#scrutinizing
Crippling self doubt
plagues my existence.
Injecting itself into my blood stream;
immobilizing my muscles
numbing my tongue
and muting my voice box.
It quenches its thirst
by tearing my self image
limb from limb and
ploughing my insides
till there is nothing left.
It either bombards like
gunfire inside my head
firing flaws into questions
or drain each cell's confidence
leaving the muscles to shiver and shudder
and words hesitant to leave my tongue.
My flesh that houses doubt
is familiar with every capillary of my insecurity;
Whispering my shortcomings
and scrutinizing the details that make me, me.
It is a constant fight, invisible to the eyes.
Internal;
it's all in my head.
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 9:31 AM UTC