#sessions
Do you feel my PAIN??
And YEAH I got a LOT OF IT!!
HAPPINESS is what I LACK,
I'm hurting EMOTIONALLY,
I MUST ADMIT.
YOU SAY YOU KNOW
HOW I FEEL!!!
And I call out,
B******T!!!
Like a CAR FLYING 105MPH,
My FEELINGS just got HIT!!
I DON'T MEAN TO SOUND SO HARSH
JUST EXPRESSING
HOW I FEEL!!!
PAIN HAS WEASLED
ITS UGLY LITTLE HEAD,
WRITING IS MY ONLY WAY
TO DEAL!!
LIKE A LOCOMITIVE MAKING
AN IMPACT TO MY SOUL!!
GIVES A MIGHTY ******
A POWERFUL BLOW!!!
I'm not just SAD,
I'M NOT JUST HAPPY,
A MIND FULL OF
EMOTIONS GOT ME
FEELING SO ******
THIS UP AND DOWN EMOTIONS
GOT ME FEELING REALLY SNAPPY,
DEALING WITH THIS PAIN MAKES ME FEEL SO UNHAPPY!!
I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL
HAPPY, SAD
ANGRY, OR MAD
I MUST make a CONFESSION!!
I'm DEALING with DEPRESSION,
because of LIFE'S ACTIONS,
This is a FULL COURSE LESSON
I'm LEARNING from this TEMPORAL PAIN!!
A LONG and DRAWN out SESSION!!
B.R.
01/27/2023
Sep 7, 2024
Sep 7, 2024 at 1:59 PM UTC
I looked out at the street,
hoping for footsteps
coming up the path..
But all I heard was
therapy sessions..
May 2, 2020
May 2, 2020 at 5:49 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Leave me in the moonlight, where I should have been,
I can't take you all the places you ain't never been,
Not like other men..
Clouding my judgment like a pack of wolves,
I never had friends to watch all my moves,
Not passive aggressive like these other dudes,
Just watch it all fall away.
Pushing my buttons ain't what want to do,
Far from extent of ****** but it could subdue,
Emotions run so I get the blues,
But it will all go away.
/
You can't find perfection,
The body can overcome so much confliction,
Stories portray and we follow the mission,
Perfection will come at a price to submission,
Tomorrow not promised,
Octagoning layers in life into sessions,
Don't need no permission,
Good men and women blames themselves
for the things that your exes do and the
cycle just repeats,
Knocking down chances of trusting every
single person you meet, I'll let you see,
The differences make you and me.
This ignorant generation will consume the worse.
Lets see in this life who will break a heart first.
You don't need love , you just want them to know your worth.
Someone will notice that beautiful soul since birth.
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 12:32 AM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
I be really chill as ****
Chill as ****
Technically on the break but that's all in
my head,
Penitentiary mindset but no longer locked
up, you didn't hear from me,
So that's not what I said,
Moving around the creases , in and out
of situations , not my main occupation,
But I'm working up the nerve to live and
survive and survive,
And I don't know how long I could stay
alive , in this ongoing cycle,
Throw your feelings out ,recycle,
I be really chill as ****
Chill as ****
Let the chamomile flow though the veins and such, I got a,
Soft spot for nature in my own little way,
Nobody else strong enough to evade my
space, Ya hear me,
Really chill , to the point of no return from
this cloud that I'm on, I could never come
down off this plane, its real strange,
But I'm sane,
Chill I'm telling you.
/
Don't drag your partners down along with ya' to the grave,
When fakeness is engrave into their brains like a bad movie that
Persuades ,never know, might bring the pain,
Shut up,
Close your eyes,
Matter of fact open them, stay awake,
Trust no one,
Talk to everyone,
Don't become a dead body in a lake,
Don't seal your fate,
You planned this ,You planned this,
You planned this, don't run from it,
You planned this ,the parasite lingers like
A therapist,
You planned this,
There's no other way to say your views are distorted,
Turning every which way as a sign,
It's a crime, systems take over your life,
You didn't plan it,
But they planned it,
This is propaganda we've been handed,
Your life expectancy isn't really candid,
I know we all gotta' die someday , lie awake somewhere,
Don't be a bandit or a sinner, that’s impossible,
Is this country really free ? Is it optional ?
The feds will hold , a grudge to different race cause their superiors told,
I feel like life is game without the checkmates,
It never gets old.
