#thousandwrittenlives
Slowly
she began to fall
down the rabbit hole
learning about herself
and what she
believed in
it wasn't so bad there
that was when
she decided to stay
just a little longer
Oct 23, 2020
Oct 23, 2020 at 3:00 PM UTC
For the first time
she was trying
she didn't want
what she was heading to
all this time
she wanted to
Live her life
and love it as well
Oct 23, 2020
Oct 23, 2020 at 2:56 PM UTC
She was stuck
in endless cycles
it seemed to her
more harm than good
to be a girl
in this world
Oct 23, 2020
Oct 23, 2020 at 2:54 PM UTC
At night time
that was when
she was truly
alone
with herself
listening to her thoughts
drowning in her thoughts
at night time
no one was watching
no one was there
to protect her
from her thoughts
Oct 21, 2020
Oct 21, 2020 at 2:44 AM UTC
She looked at that day
that moment
in time that she felt
that one day
she could go
about her day
and truly be happy
feel happy
and stay happy
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 8:06 PM UTC
She was learning
to choose herself
to love herself
and to take care
of herself
But it did not
come easily
she wanted to
loose herself
in herself
and love herself
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:49 PM UTC
Bravery
didn't come easily to her
she could see
every reason to
not be brave
bravery
wast the last plan
the last option
that she would take
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:46 PM UTC
she cared so deeply
yet felt like she
couldn't be more of an
outsider
and for no reason
overthinking caused her
to set herself apart
she couldn't see
that they cared
for her too
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:42 PM UTC
she wished
she could be done
searching
and wondering
if she chose correctly
or if she
was going the wrong way
she just wished
she could find
her path
her right way
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:40 PM UTC
Frequently
she forgot about herself
the things she needed
barely even occurred to her
Instead of herself
she remembered
for other people
and there needs
it's as if
she didn't matter to herself
at all
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:34 PM UTC
When she felt
she felt strongly
those emotions
and feelings
tightly wound
cut the wrong cord
and her whole world
will shake
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:15 PM UTC
She just wished
that she could fly
she could just
grow wings
and soar high
above her problems
and her life
fly away to
a place that
took her away
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:04 PM UTC
When she danced
it was as if
fairies sparkled
all around her
and there was this glow
about her face
To him
it just made her
irresistible
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:02 PM UTC
she swallowed her sadness
she told herself
that it was her fault
so why was she sad
it was her own doing
so why was she sad
Oct 19, 2020
Oct 19, 2020 at 7:38 PM UTC
She wore red
so that
she could lead him
so that
he could
always see her
his protector
Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 1:49 PM UTC
it seemed like
everyday
the sadness
overwhelmed her
so much
so often
that she couldnt
even describe
the feeling
all she knew
was that
she was sad
Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 1:45 PM UTC
Why is it that
being childish
is always discouraged
why can't people
embrace
the child inside them
why can't people
just see the magic
around them
like a child does
why can't people
love a the
little things of this world
Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 1:12 PM UTC
When she looked
at her reflection
all she could do
was poke and ****
pick apart her
Beauty
she couldn't help
but stare
at the vast
imperfections
to her
the beauty was hidden
beneath a mask
of doubts
and anxiety
Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 1:09 PM UTC
Sometimes
all of the
anxiety
stress
anger and
sadness
builds up
On those days
she let the
tears
overwhelm her
Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 12:01 PM UTC
But sometimes
the colors were
brighter
sounds were clear
her mind wandering
wherever it landed
light and colorful
beautiful thoughts
sometimes
these were the
thoughts
that consumed her
Sep 22, 2020
Sep 22, 2020 at 11:39 AM UTC
She wanted to live
like no one was
watching
live only for herself
and her memories
to care only about
what she wanted
but it wasn't that easy
because all she
did was worry
all she did was
be scared
if only she just lived
Sep 22, 2020
Sep 22, 2020 at 11:34 AM UTC
she was afraid
when they looked
at her
what did they see
always wondering
what they were thinking
how do they feel
analyzing every
little thing she said
overthinking
she just cared
so much
she just wanted to be
accepted
Sep 22, 2020
Sep 22, 2020 at 11:31 AM UTC
She just wanted
to live a life
that she would be
proud of
a life that she
was glad she lived for
one that she
would be sad to leave
but would leave satisfied
Sep 20, 2020
Sep 20, 2020 at 1:34 PM UTC
Sure enough
when all of the
distractions of life
are taken away
you are left
with yourself
your flaws
there for you to
judge
and you alone
your imperfections
for you to pick
apart, for you to
overranalyze
but mostly it is
there for you to love
to cherish
and to take care of
at the end of the day
you have yourself
Sep 20, 2020
Sep 20, 2020 at 1:18 PM UTC