#thisguy
Right exactly where I need be
With everything to help me live comfortably
Live & well, I made it to my peace
Watching my lil cat sons fur shift with the wind roaming our balcony
Supporting the both of us with my own two feet
Reclaimed all the love I lost and gave it back to me
Picked my pride and my feelings up, my smile feels more complete
Finally on my own with a nice 3rd floor apartment as mine to claim
Grateful and blessed for the newly renovated space
Bar table, fresh carpet, great appliances, and newly coated paint
A few house warming gifts from beloved friends where my upcoming lays
A scentsy for fresh aromas to fill the room with euphoric tastes
A fancy rocking chair handed from one of my brothers from another mother
A nightstand with great symbolism of remembrance to eachother
A futon I enjoy naps on for my days off with a soft blanket to lay under
The scenery is nice and new, the town is so huge, i found a great running spot
I’ve been enjoying my job as a delivery driver for the richest company there is
That just feels good to say I guess, gives me a sense of being an actual part of it
Of course not everything’s perfect it’s my first apartment on my own, it’s a lot
I tell you what though, I haven’t had this sense of manhood to myself in awhile
What it means to actually be a man, a provider, a caretaker, an even more responsible soul
This journey is just the first phase of becoming the true man I see myself achieving
Everything in life makes me feel just a little more deeply on things
I’ve been feeling heavy stones lifted from my heart to relieve some aching pressure
I’ve found beauty and grace in so many lifeless and living objects, situations, & people that I see daily
I find inspiration where it’s dull, I find faith wherever I have troubles
This job and apartment have taught me so much, but I’ve learned from myself abundantly
Recognized more flaws and realized my point of views have doubled
Growing, conquering, & maintaining at all times, so when you think about me just know me and my lil furry son are doing more than just fine, Live & Well ❤️
Apr 29, 2021
Apr 29, 2021 at 9:19 PM UTC
I'm in love with this guy
Who sadly to say
Doesn't want to be one
With me
He was kind to me
Way back when
All those days
When we were friends
But it ***** to say
That I ******* up
I confessed my love
And it blew up
He liked me back
And thats no lie
But, the word love
Made him blind
Slowly
he ignored my text
my calls and
my presence
Yet one day
We talked again
He said he would confess
That it would all make sense
But on that day
As I waited
he never spoke
From there he was gone
What we had
never happened
what we could've been
disappeared
Leaving me in tears
With no one to hear
I see him today
And he doesn't care
He may look my way with sorrow
Because deep down
he knows he was at fault
as well
But as a senior in school
Why should he care
His life is just about to begin
When college comes to him
I write this today
To say what I need to say
To say I miss you
To say I forgive you
To say I wanna hate you
but,
I will always care for you
So thank you
For doing what you did
And making me
me
Thank you
Jan 22, 2017
Jan 22, 2017 at 8:00 PM UTC
I disliked you
the moment i met you.
I grew to hate you.
I grew to like you.
I grew to love you.
I hate how you
forced me
to listen
to your loud
metal inspiration
and your ****** rappers.
But i love how
you sang
loudly in your car
for the world to hear.
I said that you were crazy,
you laughed
and said
who cares.
I hate how
you complimented
every single girl
with me,
but me.
But i love how
you looked like
a little,
innocent,
happy kid
when you laughed.
But i love how
you enjoyed
the brownies
that i baked you
and that thankful
look in your eyes.
Nov 11, 2014
Nov 11, 2014 at 5:58 PM UTC