#sugarbum
You used to make me feel giddy
Anticipating for our next rendezvous
You used to make me able
To fly around without visible wings
You used to make me see
Things which were not real
You used to make me fight
For justice which was not even fair
You used to make me angry
When you disappeared out of thin air
You used to make me cry
Endless tears while mending my owh so broken heart
You now make me feel proud
Of picking up the shattered pieces you left behind
You now make me feel great
For being the only one wearing the parent cap
You now make me feel nothing
Because really I am the one who I should thank
You now make me feel zero
Because that's what you are, nil, nada, no more
Jun 30, 2020
Jun 30, 2020 at 7:44 PM UTC
I'm sorry
I take for granted that you will understand
That you will feel what I feel
How I'm feeling so sad and disappointed inside
I'm sorry
I forgot that you are not an adult
That you are still a tiny little boy
How I should not burden your small shoulders with my worries
I'm sorry
I must remind myself that I'm the parent
That you are merely a child, my child
How I should be the one looking after all
I'm sorry sugarbum
I really am
Jun 30, 2020
Jun 30, 2020 at 9:49 AM UTC