#sinful
The most perilous realm to inhabit is one
Where sin becomes a refuge, a twisted sanctuary,
Where souls inflict pain yet find solace in wrongs,
Drifting through life without a trace of conviction.
They nourish a hunger for strife and dark thoughts,
Their hearts, once vibrant, now wither in shadows,
Beating to the rhythm of the anguish they sow,
A chorus of misery, echoing in hollow chambers.
In this desolate space, compassion fades away,
And the weight of their choices clouds the light of day.
Yet hope lingers still, a flicker in the night,
Yearning for redemption, for the chance to make things right.
Look up and seek salvation for to die with a sinful soul is to gain access to eternal darkness
Nov 27, 2025
Nov 27, 2025 at 11:34 AM UTC
someone told me
that loving you
is the biggest sin
i could ever commit in my life.
if thats the case
then i’d rather
stay a sinner my whole life;
i’d rather be punished
with eternal suffering
because the thought
of dying without you by my side
is already
so much worse
than spending eternity in flames.
Oct 28, 2025
Oct 28, 2025 at 9:18 AM UTC
the best sin i've ever made
was falling for you.
falling for your big, brown eyes;
falling for the way you talk about a song you listened to;
falling for you —
is the best sin
i've ever committed.
Sep 17, 2025
Sep 17, 2025 at 4:00 AM UTC
The memory of your hands
Are burned into my skin
And oh, how I long to feel
The touch of them again
Your mouth is soft like silk
And the taste is that of sin
This little game that we play
Is one you’ll always win
You’ve burrowed into my mind
Like a parasite of the brain
The only coherent thought I have
Is how you say my name
I’ve been ruined beyond measure
And it’s you that I do blame
Loving you is a wicked desire
That I do not wish to tame
Sep 18, 2024
Sep 18, 2024 at 6:43 PM UTC
What was I up to while we were locked-in?
I was busy contemplating sin.
I had months and months of moments to spend,
Ms chaste without, misdeeds within.
Lust, like seasickness - upends reason
and it burns like underbrush fuel.
So dust my DNA, and ID my ***** dreamin'
am I guilty of breaking some rule?
Aug 9, 2021
Aug 9, 2021 at 5:17 AM UTC
Some time's my heart is made of stone
and some days blood drips down it like
a rose petal falls off it's stems in the
middle of a hot summer night.
I get days where i'm filled with
anger, jealousy and then
grieve myself
within until the morning
seems....
Just for once, why isn't it me?
Is there a curse, lying beneath the earth,
or is it just me living alone in a life
where everyone seems to be free.
Jul 21, 2021
Jul 21, 2021 at 7:44 PM UTC
I hate how I give up so fast
Love shadow realm too much
So I can't leave it in the past
I often crave the sinful touch
To see face of the devil
How bright appearing to be
Feel the end of this level
Amazed flaws are all I see
Surrounding natural urges
Beauty challenging to resist
Done until thought reemerges
Tempting dark persists
Dec 21, 2020
Dec 21, 2020 at 9:26 PM UTC
Check the holy books you preached many
And swear you haven't breached any
Cogitate the words spilled from your tongue
If truly they could manifest for lifelong
Feel the air you inhale,If truly you merit breathing
Look into the mirror,If sincerely you deserve seeing
Walk in the darkness to find your way
If your pious heart lead not the helpless astray
Pray death never meet your deadly deeds
For the innocents will reap your soiled seeds
Anticipate the leader of the dead bands
Inhumed in the open caskets with your hands
Footprints shall reveal the paths legs treaded
Time shall tell when death killed the dead
Sep 12, 2020
Sep 12, 2020 at 5:28 PM UTC
The dark prince drinks from the broken glass his tongue splintered with lies
His tears flowing freely skin rotten and falling
He is devoid of life
One king may fall and only one may rise
****** is rage and rage is slaughter
My prince belongs to the slaughter
Because only the slaughter may cry
His heart beats red and his putrid mind sees only the same thing
Many lives are lost in death and many more are made
All things must draw parallel only in death is the prince most Alive
He moves his hands in wide growing arcs wanting to embrace the world
His rage is slaughter
His limbs fall from place hanging listlessly in void and in vain
A single tear falls from the prince
He rises from his throne of nothing wanting to become something because he too is man
He roams in nothing wanting to see everything his eyes portray a new emotion
My prince roams heartlessly spreading his rage and I follow him
His tears of slaughter shift into this new emotion
My prince is dark but his heart has grown light
He open his lips
He was born to cry
Suffering rage sorrow and negativity have built his foundation
His entire life belongs to the slaughter
Sorrow returns to rage as they were never different
The God who wantonly killed suddenly wanted to die
Jun 1, 2020
Jun 1, 2020 at 6:32 PM UTC
I hurt when I see you with him.
