#shiva
There is a thing I wanted so much--
a thing always denied.
The evil and the angelic made a pact
and placed this desire in my heart
like a ticket hidden in a boot
worn by someone desperate in a station.
I tell people this desire is over--
that I visit its grave on holy days
to leave woven weeds,
but there is no grave because it is not dead--
only paralyzed like an aster when there is no wind,
no sun, no moon, no garden.
There is someone coming up the stairs
to hurt my heart, and they are so lit with beauty,
such an ordinary marvel.
The hallway floor is wood, the light there yellow in autumn.
It is morning, but the birds are mute.
My heart stops, the visitor walks past, the world ends,
but no one notices. There is no fool like an old fool,
no desire that cannot exalt or destroy,
over and over, in silence, like Shiva in a recurring dream.
Aug 7, 2025
Aug 7, 2025 at 8:03 PM UTC
Let me hold you between my two hands.
You have schmutz on your face and
Fleas in your fur, Poor baby.
Your head sags between your shoulders.
Your tail retreats beneath you
Don’t be scared, sweet baby.
I have something nourishing for you to eat.
Let me love you, you deserve it.
Please don’t bite, Honey baby.
For forever I will reach out to rescue you.
Knowing you will fight me for it.
Always will I wait, my love.
May 28, 2025
May 28, 2025 at 12:29 PM UTC
forgive me
for committing the sin of looking for you
here, there, and everywhere.
forgetting the cardinal truth
that you’re the omnipresent one!
to think i could think of you,
the one who’s beyond all thoughts
my trespass too.
forgive me.....
© 2022
Jun 26, 2022
Jun 26, 2022 at 1:23 PM UTC
all faces, bodies and limbs
in this variegated universe
belong only to you.
all feelings, thoughts and sensations,
simply yours too.
all of existence is just your dream!
even the bliss glimpsed in my deep sleep,
a chip of your inner peace
when you wake up from that long trance
to perform the cosmic dance,
we will all merge with you,
like moths to a flame
© 2022
Apr 23, 2022
Apr 23, 2022 at 10:11 AM UTC
despite
the macabre march of corpses
straight into the raging funeral pyres,
it’s the icy waters of the Ganges
from your matted locks
which shiver my timbers
amidst
mellifluous incantations,
one thousand and eight lamps
floating on this mystical river
sparkle in an anemone glow
here,
a great sage
was taught a befitting lesson
in humility and spirituality
as i melt
hearing this soulful octet
in praise of this ancient city,
its most important inhabitant smiles......
truth be told
i’m in a Varanasi state of mind
© 2022
Apr 3, 2022
Apr 3, 2022 at 9:23 AM UTC
🌙 🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙
at the confluence
where the rivers
of the past and future merge,
there
in that tranquil present,
time and i cease to exist.
dissolved like sugar in water,
to be one with
that crescent bearing jewel
who’s ever pure like white jasmine
🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙🌙
© 2022
Mar 19, 2022
Mar 19, 2022 at 10:06 AM UTC
क्या यत्न करता उस क्षण जब युक्ति समझ नहीं आती थी,
त्रिकाग्निकाल से निज प्रज्ञा मुक्ति का मार्ग दिखाती थी।
अकिलेश्वर को हरना दुश्कर कार्य जटिल ना साध्य कहीं,
जटिल राह थी कठिन लक्ष्य था मार्ग अति दू:साध्य कहीं।
अतिशय साहस संबल संचय करके भीषण लक्ष्य किया,
प्रण धरकर ये निश्चय लेकर निजमस्तक हव भक्ष्य किया।
अति वेदना थी तन में निज मस्तक अग्नि धरने में ,
पर निज प्रण अपूर्णित करके भी क्या रखा लड़ने में?
जो उद्भट निज प्रण का किंचित ना जीवन में मान रखे,
उस योद्धा का जीवन रण में कोई क्या सम्मान रखे?
या अहन्त्य को हरना था या शिव के हाथों मरना था,
या शिशार्पण यज्ञअग्नि को मृत्यु आलिंगन करना था?
