#sadist
slice me open
bleed me dry
you tear into me like a
starved, feral animal
but it’s not the same, is it?
there’s a difference between
you
and the wild animal
a wild animal acts upon instinct
you
act upon perversions
you have intention
a bear would not
do those things
Apr 19, 2024
Apr 19, 2024 at 9:31 PM UTC
Like yin and yang,
Opposites attract,
The sadist and the *********
Could attest to that.
Though their relationship was uncertain,
There was one fact,
He’d never raise a hand to her,
No, he’d never hit her back.
She let out all of her pain,
As she relished in his.
She hoped that he would fight back,
That was her one wish.
He cried out in pain,
As he took each of her kicks,
Feeling pleasure,
Though he was embarrassed to admit it.
The ********* had convinced his mind,
That he needed someone inside his life,
To break away his fleeting pride,
To break him down to where he wanted to die.
He never tried to run.
Why would he?
Who would be there to let his wife,
Blow off steam?
He took all of her blows,
Wiped the blood from his broken nose,
And deep down he knows,
He should get away, but he won’t.
She feels triumphant,
Her heart felt filled,
Laughing at the misery,
She never felt any guilt.
He hides his bruises,
Panting with relief,
As he covers his contusions,
Cursing the reprieve.
The sadist convinced her mind
That she just needed someone to hurt in her life,
Someone to satisfy,
Her parasitic urges before they killed her inside.
She never pushed him away.
Why would she?
Where would she let out her pain?
Who would bring her glee by hurting?
She punched and she beat,
Trying to blow off steam,
An attempt to retreat,
From the loss surrounding her feet.
One day, the sadist hit the *********
After having beaten him around.
There was no scream, there was no cry,
Just a thump as he crashed onto the ground.
The sadist dropped the hammer,
And hid her mouth behind her hands,
Thinking she killed the love of her life.
The previous pleasure,
Faded to more pain,
As she cried and sobbed,
His blood left a nasty stain.
She called the police,
And turned herself in,
They took him away in an ambulance,
As she was in cuffs.
She felt no peace,
Her heart now broken,
Their fractured romance,
Was never enough.
But the ********* wasn’t dead,
And awoke months later in a hospital bed.
Paralyzed down from his neck,
He wouldn’t feel much of anything again.
While the sadist spent the rest of her days,
Locked in a cell, boiling with her pain.
She promised that if she ever got to see the light of day,
She’d go to the ********* and say,
How sorry she was, and she’d try to change.
Yin and yang,
Forever broken apart,
Though opposites may attract,
They can also shatter and leave scars.
The relationship,
Long gone,
But does anybody,
Win in the end?
No,
Nobody does.
Apr 24, 2025
Apr 24, 2025 at 10:06 PM UTC
i will never look for true love
i am someone who will never find one
why?
i am a sadist,
not to someone else
but to myself,
who prefers hurting herself
Aug 17, 2023
Aug 17, 2023 at 2:31 AM UTC
You always told me
"you look so pretty when you cry, my love..."
I used to be flattered, batting my wet eyelashes, my glazed-over eyes, fully captivated by the sight of...you.
but now I realize
you're just a sadist
& I'm just a *********
the lamb to your slaughter.
Oct 24, 2022
Oct 24, 2022 at 11:27 PM UTC
I will love you, until we are black and blue; bruised by these pains and pleasures, that I offer you.
Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 5:33 PM UTC
breathe for me,
just one deep breath.
let me see the rise of your chest.
i've got you, we're going to have a little fun, princess.
down into the depths, we go
don't squirm.
you know how I hate when you mess me up.
calm down, brat, i've got you.
look at you! my hands wrap around your neck so nicely!
it's almost as if you were made for me
come on, darling, eyes on me
i like the way you smile, so smile for me, hm?
oh yes, that's the one.
my pretty little princess, you're entirely precious
how innocent you are for me
hard to tell if you're whining or moaning, love.
does it hurt when I touch you?
it's your fault, you beg for it, don't you?
it's your fault that you've bruised
its okay, pretty baby, purple suits your face well.
flinch again and I'll hit you harder.
aw, tears? you know how I feel about crying.
god you're so cute, I could **** you!
you're such a tease for death, hm?
you screamed so beautifully when my blade was against your neck
have you ever been touched like this before?
no? not by anyone but me?
good.
you're not meant to know anything
except for me,
except for the ways that I make you feel.
