#shittypoetry
When I forgot how to cry,
I would sing myself lullabies
They went like sweet little cries
Yet everytime I closed my eyes
I still could not cry
Although I had been the one to cry I am all of a sudden the one to lie
Each lie comes with one of my soft lullabies
A sweet ring a solemn tune and a sacred lie
I wish I could cry
Yet I can only try
And wish that one of my lullabies would speak through my lies
For if I cannot cry I must lie and say that I’m fine
Mar 3
Mar 3, 2026 at 11:00 PM UTC
I lived in the body of an abused dog in the corner of the house.
Never touched Never allowing yet always barking. I once tried to runaway at 8 in the morning, returning home within the hour after I scowered. I seen faces in the trees while the breeze sung a soft lullaby as if I were going to freeze.
Between then and now I realized we cannot grow wings. Joining gods choir is a distant dream and I cannot sleep. Reverting back to the ways where we cannot seep into the trees where the lullabies can sing as free and I still cannot dream.
-I return to the corner.
The beast sleeps as I weep and as I cry myself into a deep sleep I cannot help but feel confined within your reach.
Mar 3
Mar 3, 2026 at 10:52 PM UTC
my crooked smile your soft gaze
another life gone in haze i'll slumber in your sheets as i worship at your feet i'll conquer the sun to have your speech
my desperation my despair my disdain my disgust for those who know i will forever distrust
I'll conquer the sun to have your speech
for my voice has been long gone
I cannot speak
I'll hang from that tree in the middle of the street in hopes to one day never fret defeat for if I cannot speak I must repeat what I cannot help but seek
when I faintly wake at 4am I see your silhouette hidden behind my lace curtains and plants
I open my mouth as to speak
yet my voice is much too meek
I seep as I weep into the sheets
another life gone in haze another life gone in a haste I cannot speak for I cannot reap what your mind seeks and as I cry myself into another deep sleep I cannot help but feel claustrophobic within your reach my ***** desire to be what you cannot reach yet I slumber still in your sheets and, I am defeated
Mar 3
Mar 3, 2026 at 10:48 PM UTC
I sit at the table across from you
I pick up the knife
You pick up two
It's a battle, it's a fight
Only between us two
You stick one in my side
Don't forget the other
My knife drops
Don't forget to tether
Mar 3
Mar 3, 2026 at 10:46 PM UTC
And if I sink before I fall make sure to tell nobody I cared for them at all
for if I did I could not look them in the face for when I get out of this rut
I'm not sure if I can make a swift escape
I don't know how to make a way without my hand and shovel getting in the way
My hand, my shovel, my right, my left
If I could stand I would have left
But I can't so l stay and pray for a life where I do not live in disarray
For your soft gaze is no longer soft whilst my crooked smile stays the same
I cannot help but have disdain for the man who thinks he is a Great Dane
Mar 3
Mar 3, 2026 at 10:44 PM UTC
#I see you.
Lying there just a few
feet from me, the
malaphor of us, derisive, mocking,
screaming at me from
the air above our heads,
the same air that lies heavy
pregnant
with all of the things we've
said to each other in this room
but you
don't see this
I glance at the curve of your hip
I question my resolve
I check and recheck my mental
list of how far I'm willing to
compromise and if it would be worth it
but you
don't feel this
I kissed your forehead, you took my hand;
you wouldn't let go. I sat there and
gently caressed your arm, wanting only
to hold you, but you have poisoned
yourself tonight and it would be wrong.
You fell asleep, and still held on to my hand.
I sat with you a moment longer, smiling and silently weeping at the same time.
You wouldn't let me leave yet again,
even in your sleep.
In the light we can be seen.
The darkness is safe, so I still hold your hand.
This is a love song;
This is a requiem.
Sep 5, 2019
Sep 5, 2019 at 2:55 AM UTC
raindrops crash across the tin roof
while her mouth issues sweet, soothing music
and the cars pass slowly
Jan 19, 2019
Jan 19, 2019 at 10:11 PM UTC
I know I am not allowed to love you anymore
You're not mine and I'm not yours
But the distance is killing me
I haven't been eating much recently,
It's showing in my face.
I look as empty as you left me.
I love you still,
I probably always will
But we aren't eachothers anymore.
Sep 8, 2015
Sep 8, 2015 at 2:11 AM UTC
I'll never forget the night we were sprawled on your bed,
Hand in hand and legs intertwined.
I asked you if you loved me and you said
"Like nothing else in the world"
You asked the same and I said
"More than myself."
Its been almost two years since then and now we lay close but never quite touching.
Never quite enough.
I asked you if you loved me and all you said was
"Yeah."
But you never asked me back,
And I've always wondered why that was.
I guess it was because we both already knew the answer, we were just so afraid to hear it out loud.
Sep 4, 2015
Sep 4, 2015 at 3:48 AM UTC
Are you tired of holding the weight of the world on your fragile shoulders?
Somewhere along the way I saw the smile fade from your heart shaped face and soon be replaced with grimace.
You aren't happy, but you're not sure when it got on the next train and fled.
You know you're broken but you're convinced bandaids will hold your shattered bones together.
Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 2:24 AM UTC
Let's pretend to be alive
We'll dance in the streets until three in the morning and kiss in the rain
They never look empty inside in the movies
So we'll reenact your favorite love stories and pretend we'd die for eachother
We don't have to admit we're already dead on our own
We can fake this love if we are anyone but ourselves
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 3:35 PM UTC
"Do you love me?"
