#thepainofchange
Wednesday 17 December 2014
This one was beautiful. I sculpted it myself. Did you know that?
It took years and, if I’m completely honest, I was overly fond of it.
I’d made many, of course. I had to. We all had to.
Cupped, round, and smooth, heavy in my hand like a clay pigeon.
So beautiful...
Somehow it began in light,
Naïveté and youth.
I used to say it just felt right,
And free from all abuse.
At first it formed a perfect ring,
Of lies I thought were true.
I bring it, now, to end the thing.
I bring it, now, to you.
Because every thing must have its place,
Every thing in its own time.
This beautiful thing has failed it's need,
Inspiring only pain and rhyme.
-but may it live in memory, still,
May the growth outweigh the pain.
When pain brings growth beyond your will,
Remember fondly, this thing, again.
So why did I smile when you asked me to hold it?
Why did I find it fitting that you made me load it into the trap?
Why were the lines formed by your braced shoulder,
your leveled forearm, your
outstrectched, cradled hand,
so beautiful...
when you inclined your head,
Closed one eye, and,
Steady, raised your sights?
Why did I love you so much for pulling the trigger?
Dec 20, 2014
Dec 20, 2014 at 10:27 AM UTC
This thing, the words and all? I was trying on a new skin.
It was made of the old -the familiar, too, but transformed.
Something added that could take root,
Take me out from the norm.
Take on a new identity.
Perform.
Squinting at a light, held at arm’s length:
My own spotlight.
So you could watch me act it all out,
Over and over, forever on the page.
but nothing ends as it began.
My troubles, my worries, my lust, my greed,
All fictionalized and petty.
Disgust and shame.
Anger and fear,
Are not advisable
Unless they bring about change.
Even those, now left behind.
Moulted.
Shedding my old skin.
Toughening up the new.
Oct 30, 2014
Oct 30, 2014 at 10:17 PM UTC