#senseofself
I’d like a coffee.
Which is strange,
because I don’t like coffee.
I don’t feel like myself today.
Mar 7, 2025
Mar 7, 2025 at 6:43 PM UTC
Nothing feels solid
and I can't see anymore.
Just faces faded
in old pictures on the wall.
There's just nothing
at all.
Nothing feels solid
or at least,
I can't feel it anymore.
There's scratch marks on my body
and they will surely go away
or at least
that's what I've been told.
I don't feel at home in myself anymore.
There's not enough space for change
nor to grow.
I feel it's all so slippery
and I can't figure out a way to keep hold
of all those things
that would make my heart bold,
thumping loud in my chest,
not so scared of getting old.
I'll remember you forever
and forget you all the same,
same way you'll do with me,
I guess time will be to blame.
Promise me you'll be getting older,
'cause we're young now
but the chiming will be getting stronger.
I love you now that I don't know you,
so love me then
when you don't see me anymore.
Jul 15, 2023
Jul 15, 2023 at 7:06 AM UTC
I look into the mirror
And I lose myself
I blink and yes, that's me.
Is it really?
I look a little fake,
My paint's cracked and flaked
Off at the front, my eyes have lost their colour
And my mouth's all wrong.
I thought I had brown hair,
But what's that black and white
Slate I see, staring back at me?
Am I copy of the real thing?
Gepetto, I want to be a real boy,
I feel like nothing more than a toy.
Sep 14, 2021
Sep 14, 2021 at 12:13 PM UTC
A cancellation of something, is (generally speaking) progress to enlightenment, because it's meant to "congress" the very supposedly different features that literally...
SCREAMS OUT OF CONTROL!
(But only, when something doesn't officially go its own way).
However, in time, things do get better.
Because they must!
It's just simply...HAST TOO!
After all, it's a very "primal" influential (on a need-to-know basis), before something truthfully "triggers" the very (notion of surprise) in the "generalized" form...that is a natural part of life that stems from the very pit in one's own gut.
Then at which time SCREAMS back in response, (from the very first response that triggered its very own local message).
BREAKING the very so-called "alignment" (when evolving yourself directly straight-out from under the control of your very own still processing learning curb), that keeps you (too "rooted" in your very own self) from that very essential...cancellation itself.
But alas, things aren't as focused (as they once were...) Now aren't they...?
That's entirely against the point of "truer" interests that begin too BASH one another over such silly "squabbles".
Something that truly masks the very freedom of what was (once out of control)! That is now breathing in this very newer *** of fresh air.
This very newer *** of fresh air is a little "musty". And could become HEAVILY influenced, because of its very own odor type smell...it truly gives off....
But that's only because things have been stashed away and broken down and covered up for far too long.
Meaningfully, making it the obvious result of the very cancellation holding you back from simply moving forward with a very "progression for enlightenment" itself.
Simply put, once you let go of the too many "attachments" that have been stringing you along in such a predictable simulation for an incredibly (sort of "dire" need) to become this WIDENED long-drawn-out frame of time...
That's what starts to truly speculate its very own nature.
Also, when things start to take a turn for the "interesting kind".
Basically, your no different from anyone else.
However, that doesn't mean your own "sense of liberty" (in your very self) doesn't become prey to even truer mindsets...that'd have you "scrambling" out of sync with what truly matters in your very ("hour of need").
Progress at the ending type of spectrum for enlightenment, is the such "divinity" of one's own (preciously "engaged") sufferable type of "repressed" comings and goings (among the very goings on), that then (in the very truest sense of the word) limit your actions to such "formidable...consequences."
Either way, a cancellation such as this, will harbor the very "harbinger"...that is the "progress of enlightenment" itself!
Mar 28, 2021
Mar 28, 2021 at 2:20 PM UTC
The tenuous sense of self is crumbling
In a gentle breeze of slight rejection,
Whose worth is broken by extreme humbling
So breaking true self’s the self’s protection.
Breaking down instead of standing strong
Means the world must clean up all your pieces.
Even when the self feels the self is wrong
And the will to hold yourself releases.
The human soul is stronger than the hand.
The self survives outside a lover’s grip.
When you crumble you need to understand
Your own love is the greatest partnership.
You never considered how much trouble
It is to find heartbeats in the rubble.
Dec 8, 2018
Dec 8, 2018 at 3:58 PM UTC
He gave
Almost everything,
Knowing she would take it.
And he let her
Because she needed it,
More even than she wanted it.
He gave
Almost everything,
But he kept enough
To still give compassion
When she left
Needing more
Than he could give.
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 9:50 PM UTC