#shutin
I hate your hugs.
Because when im okay all day long.
Feeling so proud of myself.
Evading my own terrors.
You bring them back.
Why does nothing help anymore?
Why do I feel so sad?
Am I so unfixable?
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 3:00 AM UTC
Maybe if I let people in
I wouldn't be so lonely like this
No one to turn to, no where to cry,
I just lay here and fester while the days go slowly by
I really don't have real friends, none that I can talk to everyday
Almost thirty years of people pleasing and they all watch me decay
May 15, 2025
May 15, 2025 at 12:59 AM UTC
In this very red room, I will hide with pride
Tried to answer my queries, As I cried
Scribbling in my life diaries, Which I relied
With theories, my mind provide, I'm terrified
In this tiny red room, I shut myself up
I badly hate this world, I'm gonna blow up
Anxiety filled my brain, Can I give up?
Pills can no longer hold up, I'm screw'd up
-dnlbllrd
Jul 1, 2020
Jul 1, 2020 at 9:12 AM UTC
Its feels as though I am constantly being shut down.
The worst part is that I don't think they realize they are doing it,
And even worse than that?
It come's from someone who doesn't mean to,
Family.
And you wonder why I am holed up in my room all day?
It's not because I'm lazy or antisocial.
It's because I don't have the energy to put up with their scrutiny.
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 6:46 PM UTC