#seperated
Shoulder to shoulder with you
Rather than shoulder to shoulder with my reflection in the window
I scored true love but I guess I never really win though
Beautiful months with you-- where's all the time?
But I guess the butterflies went with the wind flow.
Facetime call after an hour of text
I was blushing through my dark skin--
You saw little specks--
Little chili pepper sprinkles all over my cheeks
You're the chili flake on my pizza, I needed a piece.
Visiting your abode more than once and seeing your dog I can't be done
Your mountain of covers and the weighted pillow you know I like--
The tray of ashes next to your bed but our love was never dead
The Nike slides beside you but you never got up and left
The socks I received after I stepped in your dogs ***
I never caught myself remembering details but when it's you
The finest hairs are visible.
"You are 15"--
"What do you mean...love?"
Flip around the numbers...
That's the area my mom thinks I'm in when I mention love.
Grey rainbows
Black sun
Cold lava
Soft bamboo
I am too taboo.
Mar 23
Mar 23, 2026 at 7:35 PM UTC
A billion stars,
Anywhere in the galaxy.
The distance with earth and mars,
Is just like you and me.
We can’t be closer,
As time goes longer.
We can only go further,
And we really can’t be together.
I know that there’s dark matter,
Pulling us away from each other.
Like my feelings for you, it won’t really matter.
And your answer will always be “go find someone better.”
Better? A word that consist of a pair of t and e.
And 2 different letters of r and b.
A variables that represents to you and me.
Like a math problems, we’re cannot be.
I need to find the distance between you and me.
You’re the point r and I’m the point b.
Using Pythagorean Theorem rather than trigonometry.
Like A is you plus B is me.
I need to find the C.
The sea that connects to you and me.
I’m the boat that needs a sea.
But there’s no "C" in sea that connects to you and me.
Row row row your boat gently down the stream.
Merrily merrily merrily merrily our love is but a dream.
A dream worth believing, that I want to live in.
And yet I just arrive and now you’re leaving.
Living the real life?
Or I’m just living a fantasy?
Open your eyes.
Look up the sky and see.
A Star, A Star light,
So bright.
Imagine, you and me in this starry night.
Holding your hand this tight.
I can’t believe that you’re with me tonight.
Maybe this night,
will turn out right.
And you’ll find the guy who would you like.
All I hope its me if that's alright?
But in reality, it is a cloudy night.
A starless sight.
A moonless light.
Twinkle twinkle litter star.
I wonder what your feelings are?
After he left you with bruises and scar.
Now I want to know on how you are?
Atlas the distance is great.
Maybe this is the last time that I’ll sleep up late?
But you’re the risk that I’m willing to take.
I promise, I will do it for us sake.
But "us" rest in peace.
I just want to be with you.
But the question is?
Am I meant to be with you?
Jul 7, 2020
Jul 7, 2020 at 11:28 AM UTC
I try to find something familiar in the stranger staring back at me. I don’t recognize him. I don’t think he ever cared. Event though he made me believe he did. I don’t think he ever loved me. He loved the reflection of the man he saw in my eyes. Loving only the way I loved him. I made him my sun, I made him the stars in my darkness. I gave him my heart. Looking back now. I don’t think I loved him either. I loved having a man on my side, to please, to cater to. He was so broken and I had someone to fix. I can finally move on knowing there is nothing left worth pursuing, because we never really loved.
Nov 12, 2019
Nov 12, 2019 at 8:12 PM UTC
How could you say these lies
When you know I anticipate these times with you.
To watch you walk away
Your warmth instantly leaving my hands.
How could you say these lies
Knowing that your not coming back.
My hands with nothing left to grab.
Watching you walk away.
Those jeans
The way you sway.
My hands ache with nothing left to grab on to.
The warmth hidden behind those jeans.
How could you say these lies
Knowing that I am waiting.
Anticipating this time spent with you.
The way my hands grip you.
Each moment slipping through my fingers.
Not knowing you didn't plan on coming back.
Your sway imprinted on my hands.
This walk a reminder of how I waited.
Anticipating this time spent with you.
How could you say these lies.
My hands filled with brown skin.
Squeezed tight
Cuffed beneath the bottom of your jeans.
Finally realizing you never planned on coming back.
Your sway
Those jeans.
