#suicidalthought
Tick Tock
The time is flying
Tick Tock
It's not stopping
Tick Tock
It keeps moving
Tick Tock
Why are you fighting
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What are you holding onto
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Why aren't you letting go
Tick Tock Tick Tock
Come on and just give in
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Time is gonna catch up
Tick Tock Tick
Is it really worth it
Tick Tock tick
You can't be loved
Tick Tock Tick
It won't hurt them
Tick Tock Tick
JUST GIVE UP
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Jan 8, 2020
Jan 8, 2020 at 10:09 AM UTC
I've been up since Monday,
Not an ounce of sleep
I feel so dead inside
But that ain't stopping me -
From smiling on the outside
Because a song I listened to last night,
That provoked certain thoughts and urges,
Said that it doesn't matter what's on the inside;
That you need to shove it deep down inside and just smile
Because only what's on the surface matters
So that's what I've been doing so far -
In the 2 hours I've been in public and around my best friend
I've smiled and threw jokes out
Laughing perfected fake laughs
Pretending that I'm sleeping while the world was dreaming
That I was having a happy dream in a cozy slumber
I pretend I wasn't crying all night long, alone
As I convinced myself that my best friend didn't need me;
When I get in those episodes where the need to die is so strong,
I can never really imagine a scenario where she cares or wants me around
But there's one scenario - one moment where she vaguely does
And it's when I see myself in my casket being lowered into my grave
I can see her sad and crying sometimes depending on the night
But others she just stares, remotely sad
Though, what do I care?
I'm dead and free
Mar 13, 2019
Mar 13, 2019 at 8:26 AM UTC
i've been walking around to find my self
i've been thinkin about to play it safe
all this time i didn't know that i was lost
all this time i didn't know that im a ghost
here but not here
im running away from my fears
is this what it feels like ?
growin up not knowing what to do
and every step i take, im always scared
but i convinced my self, dont be afraid
hey! am i a nice person? they said almost!
turned out i have became someone i hate the most
and i wish i could say, that im so done with life
someone out there please help me to understand
there are some days where i want to grab a knife
because sometimes my life, driving me mad
Nov 15, 2017
Nov 15, 2017 at 11:11 AM UTC