#thisisforandy
This sea of sorrow we swim in keeping our heads above to breathe is a fight, life is fragile and un promised to us all. Like waves in the ocean or the turning of the cosmos , change unravels if we want it to or not.
I hope solace finds a way into the coldest depths of sadness, hope a beautiful human feeling burns and weeps in each of us. The relationships we have with those departed is always with us growing as we do, personalized and meaningful in our hearts and minds, touched by the light of life we appreciate our own endeavors and those closest to us more. No better a way to appreciate, to give thanks to and also to feel the compassion our cherished friends give us every day. There is no better inspirations or sacrifice. Andy, so many here moved by you, as we will always be. Thank you for being the inspiration guiding us. You are hope.
Jan 2, 2015
Jan 2, 2015 at 12:00 AM UTC
I received an email today
with some of your last thoughts and words.
You wanted to change the world
but you are now no more.
I have never met you,
spoke with you,
seen you face to face.
But in reading your words,
I have found common ground.
You will never know me
and I will never know you.
While I’m still here
still stealing breaths while I can,
I want this to be clear...
You are my friend
and you have changed my world.
Dec 31, 2014
Dec 31, 2014 at 10:28 AM UTC
I'm just tired. Of everything.
Lay your head on my shoulder and rest
Kind and tender offer, truly touches my heart, but my head is too heavy a burden for me to rest on anyone.
I will take that burden as I hold my own. If I were Atlas the Titan holding the sky above I would still take that weight
*You are beautiful.
Please don't stop being beautiful, love.
I no longer have a sky,
But you make me want to rebuild mine.
If only a piece.
You are a star,
Shining at night.
You are a lamp,
Shedding some light.
You are a hope,
Making me want to fight.
Want to fight.
But to weak to stand.*
**I will be your shoulder to cry on
I will be your arm to lean on
I will hold your hand when things get rough
I will light the way in your darkest times
I will be here to the end**
I just want to cry but the tears won't come.
Why cry darling? You have no reason to shed tears
*I'm so broken, *** I'm two shards away from gone.*
I can be the glue that holds you together. < holds you close > I will be here
*Glue always seems to wash away with me
< curls into a ball >*
Then I'm industrial welding. I'll be here for as long as you need and longer
Darling... you are a lovely piece of humanity, never lose that about you.
Please just hang on [my real name]. I couldn't bear losing you.
Dec 30, 2014
Dec 30, 2014 at 8:15 PM UTC
Why isn't the sky crying?
When the most beautiful soul has reached up to meet it?
Shouldn't such an embrace bring tears?
Or sunshine?
Why now, is all black and quiet?
Traffic continues when my heart has stopped.
The sky holds the love of my heart
That I never could.
And I'm crying,
And the sky is quiet.
I just hope the sky knows how lucky it is.
And I hope my love, my darling, can see me from somewhere
And know how much I love him still.
Dec 30, 2014
Dec 30, 2014 at 6:22 PM UTC
Be strong,
there is more of you inside then mere sadness,
so get a hold of yourself,you can do it!
I strongly believe that the desteny is something that we choose
so you just have to make it the way you want it to be!
Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 1:47 PM UTC
We all wonder in the dark
Trying to see the good
Trying to feel warmth
A small red ember falls to the ground
It glows and it gives of warmth
This is how his revolution started
A small speck in the dark
We fed the ember with praise
And likes that made it grow
People gathered as a fire became
People like his light and his warmth
He grew into a bonfire
Though not low on fuel and praise
Our fire has started to wane
Its not quite as bright
Or as warm
But it still changes our hearts
Andy a poet on here is really sick. Though he still manages to change our lives everyday. He's stronger than anything you'll ever encounter. Andy if you're reading this is means you need to kick cancer's **** because we're here to catch you and revive you so you can win. That's what I want for Christmas. For Andy to survive. When he does I will be first in line to say "Andy you've changed my life and I can't ask for a better savior." -_-_-Lukas-_-_-
Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 10:29 AM UTC
Blurred images
Hazy edged pictures
Images with burn holes
Things to see behind
Clouds of lingering sleep
This is the first time in awhile
I've actually felt okay
The world is still moving to fast
And me too slow
But my mind has a window
So I can see and hear
Though my throat still
Struggles for sounds
My hands form letters
That form words
That form phrases
My thoughts on pages
My feelings on paper
My soul wrapped into words
That will never be spoken
These are my own words written by someone else, hope you guys enjoy my first poem in a while, things are actually improving. If im lucky i'll survive -Andy
Dec 22, 2014
Dec 22, 2014 at 2:03 PM UTC
I don't want much,
nothing really.
I just hope that Andy survives,
a Christmas miracle.
That will be my priority Christmas gift,
but besides that,
all I want is you,
and for you to get better.
I want everyone has a warm house to come home to,
and a happy Christmas morning and day,
with smiles to go all around.
Dec 21, 2014
Dec 21, 2014 at 12:54 PM UTC
You know the way your hair flips drives me crazy
You have a smile that drives me wild
You've made me laugh even when I can't stop crying
You've held my hand through a dark time
You make my world a better place
You fight the demons of the human race
You make this all a possibility
I just want to thankyou my Andy
I can't word how much this has effected me. I mean you've been here for me and i dont even know how to say what i need to. Thankyou
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 5:13 PM UTC
You know how the sun is so important to us, as humans? You know how it's the center of all life and everything and how we love to see it, how it brightens our day literally and figuratively? How we try and imitate it with our lights and we remember it through the stars when it's gone, and we wish it could last forever but it can't?
Well, what if I told you Andy is like the sun?