Apr 9, 2019
Apr 9, 2019 at 12:28 AM UTC
Oh Jefferson Beauregard Sessions,
being bullied by President Trump
You were loyal and true
as a lapdog, but you
have been thrown 'neath the bus like a chump.
So when Donald Trump asked you to fire
Mr. Mueller, you must have thought, "How"?
From that task you're excused,
being rightly recused
from the Russian mess playing out now.
So Trump's trying to shame and demean you,
saying that you're beleaguered and weak.
What a cowardly disgrace.
He won't say to your face
that "You're fired": Those words he won't speak?
Robert Mueller's team is closing in now,
with Trump's nuts in a vice - he can tell.
Trump won't show you the door
'cause we all know for sure,
it would make him look guilty as hell!
Understand, I don't like you Jeff Sessions,
with your racist past troubling and sad,
but I hope that you'll stay,
for I so love the way
that it's driving Trump stark raving mad!
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 10:32 PM UTC
You are as raisins you clean persons blood.
Life in full sprint high resolution and great details.
Once, grapes of green now a purplish black.
Your drees drapes the wooden floor white oak
Mar 23, 2017
Mar 23, 2017 at 9:36 AM UTC
TRUMP ON THE ELECTION CAMPAIGN
IT WAS THE HILLARY EMAIL SCANDAL
NOW TRUMP HAS EMAIL SCANDALS OF HIS OWN
IS HE ABLE TO HANDLE
MIKE PENCE USED PRIVATE EMAILS
AND CHATS WITH THE RUSSIANS
WILL THIS LEAD TO NOT CHATS
BUT INTENSE MAJOR DISCUSSIONS
JEFF SESSIONS LIED UNDER OATH
NOW HE IS STEPPING AWAY WILL THE
TRUMP PRESIDENCY HANDLE THE PROBLEMS
AND REMAIN TOO LEAD FOR ANOTHER DAY
Mar 3, 2017
Mar 3, 2017 at 10:52 PM UTC
Good riddens,
There's a truth in your lies,
You were right here for me,
Spreading emotions I could not
Even fathom,
I saw tears in your good-natured eyes,
By the falling sleeves,
Not troubled by rotten leaves,
Or the boys that hang in dark alleys,
Even I embrace the darkness,
Let it hug you,
Motion carried,
Lust never felt so good in ages,
Too bad I'll never be around to see
It age,
Turning 108,
Ever watched 12 years a slave,
Is how feel when I have no authority to
Lay,
So i lay down and relax,
I also struggled the with facts,
And you're crazier than I,
Then watch out for attack
Cause here I am.
Goodbye.
Oct 9, 2015
Oct 9, 2015 at 12:59 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
The lines in you'd represent,
The outskirts of our memories,
Looking into them,
For a decade or a century,
For that I am flattered to have known your life and what your background was,
What's the cost of peers without the funding of trust,
Get it!
You do???,
But they wouldn't know this,
We were tight before this.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 8:04 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
If the darkness is your friend,
Embrace it,
Like being blind,
Like society does us,
They would usually fake it,
No weakness being shown,
A lot of names go unknown,
Contending for the one to beat the final of the fitest,
Still can't see,
Well why don't you turn on a lamp,
See what's in front of you,
See the truth,
See the thing that always interest you,
One things for certain , I know uncle Sam will keep an eye on you,
That's why surveillance is a *****
Don't know what they put in the food,
Keep organizations that will hide you in a ditch,
Make the wrong move and you will be the fool,
Cut the lights on,
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 8:01 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
All I wanted Was you,
All I wanted was you,
Fatal memories drill my head,
I'm just bleeding out,
Rio was the funniest I ever had,
What you saying now,
I could turn a million heads away,
From your disgusting display,
Of making me feel okay,
You must be wrong in some way,
I might come home every Monday,
Bad thoughts need to fade,
Don't got **** to lose,
But I'm simply okay,
Been a target out here,
Since I was in 5th grade,
Ain't no room for shade,
I'm burning hot,
But the fire Marshall has been delayed,
So be glad you even know my name,
And be glad I was so use to your face,
Your style,
Your grace,
Flower skirts for the win,
Anger is just a phase,
So much for phases,
We create sin for days,
****** parades,
At the end of the day,
For the day can not hold us,
To know that I'd be feeling this way,
3 words you want me to say,
This just can't fall in place,
For the time being,
I don't wanna make a mistake,
I just wanna be the one to take you back to your place,
Lost in all disarray,
I just really can't stay,
But what I did know,
All I wanted Was you,
All I wanted was you.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 7:34 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
...so you see,
The empathy,
Of you and me,
I plant the seed,
The watery leaves,
They also make good graves just come and drown with me,
I hope your incarcerated sister is good and free,
Putting back the pieces of your family tree,
Growing gardens just mother nature's ***
Hope you don't set your sights on greed,
...so you see,
The empathy,
Of you and me,
I plant the seed,
The watery leaves,
They also make good graves just come and drown with me,
I know your better at that than me,
For the safe return of your soul I nearly speak,
Heart in your hand from the showers peak,
Singing and scrubbing yourself down,
Oh your voice is a beautiful glee.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 7:30 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
You Soul is somewhere else,
Swimming across seas to find you like Michael Phelps,
Of course I need no help,
I see no differences in color or wealth,
The milky way has you,
no texting from night to day,
I'm sitting right next to you,
I need to clarify,
do I really need to ask
when your memories are gone in a flash,
so far gone,
and your feet gets colder,
Can't believe that you are,
Disconnected,
Highly Neglected,
Souly disrespected,
I can feel your presence,
But you should be here....