हठ मेरा वो सही गलत क्या इसका मुझको ज्ञान नहीं,
कपर्दिन को जिद मेरी थी कैसी पर था भान कहीं।
हवन कुंड में जलने की पीड़ा सह कर वर प्राप्त किया,
मंजिल से बाधा हट जाने का सुअवसर प्राप्त किया।
त्रिपुरान्तक के हट जाने से लक्ष्य प्रबल आसान हुआ,
भीषण बाधा परिलक्षित थी निश्चय हीं अवसान हुआ।
गणादिप का संबल पा था यही समय कुछ करने का,
या पांडवजन को मृत्यु देने या उनसे लड़ मरने का।
अजय अमिताभ सुमन:सर्वाधिकार सुरक्षित
Feb 1, 2022
Feb 1, 2022 at 2:36 AM UTC
क्या यत्न करता उस क्षण
जब युक्ति समझ नहीं आती थी,
त्रिकाग्निकाल से निज प्रज्ञा
मुक्ति का मार्ग दिखाती थी।
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अकिलेश्वर को हरना दुश्कर
कार्य जटिल ना साध्य कहीं,
जटिल राह थी कठिन लक्ष्य था
मार्ग अति दू:साध्य कहीं।
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अतिशय साहस संबल संचय
करके भीषण लक्ष्य किया,
प्रण धरकर ये निश्चय लेकर
निजमस्तक हव भक्ष्य किया।
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अति वेदना थी तन में
निज मस्तक अग्नि धरने में ,
पर निज प्रण अपूर्णित करके
भी क्या रखा लड़ने में?
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जो उद्भट निज प्रण का किंचित
ना जीवन में मान रखे,
उस योद्धा का जीवन रण में
कोई क्या सम्मान रखे?
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या अहन्त्य को हरना था या
शिव के हाथों मरना था,
या शिशार्पण यज्ञअग्नि को
मृत्यु आलिंगन करना था?
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हठ मेरा वो सही गलत क्या
इसका मुझको ज्ञान नहीं,
कपर्दिन को जिद मेरी थी
कैसी पर था भान कहीं।
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हवन कुंड में जलने की पीड़ा
सह कर वर प्राप्त किया,
मंजिल से बाधा हट जाने
का सुअवसर प्राप्त किया।
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त्रिपुरान्तक के हट जाने से
लक्ष्य प्रबल आसान हुआ,
भीषण बाधा परिलक्षित थी
निश्चय हीं अवसान हुआ।
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गणादिप का संबल पा था
यही समय कुछ करने का,
या पांडवजन को मृत्यु देने
या उनसे लड़ मरने का।
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अजय अमिताभ सुमन
सर्वाधिकार सुरक्षित
Jan 16, 2022
Jan 16, 2022 at 4:26 AM UTC
is it me or did i not see
naughty cupid shamelessly flash
his flowery bow and love-dipped arrow
straight at me?
smitten,
i see her falling eyelash,
only witness
to that seductive gaze
which freezes amaranthine ‘time’
down to absolute zero.
seldom bound
by conventions or clocks,
i, the sage smile....
knowing her playful side
and the true nature of whimsical cupid.
© 2021
Aug 28, 2021
Aug 28, 2021 at 11:21 AM UTC
you’ve turned me
a nomad
running helter-skelter
in all cardinal directions....
cos when it’s all said and done,
it’s your smile
that i keep looking for on every street
© 2021
Jul 31, 2021
Jul 31, 2021 at 8:58 AM UTC
riding his cosmic bull
the cosmic dancer
rattles his cosmic drum.....
wearing
only a serpent around his neck
as his cosmic garland,
he silently ponders.....
is it time yet for cosmic dissolution?
cosmic dust from that annihilation
to be worn as a cosmic emblem on his forehead,
sending a stark reminder
that the cosmos and all the games played within,
are his and his alone
© 2021
Jul 10, 2021
Jul 10, 2021 at 10:44 AM UTC
from
ultraviolet to infrared
and all that’s in between,
only you.....
my crescent bearing jewel
who’s pure
as white jasmine
© 2021
Jun 19, 2021
Jun 19, 2021 at 11:02 AM UTC
with
her tintinnabulating anklets
sullen ‘time’
now thirsty for blood
sticks her elongated tongue
at ‘consciousness’
threatening to annihilate him
and his tired creation
ever present ‘consciousness’
in his state of yogic trance
smiles to counter:
for me - ‘time’ always is still
at best, relative
so, if and when,
i wake up to perform
my ultimate twilight dance,
will you even exist?
© 2021
Jun 12, 2021
Jun 12, 2021 at 9:33 AM UTC
with
an accepting smile
i embrace
those two invisible friends
knowledge and death
the bliss gained from true knowledge
seldom taught at any college,
that vantage point
from where
the lingering fear of death,
is vanquished
then
both of you
hand in hand
stealthily become my left and right half
as i merge
with the macrocosm
© 2021
Jun 5, 2021
Jun 5, 2021 at 10:57 AM UTC
into this fire
of pure awareness
i offer
the body
mind
intellect and ego ....
in the charred embers
of this funeral pyre
emerges
a pristine white lotus
with one thousand petals
each petal
a proxy for a billion residual desires
burnt forever
now,
time and space
simply fade away
© 2021
May 31, 2021
May 31, 2021 at 12:29 PM UTC
at the junction
of your vermillion adorned forehead
where the rivers of
ida, pingala and sushumna meet,
lies the point of singularity
from where
our cosmos exploded
into this unwieldy clutter
with it
an unseen fifth dimension....