It's brilliant and bright and lightens up our days. just like Andy does. We love to see it and think of it as a symbol of love and happiness, just like we we do about Andy. We may try and imitate it, but it's never as good as the original. We try and be as good as Andy, but you can never be as amazing as him. We remember it through the other stars the way we find Andy in others. And we all wish it could last forever, but it can't. All stories come to a close, even the best people's. Even Andy's.
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 2:19 PM UTC
I do not know you,
But this is for you,
Look at your friends
Their love is true
They cannot bear to see you cry
As they pray you do not die
As I look around
I see so many you have touched
You are loved beyond what you may know
So please Andy do not go
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 2:12 AM UTC
Andy, you may think that its your time now, and I can understand that.
But, while you may think I've helped you more, than you helped me, that's wrong.
You helped me so much…by being stronger than me, by remembering me well enough to even tell your friends about me. We've always had.an…odd friendship because of the peculiar and surprising way we met. I frankly don't care.
You're my friend, one of my best friends I might add, and we're going to stick together in this. The only reason I got an account on HP was because Echo wouldn't give me your email, and I had to talk to you.
Love you forever.
Dec 19, 2014
Dec 19, 2014 at 9:58 PM UTC
Take me death, I don't have a life to live.
He is only 15 but I feel the weight of ages upon my shoulders.
HE still has a life to live, to love, to laugh, to cry.
Take me death, I cannot bear too much, take me, death, I've had enough.
Dec 7, 2014
Dec 7, 2014 at 2:47 PM UTC
Andy
Let me just tell you
That I...
I love you.
You're my best friend
I'd never want more
Then that.
You made me smile
For weeks we would talk and laugh and I would nearly get in trouble in math class just to see what you had to say.
You're honestly one of the best friends I could hope for, you showed me purpose when I believed there wasn't any
You don't know how my face and heart would light up when you replied to me
And though we haven't talked in a while I miss you
I'd get a plane ticket out to you and help you accomplish your dreams if I could
Remember when you said we could go live in Seattle and hire an actress to go to gym for me?
Remember?
And we could go to Kansas and you could teleport to get me?
Andy, please...
I know you have no control over it
Three weeks to live...
You deserve three eternities
I'd give them to you if I could
But I can't
No one can
Though I know we all would.
So live your life to the fullest
Use those three weeks to the max,
And never, never give up dear Andy
Fight for us
Fight for me
But don't give in
You
Don't
Have
To
Die,
But
Even
If
You
Do
You
Will
Live
On.
Dec 19, 2014
Dec 19, 2014 at 6:21 AM UTC
Andy my friend I am praying for you
I know what happens is hard to go through
We all love you and hope you will smile
I hope to see you for a long time trial
I know cancer is a hard battle to win
But I am hoping that you will stay in your skin
The reason you fight the battle so long
Is the same exact reason you will become strong
Andy, you are not the cancer that is inside
Just push all the stupidness of this illness aside
Us people will still look at you the same
Within my heart you will always have fame
You are a great person and someone I will never forget
Even though to this day we have never met
Andy, you are important to this world and me
Even though cancer is in you, we will fight it, agreed?
I will stand with you and fight this battle until the end
I hope that you know that in me you have friend.
Dec 18, 2014
Dec 18, 2014 at 11:05 AM UTC
I'm not going to beg you to stay
I'm not going to sob please don't go
I'm not going to say you're too young
I'm not going to pretend it can all just be fixed
But I want you to know
I'll miss you everyday, like I already do
I'll pray for you everyday, like I already do
Some near four months ago now, when I joined this site
you were my first like and follow
you made me want to write, you still do
You are a comfort and an anchor
I only wish I could be the same for you
You are like my brother, but not, because you'd never hurt me
You make me feel like smiling and
I wish I could show you my smile, give you my laugh
give you back all the things you've given me
Late August this guy who called himself Magicath started following me
and I thought it was the greatest thing ever
But what was greater was getting to know the Playlist Of Souls
behind the screen name
Andy, I'm not going to ask you to stay for me, because no one's
been able to do that before,
never mind like this
But for you to stay
is my own tearful, secret wish
~"g"
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 5:14 PM UTC
Stay.
I don't care if you hate yourself
And hate everything around you.
Im going to be a selfish blunt ***** and tell you that I need you. We need you.
If you leave me,
Who will remind me to punish the holy and free the sinned
All while being awesome?
You will just leave me with heartache
And too many tears...
The grief will drown me,
And I will struggle for a breath that isn't there.
I might even join you.
There's still so much left for you to experience,
Like the way the sun might dance across your skin as you lay lackadaisically on the beach,
Or how you might smile and maybe shy away as I go paparazzi mode on you,
And the way the skyscrapers will tower over you, blocking the sun,
A vampire's natural habitat.
I need you to try
Theres so much left you need to do...
Like meet at starbucks somewhere in manhattan and write poetry together ;)
I want to be your tour guide.
Stay.
I need you,
If you leave, I'll never forgive you or myself.
I won't be able to go on,
And there would be no point for me to stay.
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 4:09 PM UTC
I hate to admit it but,
Maybe his time has come
Maybe he's meant to go
Three weeks of hanging on
He has no reason to
His love has gone
His mother is waiting
His best friend is there
Everyone he's lost along the way,
Waiting with open arms
Oliver
Abby
Evelyn
Joseph
Quinn
Ally
Catherine
And those are just a few
His family is there
He's lost everything
But himself
A short poem for Andy. Who was moved back to his home town for his last few weeks. Andy has been battling a cancer called soft tissue sarcoma. This has been a two year battle. It's closer to stage five than four now and he's been given three weeks to live. To say goodbye, to try and get better. Help me out and repost this to give him a reason to fight. Write your own poems and show him there's a reason to stay #ThisIsForAndy and #ANewReligion ~Thanks~
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 12:33 PM UTC