#suicidepreventionmonth
The emptiness: you’re so longing to leave behind the shadows
left behind your eyes; watching quietly all the things that start
to feel so summarized; building memories on every fibre
of your skin, like towers crashing down in their own defeat
as my eyes watch the young die younger, to feel a bit alive
“Do I see dead people,” be ahead of most people- “do I behead
people,” live a once lonely life, cos it comes with no sequel;
but depression, a subtle prequel- subtracting most successful
friends to feel equal. I fudged up: _sugar butter, milk and cream,_
but still don’t feel as sweet as enough
Been so hurt and wounded- “something I also know” Felt so
traumatized to act hospitalized- “something I also know”
Done so much good, to get bad in return- “something I also know”
Gave all your trust just to be damaged- “something I also know”
Tomorrow’s sun seems to bring you darkness- “something I also know” Been in the company of friends that betray you- “something I also know”
The loudness of depression silences you- “something I also know”
Had so much opportunity pass you- “something I also know”
Hanging around those feelings making you want to hang
yourself- “something I also know” Feeling all, you can watch is this
world’s poison, to want to poison yourself- “something I also know”
Tried to give another shot at life, to feel like you want to shoot
yourself- “something I also know” Please let me hear out the pain of
your story, rather than getting to hear your story while
attending your funeral- _the pain you feel is a pain I also know_
Sep 15, 2024
Sep 15, 2024 at 3:58 PM UTC
i know
the waves of your mind
are racing
and you don't feel
like you can catch up
but,
the slits on your arms won’t
heal the slits in your heart
instead, look for the fragments
of constellations through seconds
so many connections
some of laughter
some of pain
most of love
you have a place in this
globe of beings
you just forgot for a second
so dive
like you dive into your mind
into the world in front of you
Sep 10, 2020
Sep 10, 2020 at 10:52 PM UTC