One glance leaves head dizzy, drawing in with your charm
Emotions grow wild, stronger by the hour
So I'm stuck here stumbling mumbling incoherently
Staggering zig-zagging directions soaked
Love left me beaten, too ****** up to form a sane thought
Mental state disturbed by the lies on which I choked
Conscience becoming numb, withdrawn into my shell
Long to close eyes for a semi-permanent sleep
I've not yet felt such emptiness before
An old hole reopens for each promise you failed to keep
Hopefully this will be enough
To secure chains constricting my heart
Lift the veil so my stubborn eyes can see next time
Stop the flood of high-pressure emotions before they can start
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 6:37 PM UTC
Pain is subjective,
Physical and emotional,
Pain can be:
Dull,pins and needles,
Aching,cramping,stabbing,
Burning,tingling, shooting.
Pain can cause:
Fear,stress ,anxiety and even depression.
Pain is what an individual patient experiences and feels,
No one can suffer your pain for you,
Others can only sympathize or pray for you.
Aug 19, 2018
Aug 19, 2018 at 4:12 PM UTC
Throbbing jawbone aches
Such excruciating pain
Leaves me motionless
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 4:45 AM UTC
It is a heartthrob’s way
To say
“I’d rather have noone than to not have you”
When really
The truth is
That unless the other person
Wants you too
Then you're just spending time
On a beach by yourself
Watching the waves crash on by
Never surfing yourself
What is life?
If not lived
While you still have your health?
It is a heartthrob’s way
So I say
Nothing else
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 2:13 PM UTC
*It keeps creeping in
Slowly,
Indulging in every cell
Deep within me.*
*What freedom do I have now?
When all I can ever do
Is counting
The days down.*
*The throbbing
The stinging
The tugging
The aching*
What did I ever do
To deserve this pain
*That’s been haunting me
For weeks?*
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 12:10 AM UTC