Is this jealousy I'm feeling?
My thoughts of you two together.
Ha! That's my dark place.
I'm really greedy when it comes to you.
I want you all to myself.
But I'm scared I might ruin things between us.
All I want is for these painful feelings to go away.
I'm tired and I just want to sleep.
Should I tell you my feelings?
No.
I'll just sit quietly in the background and watch over you like I always do.
Can I be happy with you by my side and no one else?
I guess not...
Will you ever notice my feelings?
Not a chance.
You're too busy thinking only of your fiancee.
It's a sin for me to be who I am.
Falling in love with my big sisters best friend... a girl at that.
Why am I even here?
I'll just be pulled blindly by my love.
Maybe I should just give up.
Tried that.
Maybe I should just branch off from you.
You won't let me do that again.
Why do you keep me so close when you know I'm not the straightest person on earth?
Is there more meaning to us acting our couples?
Surely not.
It's just for fun...
I hurt.
I'm tired.
I'm jealous.
I cant let you know.
I'll just suffer alone like normal.
When I'm with you I feel happy and myself.
But when he comes along my world fades to blacks and grays.
I've never felt like this about anyone before.
I may say that alot about the people I'm with but this is different.
I'm sure.
Please.
Please help me escape these suffocating feelings.
My chest hurts all the time.
I play it off as an anxiety attack.
Or I'll just say I'm fine.
I feel numb and shaky at the same time.
All I can do is cry to myself.
I'm done.
I cant deal with it anymore.
I want it to stop.
You'll never return my feelings.
For one you are straight.
For two you are engaged.
For three you only see me as my sisters little sister...
I know I'm being selfish when I think of these things...
But I cant help it.
I dont want to help it.
Dont look at me like that.
Like that of a little sister.
It hurts.
Dont act the couples with me and not mean it.
It hurts.
Please stop talking about him around me.
It hurts.
I dont want to hear of the family you'll make with him...
It hurts... alot.
When I see you two together... I see a perfect couple.
It makes me tear up.
I will never have that with you.
I told you I cut for a different reason than what I really do it for.
I cut because of my pain I feel about you two.
Please dont hold that against me.
Dont hate me for these sinful thoughts.
It's what I feel.
It confuses me.
Why you?
Why someone who is meant to be married to her lover?
Why was I born to be sinful?
I question my life all the time
What are you doing right now?
Probably "spending time" with him before work.
Being lovers.
I'll just stay in your shadow.
Forever unnoticed.
I have wishful thinking that someday you'll turn your beautiful eyes towards me with love.
chuckles Like I said.
Wishful thinking.
I always get my hopes up.
When we act and you breathe next to my face... my heart stops.
When you cuddle into me or the other way around... I feel like its natural.
This could all be my heart yearning for love so young.
I'm not surprised.
More like I hate it.
I dont want to be like this.
Maybe I should end it?
No... I could never really do it.
I'm happy just being close to you when I can.
I'll wait for the day when I'm not needed anymore.
Waiting...
Waiting..
Waiting.
When?
Why won't you let me be how I was?
Am I really important to you like how I want it to be? Or is it because I'm your friend and best friends little sister?
When I look through your eyes... I see a deep hidden pain from your past.
All the things you tell me is just a small portion of how you really feel.
I may not have gone through what you have but I can relate to a degree.
I love the feeling of you close to me.
Man I sound like a freak.
But it's who I am.
A freak.
A walking sin.
A nobody.
Whatever.
I'm used to these alien feelings.
Or I should be.
I used to be numb all the time and in my own world.
But that all changed when we grew closer.
Why did we have to get closer?
Why?!
I knew from the first time we really hung out just the two of us that my world would change.
I would change.
Now I want to change back.
For good.
I'll be fine.
I'm always fine.
I'll be fine till the day I end my own life.
Then I'll be free from the pain I feel in my heart.
When you have a family of your own will you forget about me?
I'm scared.
I dont want to be alone.
I want you hear with me.
Promise?
Haha people always promise things.
They never keep them.
Dont get my hopes up.
Remember how I always say you look fine?
I love everything about you.
The way you look.
The way you speak.
The way you walk.
How smart you are.
How you have goals for yourself.
How even though you say you're not a nice person you still are there for me...
How is that not nice?
It makes me feel loved.
Believe it or not.
When you cut I get ******
I have no room to talk because I do it too.
But I wish you wouldn't hurt yourself...
I will say.
I'll love you even when you are scarred or you hate me.
I want to be there for you.
When you are happy.
Sad.
