#selfmedicating
Just because the bottles say your name
Doesn’t mean it’s not self-medication
You don’t get to pick and choose
You aren’t curating a selection
You need to throw them away
I know you’re not okay
But you will make things worse
If you choose
To self-medicate
Jan 9, 2020
Jan 9, 2020 at 11:58 AM UTC
poured the poison down my throat
just to numb the pain
the overwhelming pain
and I poured... and poured
take it slow... then a bit braver...
a shot... another...
another.... another...
til my limbs felt loose
the room swayed
and I just... I just felt good
the pain... had melted away
just as I had desired
just as I had craved
and I loved it
every moment
Nov 10, 2019
Nov 10, 2019 at 2:16 AM UTC
swaying to the rhythm of the bass
I dance the cup back up to my lips again
I close my eyes and knock the rest of the drink back
feeling the familiar burn
I smile
letting the substance run into my bloodstream
again and again and again
each round makes the world a bit brighter
the music sound better
my body more numb
my feelings more happy
so I drink and I drink
until I’m on my back
and the world is spinning
my mind is empty
free from any thought
I am at peace
floating, like a ghost
just trying to get through the night
Jan 7, 2019
Jan 7, 2019 at 5:03 AM UTC
I've half a bottle of cider
In my bedroom at home
I'll drink it, when I go back
I'll write some more
Then doubtless, switch it up, to ***
It tastes like ****
But it's a hit
And the closest I'll get to a gun
Twice as lethal, thrice as slow
It is my remedy
For all of those evil thoughts
And no one loving me
It seems, when I am drinking
My brain shuts the **** up
It lets me write
It lets me dream
And I've not thrown my guts up
Jul 14, 2017
Jul 14, 2017 at 6:42 AM UTC
i stay drunk all the time
on sweet berry wine
from the fruit of sublime
on the trees and the vine
i get high every day
by the way of the blaze
that's just my way
to break through the haze
i get by all the time
with these ways of mine
all I need is a dime
and sweet berry wine
i get high every day
by the way of the blaze
that's just my way
to break through the maze
Apr 1, 2016
Apr 1, 2016 at 1:07 PM UTC
would you cry in vindiction
should i repossess your drugs
all i ever really wanted
was your kisses and your hugs
Mar 28, 2014
Mar 28, 2014 at 3:27 PM UTC