#sickpuppies
Do I push your hearts pieces around?
Or just push you away?
I say in times of stubborn spite
Always how I feel each day
Out of mind without you
Needing to get back inside
Smile halts me in my tracks
I can guess the reason its wide
I try granting your wishes
Reveal your greatest desire
Want to see your dreams come true
I then can set each one on fire
My heart is throbbing for you
In time to your pulses rhythm
I leave you in ashes
To blow away narcissism
I am on a path of destruction
Falling into a villains role
I'm sick of murdering hearts
Harshly digging hole after hole
Please save yourself from harm
Go as far as you can
Do not stop until you reach a place
With plenty space between hands
You deserve to have somebody there
Each time you need a hug
To light darkness inside you
The fears that often tug
You are more than a plaything
Why do I treat you as such?
To those watching from the outside
You are a toy within my clutch
One hand grasping your hopes and goals
The other holding confessions
Touch so cold emotions start freezing
Begin to seperate possessions
Somehow I don't feel like I once did
It's beyond understanding
We switched positions stealthily
Now in your place I am standing
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019 at 9:21 PM UTC
Can you accept me for who I am?
See the value my heart still holds?
Will you pick it up off the ground where it rests
Horrifyingly bruised and treat it like gold?
Is redemption too great of a gift to demand?
Ask myself is it too late?
If this love is still worth fighting for
Why are we also filled with hate?
Or are we just frustrated
After investing so much
Only to witness all our efforts
Still not be good enough?
A couple once envied by dozens
Now pitied by those we know
If we had before not been up so high
Would the low still feel this low?
Which am I addicted to more?
The rush from drugs or the scent of your skin?
Why do I have to make that decision?
There's no option where we both win
Where will the criticism stop?
When will it change to compromise?
Can we save our relationship
Before the intimacy dies?
How do we repair our damaged trust?
Cause I don't see how we will
Do you think we really have a shot?
Are you even in love with me still?
Why do I scream at you when I hurt?
How come I can't control my voice?
What commands me against my will?
Temper leaving no other choice
Can I overcome these violent urges?
Are these tendencies an unbreakable curse?
Will I ever become a better person?
Or am I destined to only grow worse?
Feb 17, 2019
Feb 17, 2019 at 3:48 AM UTC