Your warmth forever leaving my hands.
& here I am
Still anticipating this time,
Spent with you
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 12:45 AM UTC
We tied
sweet nothings
around our wrists.
And fell,
in life we were
equal together.
In death we were
a strand
connected eternally.
Apr 10, 2018
Apr 10, 2018 at 6:19 PM UTC
Hide in a closet
You assume
All is good
But never assume
For I hide
For a reason
For I’m here
Because of treason
I cry
But why
Is it because I wore a smile
Or because you played along for awhile
The reason
I hide
Is cause of treason
But who betrayed who
The liar
The actor
Or you
The one
Who played along
When the situation became dire
Dec 20, 2017
Dec 20, 2017 at 7:00 PM UTC
Hallo
Ku tulis ini untuk rindu
Yg gejolaknya membara selalu
Tak henti henti merayu
Tuk membuat sajak-sajak mendayu
Mau apalagi
Aku tak ingkar hari ini
Sungguh rindu ku rasa kini
Tak penat hati tuk habiskan ini
Sajak bait pun terangkai kini
Dan saat itu pula rasa rindunya semakin menjadi
Dec 1, 2017
Dec 1, 2017 at 7:32 PM UTC
I searched for you
In the eyes of the cashier
In the eyes of the lady on her phone
In the eyes of anyone willing to let me search
I couldn't find you
the spark that gripped me
the shine the captivated me in awe
the windows that showed me the soul I fell in love with
Your soul was the loveliest of souls
Pure, Honest, Compassionate, Trustworthy
Pretty much everything God could want in a human being
An absolutely beautiful type of being that made love feel real
Are you searching for me too?
Are you wondering where your baby girl went?
Are you tearing through confused crowds yelling my name?
Do you feel every cell in you telling you that something is wrong?
Because I'm always looking for you
I'm always wondering where you went handsome
I'm fighting my bed sheets at night, screaming your name
Every cell I contain tells me that something is terribly wrong
When I find you handsome, I won't let go
I'll love you beyond the infinities separating us
The heart wrenching deadly cries will finally end
I'm waiting for the day I find you, my handsome
May 22, 2017
May 22, 2017 at 5:32 PM UTC
Maybe one day when the days are fine,
Maybe some years after nine.
Maybe then we come across each other or maybe we won't.
Maybe we ignore or maybe we won't,
Maybe we smile or maybe we won't.
Maybe we crave for that one hug or maybe we won't.
Maybe then you notice the love in my eyes or maybe you won't,
Maybe you can hear the poem my eyes recite or maybe you won't.
Maybe you still pull my cheeks or maybe you won't.
Maybe you still laugh on my jokes or maybe you won't.
Maybe we exchange contacts or maybe we won't.
Maybe then you leave saying goodbye once again or maybe you won't.
Maybe you call me later or maybe you won't
Maybe i say hello and you reply or maybe you won't.
Maybe we start once again or maybe we won't.
Maybe we fall in love once again or maybe we won't.
Maybe you too wish the same to happen or maybe you won't.
Maybe you too miss me or maybe you won't.
Maybe you too write the same or maybe you won't.
