Theravada or Zen?

It used be Theravada 
Little did I know of Buddhist scrolls
Just a couple of commandments 
obsessed with death 
and a-clinging to enlightenment
Everything I did was with dharma and importance

Then it went to Zen, anything goes
absurdist, all for enlightenment
except overly polite ritual hymns
What’s up with that
when you don’t fear death?

Now I’m sort of back to Theravada 
With a hint of roots Zen, Bodhidharma 
But devotedly, I’ll take none of it all 
Why believe in enlightenment?
Just appreciate the fall
changes

**** It