#sedation
How perfect you are
So round and so small
Promising my spirit, I could forget it all
Consume me, you cry
Wait, what did I hear
Consume me, you cry louder, for do not fear
Forget, you whisper and so quietly sigh
Contempt filled with promise of saying goodbye
Amnesia, I remind you, as I swallow you whole
Bring death to me quickly before he knocks on our door
My reliable friend, for far, far too long
I needed you to cope, but just couldn’t go on
I grew weak and too weary
My spirit did fall
For my son has left me, and my heart he took all
Just surface now for those who know
The true depth of a soul is so far below
Don’t weep
Don’t cry
It wasn’t your fault
I just wasn’t strong enough to continue the walk
Feb 23, 2021
Feb 23, 2021 at 11:39 AM UTC
Sit on the ground
watch the parade march around
go through the whole town
no one notices
that jugglers are choking
and the little kids are smoking
the balloons are deflating
everything escalating
and its so frustrating
but the pills are sedating
Sep 12, 2019
Sep 12, 2019 at 6:35 PM UTC
Armed guards, perimeter fences,
no this is not a prison camp.
Are you having a good time?
Solar panels, composting toilets, weaving workshops,
sedation, not sedition.
Our partners distracted,
we find freedom.
I was looking for you for ages,
just not where we agreed.
My friends have taken too much.
I can't find my tent.
I don't know what to do.
The trees are so beautiful
when illuminated by lasers.
I am a ball of light, an orb of perception,
intimately mingling with those that didn't pick me up hitchhiking.
But here we are brothers, and sisters,
don't drop your phone.
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 10:34 PM UTC
Dylan got it first, as he often did,
That American youth were ignorant kids,
Betrayed by the things our parents hid.
And we were insulted just a little bit
But we listened and took the plunge,
Determined to expunge
The poison and let out the Id.
It was up to us not heed the call up
And as one voice we stood up,
Saying, shouting NO!
Twenty or so legendary years for some;
While others sold out, we beat the drum.
Our peers oddly died around us but….
Even as we ‘felt those cold hands’ touch our skin,
As The Capitalists were closing in—
& Some of them were us…
We sounded the drum.
Later on some hippie-punks or is it the other way(?)
Sang about extraordinary girls & then took a fall.
Sometimes begged for Novocain
Which wouldn’t relieve psychic pain,
Like being Ramonely sedated in a concert hall.
Nobody knew what to do with them.
Except to give them fame.
(It was just as bad for them as for the Clash)…
Hell, they almost invented the mash-up.
And too many anti-hippie punks
Loaded on cheap ****** or always drunk,
Claimed all those heroes had sold out.
But Ziggy would’ve known Ash from Ash.
Then came their Blood on the Tracks;
They finally saw what Dylan saw,
Or, if they saw it before,
They got some Real Emotion back.
Nothing has changed and everything has changed,
Said The Heathen…and he should know.
But how do we see, stuck here ‘so far below’,
Not remotely in the know;
They might be on an intergalactic trip
Or as in “A.I”, nothing more than a binary blip?
But encased in virtual ice, how can we live?
Until the end…and even then…
As John wrote, we only get the love we give.
Jul 14, 2018
Jul 14, 2018 at 1:28 PM UTC
All this is is another line,
All I have is another fine.
I don’t want this, not anymore,
My mind is tired my body sore.
all alone in bed I'll lay.
So I don’t want my fate today,
It has dealt me a bad hand,
It has screamed to me I cant.
I can't exist and I won't live here,
I will need pills, **** and beer.
I will have the need to this sedation,
for I am gods worthless creation.
May 2, 2018
May 2, 2018 at 1:59 PM UTC
Do I take a clonazepam
Do I take a seroquel
Do I take the new antipsychotic
Tight skin
Tight skin
Tight skin
If i smoke **** do I long term fertilize my paranoia
Is there a way to live without sedation
Tight skin
Tight skin
Tight skin
Agitation
Irritation
Sensitivity
Anxiety
Paranoia
The collective static of the tension spots
Internal screaming
Waiting for the clonazepam to kick in
Sep 28, 2017
Sep 28, 2017 at 1:23 AM UTC
Sleep
beep beep
sleep
the machine is never wrong
as long as I'm asleep
it will beep
if I wake it makes another sound
to bring the nurses around
and then they tinker
(not with me)
with the
drip feed or
the plug lead
until
I'm back asleep
beep
beep.
Mar 8, 2017
Mar 8, 2017 at 2:37 PM UTC
Let me sleep under the burning moonbeam
I want you to be the last I see
Before I close my dead tired eyes
Let me close my EYES
Let me sleep
T O N I G H T
Put a bullet straight through my head
Toss me on top of the bed
In the land of Bedfordshire
I rest my tired bones
Bones that caressed you
Loved you
Cared for you
Are you still capable of the love you once shown?
Let me drink a cup of ***
Just ONE
One more ***
Let me smoke the weeds
The witness to your ***** deeds
Your mouth, full o lies
Explode
****
Dynamite
Your skin, stone cold
Cold and numb
**** this cruel world
How can one be ever that dumb?
To love you like this
And torture me to grits I cannot endure
AU REVOIR
That's all I could say
Darling, I wish I'd stay
But I want to go home now
So please let me sleep
Before you let me drown
Oct 21, 2015
Oct 21, 2015 at 11:59 AM UTC
Do you know what it's like?
To be imprisoned
In the past?
I am
Locked up in a cell
Of unforgiving memories
And mental stains I tried to hide
And blood underneath
My fingernails
And I just can't
Scrub it all away
I just want it all to end
This ********
Nonexistent road of endless
Turmoil and boiling hatred
And emotional leakage
I am so
****** off lately
And I just don't give a ****
About the things
I used to give a **** about
Have you ever just
Not cared
Awakened by hostility
And sedated with
"It'll be alright"
No, **** you
It won't be alright, okay
Because it's not worth my time of day
To pretend
Like the little things don't matter
Because they do
They really do
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 3:37 AM UTC
Let me love you
Love you tender
I'll hold it above you
You'll always remember
Let me kiss you
Lips of fire
My burn won't miss you
My soul conspires
Let me feel you
**** sedation
Hook and reel you
Primal predation
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC
Senselessly,
I've fallen
for some uncertainty
The cluelessness
I feel
is equated
with sedation;
and the seduction
in those
perfect
green
eyes
make me
yearn
to learn
your entire
physique;
your entire
mentality
To explore
depths
even you have
forgotten
Apr 3, 2014
Apr 3, 2014 at 4:49 PM UTC