******
Alone.
Confused.
In your own world.
I may not be able to talk about it well but I'll listen.
I love watching every face you make.
Or how you feel when you play the guitar.
I want to be that person that is there for you when you need someone.
But you already have him...
That won't stop me from helping in the background.
I dont want you to feel alone when people aren't around.
I'll be there by your side.
I want to do anything that I can to get your attention but I must be silent.
Is this Gods way of testing me?
Is this his way of punishing me for sinning?
Will he make it worse the closer we get?
Please dont take her laugh away from me.
Please dont take her smile away from me.
I dont understand what he has in store but I dont know if I have the strength.
Will you be my strength?
Or will you be my downfall?
I guess time will only tell.
I'll leave it off with one more thing to say...
I love you.
Apr 27, 2020
Apr 27, 2020 at 12:09 PM UTC
flavor
fragrance
behavior
impatience
the begging
the pleading
of the flesh
a seducing song
vibrations resonate
perfectly
wrong
will you obey the heat?
let it rise?
the taste, the odor
sensitize
a dangerous game
will you let it release?
dancing in the flame
your insatiable appetite will only
increase
Dec 8, 2019
Dec 8, 2019 at 9:34 PM UTC
Melancholy bliss are your breaths,
Romances a heart straight to exile
Leaving only your desolation,
Death ain’t got a dime on you.
The salesman of disillusions
Happily shredding logic
Greedily you give all we loath
To observe,
An impending demise
As grace gives way on your grasp
Effortlessly Collecting pearls
Coming afloat our seas,
For your own vanity.
Melancholy bliss are your breaths,
Romances a heart straight to exile
Leaving only your desolation,
Death ain’t got a dime on you.
Mar 6, 2019
Mar 6, 2019 at 10:13 PM UTC
Her beauty was almost sinful,
but taking my eyes off of her
would have been blasphemous.
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 8:38 PM UTC
Are you the Heaven’s gate keeper?
Is it your calling to terminate?
Have you walked an inch in my shoes?
Do you know my sorrow?
Do you know my blemishes and what developed them?
No
Yet, you judge
You say I am sinful
You say I am
a fool
dreadful
ungrateful
But
I am hopeful
Beautiful
Faithful
I don't need your flocking.
Feb 5, 2019
Feb 5, 2019 at 7:49 PM UTC
i was in the shower earlier
and i kept turning the temperature
up
up
up
until the water felt like beads of fire
scorching their way through my skin
bringing comfort to the blood
pumping through my veins again
and i wondered to myself
if perhaps
the reason i felt so at peace in the pain
was because i was missing my true home
down
down
down
in the raging depths of hell
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 11:38 PM UTC
Formed out of anger and pain
You are my Sinful Blessing
You grew inside of me
and made us a collection
of recurring nightmares
You are my Sinful Blessing
You are my Blood, Sweat, and Tears
Both my Hate and my faith
You are my Sinful Blessing
Deeper and Deeper my Wounds get
And slowly the truth was no longer untold
I'm sorry
I'm Sorry
But how long do I have to wait?
How many sleepless nights do I have to spend?
The truth untold is no longer mask
Drink up
Will I see you tomorrow?
Will I miss you?
Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 4:10 PM UTC
Love is varying but you were not what I expected when the word first tarnished my vocabulary. The word is sinful and leaves such a foul taste in my mouth; no one will ever get as sick of the word as I did.
No one's ever surpassed the absurd expectations of this vile word & I don't want to stick around to find out if I’ll fall into its clutches too.
Oct 22, 2018
Oct 22, 2018 at 3:01 AM UTC
Drinking blood
of sinful
bodies
that want
no more
than a hand
to bite down on.
******* every
last drop
of metallic
liquid out
to taste life
the way
it is.
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 6:45 AM UTC
I scamp around trying to find myself,
All others say – you’re ******* lazy man,
I try to do something others don’t,
People say – oh, look at this child’s moan,
I want to be nothing like everyone else around,
They scream – so, you think you’re better than the rest of us and you want to fly off this ground?
I say – I want to, I try to, I dream no matter what
But in the end I realize, I’m just like everyone else in this stupid world
I’m rotten, sinful and full of ****
And only with time I realize that I’ve been swallowed by others… and puked back into this dirt
Oct 21, 2018
Oct 21, 2018 at 9:31 AM UTC
I'm not a good person,
I'm just a somebody that
does good things.
All of my sins can be
swept under the rug
in exchange for hollow gestures
and empty kindness for those
who do not mean me harm.
I am not a good person,
but it's easier to get away
with more when you wear the mask.
Aug 29, 2018
Aug 29, 2018 at 6:22 AM UTC