His face lit up by the blinking lights on his alarm clock, he answers yes.
"Are you in love with me?" I ask, counting as every second goes by in the reflection in his eye.
15 seconds. "Aren't they the same thing?"
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 7:03 AM UTC
The emptiness I feel inside is nothing but a crater I stumbled upon one afternoon
I had been waltzing my way through the wild
Suddenly I was so deep I could barely see out and I watched as all the dancers gracefully moved around the brim.
I wasn't jealous of the way they moved right above me, still breathing.
I wasn't scared that I wasnt,
I was simply a crater.
Aug 11, 2015
Aug 11, 2015 at 8:03 AM UTC
You were as yellow as the sun
So bright it hurt to stare directly at you
Full of flowers and the smell of spring
I was as blue as the sea
Strong enough to bring you down with a single motion
But unable to stop myself
We didn't mix and make green
Instead I turned darker and so did you
I was waging wars on myself
And I can't thank you enough for trying to dull the pain
But I liked you better when you were yellow
I know it makes me a terrible person to wish you gone but you shined so much brighter in the sun.
Aug 10, 2015
Aug 10, 2015 at 10:58 PM UTC
Spilled tea and shaky hands
The silent chill spread throughout your body like lightning
The static feeling in your arms while you watch your partner fall asleep on you
Binge watching bad tv shows on a Sunday
The gut feeling that tells you to run
The friend that tells you to go for it
Mental breakdowns on the kitchen floor
An almost lover
Aug 3, 2015
Aug 3, 2015 at 5:03 AM UTC
They say "to live is to love" but if you've ever carried the weight of another broken soul, you already know that.
I remember so vividly the night you held me in your arms as I cried about everything and nothing,
I swear I can still hear you promise me you weren't going anywhere, you'll always be right here.
I can still see the look on your face only six months later when you told me that you didn't love me anymore, twisted and sad and so exhausted. I could feel my heart breaking as you added "I'm not sure I ever really did" but all I could do was stare at the dark circles that created a crater under each of your soft blue eyes. I wanted to dive into them and hide in you.
You told me you couldn't breathe anymore, that it was hard enough to carry yourself, that you weren't strong enough to save me, too.
I suppose the only difference between loving someone and living for someone is just one letter.
Jul 31, 2015
Jul 31, 2015 at 7:12 AM UTC
I told you about all the times I moved growing up,
counted on fingers that held so many hands,
I danced around with the idea of moving into you,
building my walls around our hearts and putting a roof over our souls.
I guess it didn't matter to me that our foundation was a little wobbly or that I knew an eviction was coming,
I wanted to believe that we would build a house that would last.
but you were a trap not a home,
and I was packing my bags but I couldn't get out in time
so I watched as the walls I built around you and I came crashing down on me.
Jul 20, 2015
Jul 20, 2015 at 11:32 PM UTC
Do I love you or am I lonely?
Perhaps a little of both?
I think I was a little lonely when I decided to love you and then when I loved you I felt more alone than I'd ever been.
Why don't I just leave? Oh I don't know.
I don't think I could survive another fall.
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:05 AM UTC
What a bitter end it is to sit across from your lover and feel nothing but rage, knowing the feeling is mutual. You still mutter "I love you" and make out under city lights and hold hands as you walk but someone always squeezes a little too hard or bites a little aggressively or is a little too snappy to believe there's anything left. It's all a game and neither of us want to lose. Going down in flames is so much more satisfying than fading away.
Jun 16, 2015
Jun 16, 2015 at 4:31 AM UTC
I knew from the very first moment that you would break my heart. It was part of your charm, I thought I was ready to be broken again, mostly because I thought you would put me back together after. I should have known that people like you come in like a hurricane, leaving everything in ditty ruins.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 2:43 AM UTC
I cant keep loving you because you tell me that you couldn't live without me and for a while I thought it was cute and romantic and flattering but now I realize that you have been asking me to carry us both and to save you from yourself but we both know I'm weak and tired and I could barely breathe on my own let alone for the both of us but I think you also know that I'd use my dying breath to give you CPR
May 3, 2015
May 3, 2015 at 3:40 AM UTC
we're okay
if you don't count the tears we cry that put us to sleep
or the scars our hearts are now harboring
or the empty promises of yesterday
and we're okay
if you don't look too closely into our eyes
or watch our lips quiver between words
or listen to our heavy breathes fill the spaces you should have been
and we're okay
if you don't ask us how we've been
or if we've been sleeping enough
or if we're still caught up on the little things you said to us in the middle of the night
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 2:28 AM UTC
I will not hear what you have to say
because what you have to say will never be as important as the way you made me feel
Weak
Weak
Weak
I will not hear what you have to say
because you are only allowed so many chances before your apologies wear out
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I will not hear what you have to say
because I am only one person but I carry the weight of a million broken promises
I love you
I love you
I love you
I will not hear what you have to say
because there is a fine line between clever and abusive and you've crossed it so many times
Don't do this
Don't do this
Don't do this
I will not hear what you have to say
because I've realized that you're setting me on fire so you can be warm
I'm not yours
I'm not yours
I'm not yours
Apr 18, 2015
Apr 18, 2015 at 1:07 AM UTC
You used to love me
with such passion and intensity
and I thought it'd never end
but like summer turns to fall
we faded out and fell apart
I used to love you
so strongly and so boldly
and you thought it'd never end
but you didn't even notice
when the leaves fell from our trees
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 3:09 AM UTC