#spirals
Red, blue, green, purple, black, and white
water stained colors across paper
then lifting and pulling and dragging away
spirals. circles. round and round again
clouds against green and blue skies
and stars against soft velvet black
I always wondered what pinned them in place
maybe it's a thread,
wounded tightly by god's hands.
but maybe he pricked his finger on the thorn of the wheel
and fell asleep for a thousand years
these are the spirals, and the splatters of paint
that calms the beating in my chest
of the prisoner stuck in a cell, locked away
redo it, restart it, spiral again
over and over and over til the end
soon i'll build a bridge, held up by the stars
and from then comes the silver strings
tied and knotted and tangled once more
maybe I could untie it but my fingers get caught
and up i'll go
to the seat of the threading, then to the story of the loom
while the god is still behind me
sleeping or not....
maybe I could thread a little longer...
i could wind spirals and spirals
upon lives and lives
and not just in deep red, on paper or stone or skin
but spirals
carved upon the sleeping god's bones
Sep 10, 2025
Sep 10, 2025 at 3:10 PM UTC
It’s hard to know
What a life will mean
Mid sentence
Choices made
Driven by the times
Unchosen
It’s no game
But someone loses
Every time
And so we love
To show the other
We’re the same
In the end
You tried your best
So did I
Oct 30, 2024
Oct 30, 2024 at 7:19 AM UTC
i remember the days when i'd spend hours painting, journalling, just enjoying being alone,
and now...i'm afraid of the thoughts that may enter my head during those spaces.
constant spirals of reminders of all that is or could be broken inside of me.
i'm told of god's grace and love,
and i know these truths,
but to truly believe is completely different.
how do i stop striving to make myself holy?
lovable?
good enough?
why can't it just be a simple switch one can turn on and off?
it's a whole new rewiring of neurons and thought patterns.
where do i even begin to change?
it seems so daunting and overwhelming
Nov 15, 2021
Nov 15, 2021 at 11:03 PM UTC
Chaos in my mind
Spirals on repeat
They left me behind
Blisters on my feet
I’m lost and I’m blind
Empty and Complete
I try to chase my thoughts
But they end up chasing me
Nov 25, 2020
Nov 25, 2020 at 12:27 PM UTC
Dying out in dreams
Living another nightmare
Anxiety screams
These unlettered fears
A cosmic scare.
Mar 18, 2020
Mar 18, 2020 at 6:25 AM UTC
Providence the dreadful mystery;
The impeccable dignities and places
Sweep in spirals, from the sand;
that blowed And licked at your feet
The world Conceived before those hills
Foot-fast; Look, where He strove to get at.
Dec 26, 2019
Dec 26, 2019 at 12:57 AM UTC
At a place where no one hears
At a time when no one sees
Waves flows down along with tears
And a full lovestruck world begins
There is a bitter metaphor
That let the days drip off the sun
And all the dreams that we adore
Were that full world that had begun
Spirals, spirals
The way it is
We keep going on
Spirals, spirals
The way it feels
We keep moving on
At a place where the night ends
At a time when stars burn down
Hearts open along with men
Voices become an only sound
There is a late evening laughter
That let the talks come back to live
And made the words become lighter
So the voices again could breathe
Spirals, spirals
The way it goes
We keep advancing
Spirals, spirals
The way it loves
We keep on wishing
At the center of the circle
The warm beating of living souls
That noise so soft and so little
A small echo of it still falls
At the top of the sky
Dazzling embraces in the heat
Holding close whatever comes by
Turning it into years so sweet
Spirals,spirals
The way it was
We keep on learning
Spirals, spirals
The way it shows
We keep on spinning.
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 7:07 AM UTC
i don't want to die.
just not exist for a while.
sleeping but
the world forgets about you
for as long as you lay down.
a quiet body
in an empty room.
i am running from my problems
but i
run in
spirals.
Oct 9, 2018
Oct 9, 2018 at 12:36 AM UTC
So what if I love you?
Do you care?
I don’t.
If you don’t try, I won’t.
I’ve tried to the best of my abilities.
To me this is a mystery.
Why do you hurt so much?
I’m in constant misery.
It’s not your fault.
Please just tell me why.
Poking and prodding,
Until they die.
Mar 2, 2018
Mar 2, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC
drifting in and out of wakefulness
feeling everything and nothing all at once
that lump in my throat
but i can’t cry
i shut my eyes and press against them my palms.
i see swivels and vanishing spirals,
i see everything and nothing all at once
and i’m begging for it not to stop.
i scream into a pillow leaving traces of saliva
i still can’t cry, i still just can’t cry.
my head hurts like a hundred fingers flicking at it
it tingles like ants crawling underneath.
it feels sunken like the titanic with all its people
and i’m jack in the freezing water.
my eyes heave and try fluttering shut
i say no, not now.
it’s strange how my brain is a different entity,
almost like a guest that is always “going to leave”
but ends up staying the whole time.
maybe if i slit my forehead open
the ants under my skin will stop
maybe my head will finally feel light
even though my hair has been gone for days.
dear disheveled mind,
**** you.
Feb 26, 2017
Feb 26, 2017 at 11:33 PM UTC
Close your eyes
staring at the sun
it’s dropping fast
burnt umber runs
Mountain auras
dividing shadows
lights the purple line
between day and night
Dark silhouettes
sinking deep
illuminates behind
the promise of sleep
Night stars cascading
emu peeps
between milky light
eternally creeps
Shooting stars bright
inner eye sees
cacophonies of colour
shapes our very lives
It’s dreams, it’s time
it’s endless and divine
this half way place
all here, sublime
It’s spirals, it’s dots
it’s country, it’s us
explaining the universe
simple yet complex
Aug 5, 2016
Aug 5, 2016 at 6:15 AM UTC
There are storm clouds up in the sky
raining down terror on my eyes
humanity spirals for a slow demise
all our documentations are filled with lies
oh please wake me now this dream it is foul
see lighting touching down
am i finally awake now
see the clouds slowly passing by
see myself as I slowly die
am I falling trying to fly
searching for truth with the lies
Apr 14, 2016
Apr 14, 2016 at 4:08 AM UTC
Spider flexes wires
mosquito pasted spirals
caught in spiderweb
Jan 26, 2016
Jan 26, 2016 at 2:29 PM UTC
I never wish to grow old
and become numb to the things
that bring me life, laughter & love,
the most prosperous gains.
Instead of gray hair, I ask for budding wisdom & truth.
I'll trade a life with ten cats, for ten short years with you.
I'll dream away time.
Into space & spirals.
I'll trace your wrist with my thumb
just like when we were young.
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 8:04 PM UTC