#songwriting - Hello Poetry

Verse1 I did a juice cleanse the week you went cold Felt holy, felt haunted, felt thirty-three years old Kept waiting for hunger but all I felt was rage Posted poems about birds while I rotted offstage Lit sage in the kitchen, wore pearls in the bath Pretended that healing could change what we had Went dancing on rooftops, then puked in the sink, then stared in the mirror and tried not to think. Pre-chorus1 They’ll say I was crazy, dramatic, obsessed But they didn’t see what you did in that text Chorus1: I would’ve stayed through the plot twists and power cuts Learned your silence, memorized your worst months Now I sleep like a crime scene, replaying the call Where you almost said “love you,” then said nothing at all You said, “Don’t write about me”—I already did In lipstick and blood and the back of my ribs You were never safe, but you felt like home And I’d still pick the lock if I thought you were alone Verse2 He said, “Don’t cry,” as he pulled off my shirt And I laughed like that wasn’t the worst part He said, “You like it when I ruin things” I said, “Only because you started with me.” I knew it was bad when I liked how you lie How your mouth made disasters sound holy and high You said I romanticize pain till it purrs I said, “You keep calling it love like it’s yours” Prechorus2 You said I’m intense—like it wasn’t projection Like I didn’t watch you detonate every connection Bridge You said you were broken, so I stayed and I sewed You said you were scared, so I softened my glow We were talking about movies, then death, then dreams Then you said, “I think love just isn’t for me” You told me I’m bright, then dimmed all the lights Called me your mirror, then shattered the rights Said I was heaven, then sent me to hell And I still wrote it sweet just so you’d wish me well Carved out your echo in bathroom tile Kept praying you’d miss me, then smiled for a while Still set all the clocks to your birthday at three, Then swallowed a wish I forgot was for me. CHORUS (FINAL) I would’ve stayed through the fallout and frostbite Sat through your silence like that made it right Now I sleep like a witness, replaying the call Where you almost said “love you,” then said nothing at all You said, “Don’t write about me”—but look what you did You live in the margins, the bloodstream, the script You were never safe, but you felt like home And I’d still pick the lock Even knowing you're gone Outro I did a juice cleanse And you never came back. I never got better, but I glow like I have.

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Apr 6, 2025

Apr 6, 2025 at 8:06 AM UTC

Kiernan515

I Did a Juice Cleanse (and Rotted Offstage)

Verse1 I did a juice cleanse the week you went cold Felt holy, felt haunted, felt thirty-three years old Kept waiting for hunger but all I felt was rage Posted poems about birds while I rotted offstage Lit sage in the kitchen, wore pearls in the bath Pretended that healing could change what we had Went dancing on rooftops, then puked in the sink, then stared in the mirror and tried not to think. Pre-chorus1 They’ll say I was crazy, dramatic, obsessed But they didn’t see what you did in that text Chorus1: I would’ve stayed through the plot twists and power cuts Learned your silence, memorized your worst months Now I sleep like a crime scene, replaying the call Where you almost said “love you,” then said nothing at all You said, “Don’t write about me”—I already did In lipstick and blood and the back of my ribs You were never safe, but you felt like home And I’d still pick the lock if I thought you were alone Verse2 He said, “Don’t cry,” as he pulled off my shirt And I laughed like that wasn’t the worst part He said, “You like it when I ruin things” I said, “Only because you started with me.” I knew it was bad when I liked how you lie How your mouth made disasters sound holy and high You said I romanticize pain till it purrs I said, “You keep calling it love like it’s yours” Prechorus2 You said I’m intense—like it wasn’t projection Like I didn’t watch you detonate every connection Bridge You said you were broken, so I stayed and I sewed You said you were scared, so I softened my glow We were talking about movies, then death, then dreams Then you said, “I think love just isn’t for me” You told me I’m bright, then dimmed all the lights Called me your mirror, then shattered the rights Said I was heaven, then sent me to hell And I still wrote it sweet just so you’d wish me well Carved out your echo in bathroom tile Kept praying you’d miss me, then smiled for a while Still set all the clocks to your birthday at three, Then swallowed a wish I forgot was for me. CHORUS (FINAL) I would’ve stayed through the fallout and frostbite Sat through your silence like that made it right Now I sleep like a witness, replaying the call Where you almost said “love you,” then said nothing at all You said, “Don’t write about me”—but look what you did You live in the margins, the bloodstream, the script You were never safe, but you felt like home And I’d still pick the lock Even knowing you're gone Outro I did a juice cleanse And you never came back. I never got better, but I glow like I have.