a spider like web of illusion
deluding all humanity
into incessant action
where
only karmas multiply
oh maya!
i implore you
to end
this vicious cycle
reveal
that white lotus with a thousand petals
sitting in your cerebrum,
where the love of your life
sporting that chiseled crescent
meditates
in contemplative silence
© 2021
May 27, 2021
May 27, 2021 at 11:49 AM UTC
i bow
in silenced awe
to a moonlit silhouette
of a half man,
half woman
a celestial being
for whom
an offering of
a garland of pink lotuses or dried skulls
merely the same,
each half
in dizzied love
with the other
as i ponder why?
he - the cosmic father
also became
she - the enchanting mother
© 2021
May 22, 2021
May 22, 2021 at 11:27 AM UTC
my darling paro,
this throat
stained deep blue
from your magic touch
now dazzles like sapphire
crystallized
snake venom
hastily consumed
from the churning of
the universe’s darkest desires
unwanted remnants from the big bang....
in containing
that poison at the neck,
you sustain
the all important dance of love
continually going on
within my heart....
where
you alone live
love,
neelakanth
© 2021
May 10, 2021
May 10, 2021 at 2:54 PM UTC
after searching
here, there, everywhere,
i behold
right under my nose,
the crescent bearing jewel
whose fragrance is pure jasmine,
dancing
in that peaceful void
between my
in and outgoing breath
© 2021
Apr 24, 2021
Apr 24, 2021 at 11:55 AM UTC
I was enjoying the bright moonlight,
Rambling about the starboard,
Rambling about the starboard,
I let my memory go stray backwards.
My ship glided through the calm sea,
Cleaved through brief obfuscate,
Cleaved through brief obfuscate,
My ship exited into the starry waters.
And you will never believe what I saw,
I saw my spirit lifted from me,
I saw my spirit lifted from me,
My body falling dead on starboard.
Out of the body, my spirit wandered,
It wandered furthermore,
It wandered furthermore,
I hope they would cremate my body.
I want to reach your Kàìláshà
Rescue me, my Shiva,
Rescue me, my Shiva,
They reach you through the land.
I shall reach your realm gliding,
Receive me, my Shiva,
Receive me, my Shiva,
Zapping through the night sky.
Your Yamaraj reaches closer,
May they stay happy, my family,
May they stay happy, my family,
Let them move on peacefully.
Apr 7, 2021
Apr 7, 2021 at 6:09 AM UTC
within
these five syllables
lies the universe...
you,
angels and demons
me, included too
so do
the five elements,
the past, present and future,
and the states of waking, dream and deep sleep too...
this is where
the atom gets to pirouette
thanks to his cosmic breath
which reverberates
the mantra OM
in that sentient golden hall
with a thousand pillars
the enchanting damsel of illusion
who once shared half his body
stands in total surrender🙏
bound by duality,
she’s awestruck
at the sight of his pantomimic dance
spanning eleven dimensions
which even crushes saintly time
© 2021
Apr 4, 2021
Apr 4, 2021 at 12:59 PM UTC
white lotus
now stung thrice
by a self centered bee,
could you ever forgive me?
don’t say a prayer
for me now,
as three roller coaster trips
down unknown uteruses
await
more skulls
for that crescent bearer
adorning a blue throat
to wear as a garland
as he waltzes
his way through
the raging funeral pyres
of the cremation grounds
in soul filled Varanasi
© 2021
Mar 28, 2021
Mar 28, 2021 at 11:28 AM UTC
Fire is his head,
the sun and moon his eyes,
Space his ears,
the mind his breath,
the universe his heart ♥,
From his feet the earth has originated.
He is the innerself of all beings.
Mar 11, 2021
Mar 11, 2021 at 1:21 AM UTC
Vaam ang m gaura viraje.....
Neelkanth tripurari..........
har har sambhu.......
jai jai sambhu.....
shiv shiv sambhu......
bhola ki mahima niyari h......
Dham iski Kassi h.....
Samshano ka yh wassi h.....
Nar, nag, yash, gandarv hi nhi esko dhyate aghori aadhivasi h..........
har har sambhu......
jai jai sambhu.........
shiv shiv sambhu.......
bhola ki mahima niyari h........
Kaalo ke yeh kaal h........
Kehelate mahakaal h.........
Lambe ghanhere enke baal h...........
Phente yh baago K chaal h........
har har sambhu.......
jai jai sambhu.........
shiv shiv sambhu.......
bhola ki mahima niyari h........
Om Namah Shivaay.........
Om Namah Shivaay.........
Om Namah Shivaay..........
Om Namah Shivaay......
Har Har Mahadev..............
Feb 21, 2021
Feb 21, 2021 at 10:41 AM UTC