#selfharn
I sit in the shower, wishing for my brain to work the way it should.
I sit in the shower and let the water beat against my face, hoping that will drown out my thoughts and insecurities.
I sit in the shower and cry because I know no one will hear me.
I sit in the shower and question my importance here.
I sit in the shower and gag myself while I sob quietly.
I sit in the shower and take apart razor blades and let them dance across my wrists so that I will stop numbly staring at the shower wall.
I sit in the shower and wonder, if I should really be here tomorrow.
So, how do I tell my friends I sit in the shower?
Mar 20, 2020
Mar 20, 2020 at 7:54 AM UTC
I watch the blood flow
But it's not nearly enough
I feel the walls closing in
I need something more
I'm hyperventilating
Gasping for air
If I can just remember to
breathe
breathe
breathe
Clutching my chest
Heart beats erratic
There has to be something more
More than
Sadness
Pain
Disappointment
The walls are crushing me
And my resolve is crumbling
I don't know how much longer I'll last
Jul 17, 2016
Jul 17, 2016 at 11:27 PM UTC