#self-battle - Hello Poetry

Midst the ravishing night There I stood in angst and agony Before the distant arch Beneath the firmament radiant bright Conquered by my own longevity Waiting in a shell of a body For the time to be right Trying to run, trying to escape But perhaps what's held me in place Are the demons I draped Within me lies a scar of survival Carved by the blades of insanity Of what little sanity that's s left That fades away in the smog of my self-rival In this night dim enough,silence silent enough Against my vision, Against my throat Plead the Watcher of the skies To battle,end the fight;my fight Would all this ease my pain? Or is this just a fallen effort with no gain In the silence and fear that drove me here Striking down the life i knew Here I stand on that arch Letting the demons empower me Allowong them to make me void The past regrets only question me Am I dream? Or am I dreaming Is this a testimony I must confess? Should I fight them one more time Or would it be best to cease?

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Apr 11, 2016

Apr 11, 2016 at 9:01 AM UTC

alyaan-tariq

Chains of Sanity

Midst the ravishing night There I stood in angst and agony Before the distant arch Beneath the firmament radiant bright Conquered by my own longevity Waiting in a shell of a body For the time to be right Trying to run, trying to escape But perhaps what's held me in place Are the demons I draped Within me lies a scar of survival Carved by the blades of insanity Of what little sanity that's s left That fades away in the smog of my self-rival In this night dim enough,silence silent enough Against my vision, Against my throat Plead the Watcher of the skies To battle,end the fight;my fight Would all this ease my pain? Or is this just a fallen effort with no gain In the silence and fear that drove me here Striking down the life i knew Here I stand on that arch Letting the demons empower me Allowong them to make me void The past regrets only question me Am I dream? Or am I dreaming Is this a testimony I must confess? Should I fight them one more time Or would it be best to cease?

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Don’t you ever get tired of being defensive, on guard, on the waiting call to strike back and move forward? Don’t you ever feel restless for a minute of peace in the world, in yourself? Another empty whisky bottle lays at the end of that table and still there’s no hope to be found. You fight to hold on, you fight to stay strong. Finger on the gun, you’re not going home today. The fight’s not done, the war ain’t won. A man on a ledge, ready to jump.

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Aug 4, 2015

Aug 4, 2015 at 4:59 PM UTC

irsorai

A Man on a Ledge

Don’t you ever get tired of being defensive, on guard, on the waiting call to strike back and move forward? Don’t you ever feel restless for a minute of peace in the world, in yourself? Another empty whisky bottle lays at the end of that table and still there’s no hope to be found. You fight to hold on, you fight to stay strong. Finger on the gun, you’re not going home today. The fight’s not done, the war ain’t won. A man on a ledge, ready to jump.

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Today I feel okay, I could make it through the day, but still something lingers growing at the back of my mind. It's her .I know it is. Her voice whispers lingering here and there, slowly I start to wonder and I can't see the air. I kick and punch stronger than before, but still she screams "I don't think so you ***** I stare at my reflection and cry and ask why Why do I fight myself, Why does she not die? Today I won another battle, hope gleams in my eyes, Today her voice has weaken.Today I truly tried.

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Jul 29, 2015

Jul 29, 2015 at 10:56 PM UTC

lostnotfound

Her Voice

Today I feel okay, I could make it through the day, but still something lingers growing at the back of my mind. It's her .I know it is. Her voice whispers lingering here and there, slowly I start to wonder and I can't see the air. I kick and punch stronger than before, but still she screams "I don't think so you ***** I stare at my reflection and cry and ask why Why do I fight myself, Why does she not die? Today I won another battle, hope gleams in my eyes, Today her voice has weaken.Today I truly tried.

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