....not in the sky.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 7:19 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Bodies Rocking,
Trembles at the feet walking in weird ways,
I've never disappointed before in our activities,
Want your personality way before this lustfulness,
Doing ancient dances,
Smile is always my fortay with you love,
Kisses make it all worth the stay,
Even might when I find work someday,
But you can lay,
Right on the California king,
Too proud to pay
Any Debts,
In not loving you or giving you all my loving,
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May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 7:16 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Never found a reason to go back,
The past was a horrible place to be,
Breathing in this cruel disgusting air,
And suffocating when there's no space,
But there's no other high like it,
If it ever has its own genre,
Collective to the sadness,
And suffered more of the drama,
Wishing some of the ex's you had could come back,
But they were bad influence bound,
Living in a bottle,
Made in a factory,
Kinda what's its like,
Working nine to five,
Keeping food on the table but I still remain to be stuck in the same place,
And with that being said , I'm trapped in this hell called a life.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 7:13 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Angels have a place in everyone's heart,
But some get kick out on their ***
Up above won't shade you , so you shade others,
Your sadness fades and your just filled with hate,
Someone comes along,
Just a pretty face with the devil's smile,
Must be the devil's child,
Or another Idlewild,
Never ever show your face in another town,
Wanted posters everywhere,
I wouldn't dare,
Tell you to come back,
Another hole in the door,
Where the **** is,
Punching makes the anger go away,
What are you gonna say,
To your dear old mother,
Of the anger that you just portrayed.
Ain't nobody gonna hold you hand,
Only for gods sake,
Everything that you faced,
You can only take so much away,
What more can you say , right?!.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 7:11 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
don't get the picture,
Then just brighten up the hue,
Who are they kidding,
Societies killing,
And the more profit they have,
Theyll be continually stabbing,
At the heart and lives of women and children,
The grass field feels so indulgent,
Circle jerkin frauds,
Everybody wanna pay the cost but they've all just been already bought,
Learn the lessons that they taught,
Lay the same flower on the coffin every year,
we barely sobbed.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 6:56 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Hey mami,
I hope you let the music take you,
Drift you off into sea,
Of the islands we speak,
Your indulgence gets me high,
If you're still around,
Picking michelias from the ground,
She walks,
Her high heels create flames,
Red dresses are remarkable,
Your sence of beauty is the one to blame,
My Brazilian queen,
Heard the ****** rate is huge,
But also is Rio,
So we should go,
Settle down and raise a family,
If we have a daughter,
Name her camaylibe,
Be half of me,
Dance in the streets on our young nights,
The way her body sways,
Elegance in her smile , what a sight!
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 6:52 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
** I need You more than you know,**
I can't be what you want me to be,
it was always you , not me,
definitely need you more than you need me,
This time...
I'll call it quits and start over again and..
I'll show that my feelings can be cleansed and..
Make the riots in my heart go away,
Letting the Phoenix fly up back to the home in the sky she stays,
I'll be as reassuring then all your ex's and...
Possibly make amends with satisfaction and...
Give you everything that you deserve and...
And maybe one day get to be your husband,
This time...
I wanna be the one that you call yours and...
Make love to you while smoking a Cuban....
Brazilian vacation travels on the seaside,
So we could run around with our feet in the sand,
Kissing in the rain at a samba and...
