#sruggle - Hello Poetry

My brain is confused My brain is confused My brain is confused My brain is a broken record Repeating things until I comprehend I lost my favorite sweater Man that was my favorite sweater God ****** that was my favorite sweater This is where I tear apart my room This is where I throw things This is where I start to yell This is where I cry And cry And cry I am so ******* stupid its just a sweater This is where I move on My brain is confused I look at life like it's a movie I don't need to worry about school My degree will just happen Love will just happen Life will just happen Then I freak out when I remember my life isn't scripted My brain is confused I'm happy that I'm sad But I'm angry about being happy that I'm sad I cry when I'm happy I cry when I'm sad I cry when I'm angry My brain is confused Nobody loves me But I have a friend who will hold me till I can breathe again And I have a friend who will talk me down from suicide... Again. And I have a nephew who thinks I'm his world And I have a father who gives me money for food Even though I haven't asked for his care for over a year But nobody loves me My brain is confused I don't remember last year I don't remember last night But I feel like I remember tomorrow My brain is confused My vision is blurry But I can see my thoughts With open eyes They stand in front of me They talk to me when I'm lonely And I know they aren't real But my brain is confused I want to dance all night Even when I'm stuck sitting up in bed So my mind races Batman Cookies Unicorns I want my teddy bear I want a hug I want love Now I'm sad Now I'm scared Now I can't breathe I need to move Its 2 am but I need to move I need to move I can't I can't breathe I can't breathe I'm shaking I'm trembling I'm convulsing But I'm moving I'm moving I can breathe I can breathe I sleep I wake up at noon Tired Exhausted Zombie I don't want to move I don't want to move It 4 pm and I still haven't ate Its getting dark and I still haven't moved Now its 2 am and My mind races and I need to move And I rinse And repeat till I comprehend But I won't comprehend Because my brain is confused My brain is confused My brain is confused

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Nov 10, 2014

Nov 10, 2014 at 1:21 AM UTC

kira-massey

My Brain is Confused

My brain is confused My brain is confused My brain is confused My brain is a broken record Repeating things until I comprehend I lost my favorite sweater Man that was my favorite sweater God ****** that was my favorite sweater This is where I tear apart my room This is where I throw things This is where I start to yell This is where I cry And cry And cry I am so ******* stupid its just a sweater This is where I move on My brain is confused I look at life like it's a movie I don't need to worry about school My degree will just happen Love will just happen Life will just happen Then I freak out when I remember my life isn't scripted My brain is confused I'm happy that I'm sad But I'm angry about being happy that I'm sad I cry when I'm happy I cry when I'm sad I cry when I'm angry My brain is confused Nobody loves me But I have a friend who will hold me till I can breathe again And I have a friend who will talk me down from suicide... Again. And I have a nephew who thinks I'm his world And I have a father who gives me money for food Even though I haven't asked for his care for over a year But nobody loves me My brain is confused I don't remember last year I don't remember last night But I feel like I remember tomorrow My brain is confused My vision is blurry But I can see my thoughts With open eyes They stand in front of me They talk to me when I'm lonely And I know they aren't real But my brain is confused I want to dance all night Even when I'm stuck sitting up in bed So my mind races Batman Cookies Unicorns I want my teddy bear I want a hug I want love Now I'm sad Now I'm scared Now I can't breathe I need to move Its 2 am but I need to move I need to move I can't I can't breathe I can't breathe I'm shaking I'm trembling I'm convulsing But I'm moving I'm moving I can breathe I can breathe I sleep I wake up at noon Tired Exhausted Zombie I don't want to move I don't want to move It 4 pm and I still haven't ate Its getting dark and I still haven't moved Now its 2 am and My mind races and I need to move And I rinse And repeat till I comprehend But I won't comprehend Because my brain is confused My brain is confused My brain is confused

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Never forget the root that fed you, for no matter the height you attain remember the earth beneath your feet.. No matter your height, you forget what you grew from... you'll easily fall and no one will hear it.

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Dec 12, 2020

Dec 12, 2020 at 2:07 PM UTC

poetic-t

What We Grew From

Never forget the root that fed you, for no matter the height you attain remember the earth beneath your feet.. No matter your height, you forget what you grew from... you'll easily fall and no one will hear it.

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"So what does depression feel like" It feels like trying to run through the sand after you have just climbed out of the ocean. Like trying desperately to hang on to the merry-go-round spinning out of control. Like struggling to keep your head above water in a wave pool. Like trying to climb up a steep slide and slipping down just as you almost reach the top. Like gasping for air after you've had the wind knocked out of you. Like having a crush on life knowing life will never like you back. Do you understand now?

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May 28, 2014

May 28, 2014 at 10:53 PM UTC

sinking-ship

depression for dummies

"So what does depression feel like" It feels like trying to run through the sand after you have just climbed out of the ocean. Like trying desperately to hang on to the merry-go-round spinning out of control. Like struggling to keep your head above water in a wave pool. Like trying to climb up a steep slide and slipping down just as you almost reach the top. Like gasping for air after you've had the wind knocked out of you. Like having a crush on life knowing life will never like you back. Do you understand now?

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