"**Boom!**"
pretty colors explode in the sky;
the dogs whimper,
the human cries
because of PTSD
but this time it's not mine.

"*BoomCrackleSnapSnap*"
it sounds like artificial thunder;
from the backyard none of the colors can be seen but you still hear it.
I stand here with tears on my face
thinking, remembering, and crying.
'I can't help them..'
'I can't save them..'
'I want them here..'
these thoughts fill my head like a storm, the pain and regret explode in my chest, emotional fireworks...

..are the worst kind.
(for me)