Your the one I love I hope you understand,
Meet me in the garden picking roses and daffodils,
I just wanna he happy to really be your man.
** I need You more than you know,**
I can't be what you want me to be,
it was always you , not me,
definitely need you more than you need me.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 6:48 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
You find your excuses,
And I'll find mine,
(Watch the sunset rise),
Stay at four seasons,
We could get by with time,
(Watch the sunset rise),
I could have made a difference in your world,
Just along for the ride,
(Watch the sunset rise),
You'll be fine,
And I'll be fine on sunset boulevard tonight.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 6:43 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
No time to be as strong minded,
I'm happy to be here to do another session,
Everybody wants to ridicule my life,
Take out the little imperfections I have going,
And completely idolize me as a laughing stalk,
So now I'm the one they walk around and stalk,
Trying to put me down but doing a bad job at it,
Learning to spread my wings and fly out of the cocoon,
I miss her but there's no strings attached,
But might be tied soon,
Running out of time to be young and head in right directions,
Although there's one direction,
Not the band,
You don't even understand me,
Or hear me like broken eardrums,
Beating,
My heart pounds,
Put on extra for a certain situation,
But more like a meeting.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 6:37 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
texting you at three in the morning when I need you,
Touching you like kissing the rain when I feel you,
you could turn a flower to gold with your finger tips,
Touching you like kissing the rain,
I feel pain,
Just a little in my lower abdomen,
You can not shy away from me,
Or the truth,
Or the lies,
Or the deceit,
When you cry,
One day I'll die,
Knowing you cared for me,
I was here before,
Drying my own eyes,
With a matching suit,
And matches to light my owe fire,
More of a thought than an action,
When the cameras are rolling,
I gave a slight reaction,
Uncontrollable satisfactions,
Violent outbursts to a dark past,
So when you me in the hall you better hal ***
Been punked out my whole life,
With an unborn kiss from my mothers heart,
Its complete ******** so I don't need to brag,
With the life situations and countless rumors,
I swear to god I need a heart attack,
But enough about me,
How is your mom , i know she talked about me,
Probably saying how well you'd do without me,
I was born to **** up,
Its not a secret anymore......
its an anatomy,
I said I would love you no matter the cost,
And I ******* that up,
Feelings drowning in a dead pool,
Sometimes I need to finish,
But I'm searching for a soulmate not a witness,
I just need some more clarity,
Would just help me out this hole,
No friends were there for me,
Play me like trading cards and leave me out in the cold,
Angry gestures won't get you by,
Wishing and hoping that the silver spoons die,
Die out and then never divide,
Like roaches they scatter around,
But so quick to provide,
You drive in a ******* porche while I take the bus,
Your money , you better hide,
So while I'm going on about that,
I'm reminiscing the good times that I spent with you,
All the nights you probably asleep,
Thinking about me in your dreams,
I'll just be ............
...texting you at three in the morning when I need you,
Touching you like kissing the rain when I feel you,
you could turn a flower to gold with your finger tips.
May 24, 2015
May 24, 2015 at 6:32 PM UTC
My therapist made me cry once
He kept prodding "tell me about her, tell me how she died"
A lump formed in my throat
And that night began to play over and over again
"There's not much to tell"
He didn't back down,
he had already burrowed beneath my skin
My tongue felt like a noose:
My words betraying my best friend
I had become so frightened to talk about her
That I began to simplify her into a nothingness
"I don't want to talk about her today"
"It happened so long ago I don't remember much" (Lie)
"What's got you down today, court?" "Nothing."
"It's okay to cry sometimes you know.."
"I don't need to cry. I'm stronger than that"
She became the "nothing" and "I'm fine" to all of the "whats wrong's"
My tongue had formed a noose and somehow slipped around the neck of Erin
She didn't just die that night,
She died inside me too.
I deleted every memory of her, every trace
My mind flooded with thoughts about her,
Until finally the silence was too much for him...
"Keep going Courtney, you're making so much progress"
This time my tongue did not betray her,
It only betrayed me as words slipped out of my mouth
It happened in such an eerie way;
I watched the words slowly roll off my lounge
And just before I could swallow them back down they vanished before me
Warm tears fell onto my denim jeans
As he finished speaking I stood up and reached for the door handle
Finally, it was over.
But just as I slipped out his office he offered me 5 more words,
"This is just the beginning."
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 5:55 PM UTC