Mar 28, 2017
Mar 28, 2017 at 4:16 AM UTC
Resting, resting in puddle
The grains relaxed
splayed across one another
The sand is peaceful
It is undesturbed
The worlds chaos passing it by
Watching the world as through a glass
its where it belongs
No pretenses - no emotion
Just stillness as the sand melts content in a puddle
as not a participant but an observer
Life passes by
Dec 10, 2016
Dec 10, 2016 at 8:51 AM UTC
*The way we love
is deep ocean rolling
into the depths
parts unknown
quickened
reanimating
as her hips sway in my mind
to a melodious Adagio
and every day,
when we talk
she unravels
like the threads of a scanty dress
more exposed
our souls held
in a steady grip
caressed at first
like nested fledglings
open mouths begging
blood bells weeping
liquefied
swallowing each others souls
like bears
eat up-leaping salmon
pink tongues
frothy saliva
blood
and runny roe sacks
loves hungry mouth
merciless
a ***** head
a brute
storming her *****
sweet fluttering nightingale
singing the high notes
she opened
like queen snake
pierced to the core
royal lady weeping
lost in heaven
and then cut off
we hang up the phone
left longing
for more words
and
butter kisses,
eating
butter kisses
mixed with
whisper cocktails
a sea of fire
that singe and burn
our love
a flaming pink cloud
puff
brains like cheese melts
mouths like powder fizz
our feet and thighs
flexed and scorched
by lurid desire
and if it gets murky
if the fog blinds us
we hold a tender stretch
of vastness
and endless lighted torches
as the lifeline pulls through
a pulsing chord
Umbilicus
binding hearts
by threads of light and crimson plush
fused by cosmic fires white
hollowing parched sockets
pumping out epiphanies
in beaten silken swords
bursting
full of faith
spines like temple columns
i am free to love her
as trees cradle monarchs
both of us
children of the heavens
she
dark lover yielding
in lustful throngs
as we thrill
in the realm of the senses
like dancing flowers
in sprinkles of dew and light
as love blushes
and shimmers up around us
like rhythms of a thousand kissing eyes
undulating
penetrates sinews and the body electric
like winged Venus
when two souls
love each other
unbreakable
yet obstructed
by oceans and continents
a colossal brood of lands
while beneath
shrug tectonic groans
our love
air and fire
while flesh remains
un-thawed by proximities neglect
panes of ice
waiting
waiting
waiting
*
Sep 24, 2016
Sep 24, 2016 at 1:26 PM UTC
Do We War For Money
Or For Fame
Is It Power
Or Hidden Shame?
And Then They Were One
Sep 13, 2016
Sep 13, 2016 at 3:54 PM UTC
I don't really know you
and you've never been close to me
I've never even met you
but sometimes you message me
I'm 13 years younger
but I never seemed to wonder
why you never knew
until one night my dad found you
he hasn't seen you for years
but he never thought this day would come
where he could know his first daughter
even though you are no longer the only one
Apr 16, 2016
Apr 16, 2016 at 7:15 AM UTC
The frustrations of a flower
Wilting never to watered by
That heart again, only now
Do the petals fall like tears.
Jul 25, 2015
Jul 25, 2015 at 9:35 AM UTC
Fathers are supposed to protect you
Be there for you
But mine seems to think I'll ruin his life
The coward is still afraid of responsiblity even though its been sixteen years since he knocked up my mum.
He has three other kids you know
One whom died not so long ago
One who he also ditched at birth but he sees her now
And a tiny wee baby called Riley
I don't want to see that ****
But I'd do anything to meet that wee baby
I've seen photos and hes grown sooo much
And im glad that coward didn't run out on Riley because that baby deserves a father as much as the next person.
Hope to meet you one day little one ♥
May 15, 2015
May 15, 2015 at 8:33 PM UTC
i thought i were polite
so i gave my patience
i gave my tolerance
to you the impatient
to you..oh
you sigh ripper
well you heard me breath
bet you're proud now
of how my heart spoke
as your mind played
this is my heart you messed
and the pieces are unforgiving
so you'll drag a curse
to swell with the pain
of losing me the innocent
me the naive minded
...oh dear dungeon
i refer to you
in all the evil i confront
because you took the precious of me
and clearly laid me to shame
...how i thought you loved me more
more than maternity
...i should have known
beasts live in souls
and you wore a beautiful corpse
Mar 31, 2015
Mar 31, 2015 at 9:46 AM UTC
Give me a minute to think
I am sorry if I am taking long
Please believe In my words
Tell me I am trying don't leave without saying I tried
Dec 26, 2014
Dec 26, 2014 at 9:04 PM UTC
You tell me it doesn't have to be this way
I can have it any way
And I say, if I can have it my way then so can you
If we both want it two different ways, what will we do?
Oct 13, 2014
Oct 13, 2014 at 7:38 PM UTC
Laughs echo down
the halls around you.
Your are seperated from
the happiness.
You have to remind yourself:
I exist.
Everyone around you
is talking.
You are seperated from
their madness.
You have to remind yourself:
I exist.
Lives seem to move on
around you.
You are seperated from
the adventure.
You have to remind yourself:
I exist.
In night and day:
I exist.
In time and history:
I exist.
I have flesh and a heart:
I exist.
As painful as it is to walk, it's the most beautiful thing.
Sep 17, 2014
Sep 17, 2014 at 10:05 AM UTC