I'm treating you better than anyone else ever would.
i like the way you look
all bound up, just for me, skin tied tight
do the rope burns feel unbearable?
just a little longer, love.
you'll get excited to see me soon.
no more of that pretty little fear
every touch, you'll crave, you'll beg for.
you're mine now, aren't you? say it. say "I'm all yours."
you'll love every second of life i grant you
i'll show you what it means to want.
oh yes, you'll want to be mine forever.
i'm the only person who can really love you.
speak when spoken to,
talk to me.
don't ******* run.
you're so cute when you're scared, give me a kiss.
i like how you taste, muah
your cracked lips spill that lovely red juice
you've got me all hot and bothered, now, fix it.
tell me you love me.
i hate that i have to let you go
but you know the saying, right?
oh, of course, I love you!
but that's a weakness of mine, isn't it?
god, I love how you fight until the very end.
claws against my hands, raking my flesh
make me bleed, I won't loosen my grip
you used to love how it felt to be choked
you told me these stories, stories about you swimming with your family
I'm only giving you exactly what you wanted,
you like swimming, huh, baby?
breathe for me.
I'm not hurting you, ******* *****
stop.
why must you fight me, I thought we were past this.
I could let you go, I might. I almost might.
oh, life! the life drains from forest eyes
see plants need and love rain, but you can drown them rather easily
you're so weak, hm?
you know how I feel about eye contact, but this is different.
don't look at me, darling, this is our goodbye
you're not supposed to look back
yet here I am not looking away either.
not too much longer, and you'll be gone, right? right?
right. gone.
your hand lays limp on my own, I already miss your nails.
did i ever tell you how much I loved your hair?
it's heavenly now that it floats around you.
I hate that you made me wet my clothes,
yours cling to you rather nicely, I suppose.
i told you to breathe for me, we had our fun
you really did a number on my hand, love, it's beautiful.
why are you just laying there?
get up. now. we're not playing anymore.
oh
oh no
No, no no no, we were playing, just like we always do
like when you let my knife twist it's way into you
it traces my name in its cursive whisper
you liked it, you said, you loved it
get up, now, please.
I said please, princess.
you belong to me, get the **** up.
you're so ******* useless.
this isn't funny.
it's not funny.
come back.
**** I didn't mean it*
tell me you love me again.
i didn't give you permission to die.
breathe.
I said breathe for me
Dec 14, 2020
Dec 14, 2020 at 4:34 PM UTC
I will
do just that
until i'm nothing
but art
something to be admired
would you like that?
would you like it?
do you like art?
canvas
paintbrush
paint
why are you crying about it?
Relax,
I have a towel, it won't
get on your
precious ******* clothes
don't call someone.
I
said
don't.
I'm fine
happens all the time
just shut up
help me clean.
why the ****
are you looking
at me
like that
like I'm disgusting
like I'm *******
gross..
****
it's just paint.
taste it
do you want to touch it?
the paint's running off the canvas, let me get that.
sorry.
not a lot of people get it
not a lot of people like it.
you like art, don't you?
do you like to paint?
I've been inside your backpack.
I've seen you in your hoodies.
I've seen it all.
don't look surprised.
the little lighter in the side?
i like it
i wanted to light myself on fire.
do you burn your art?
do you burn the canvas?
sometimes it's frustrating
so you want to ruin it.
sometimes it's okay
to ruin things.
Daddy ruined mommy
mommy ruined you.
let me see.
don't scream. let me.
let me ******* see.
you saw mine, it's only fair, right?
there.
there it is.
you've dug hard, yeah?
do you like it?
have you shown anyone else?
no?
they saw but you didn't want them to.
the other ones reacted awfully, huh?
you're lucky I'm here.
I'll love you regardless,
you're not a freak to me.
just a bit messy.
i like messy.
your blood tastes nice, yknow.
i want to open them wider.
watch it flow.
shut up.
stop crying.
stop.
no one cares.
there. not too bad.
I just want to see your insides.
i will know how you work.
is that okay?
I'll carve my name next
it would look pretty, right?
you do it, too,
on me.
we can just leave each other
little messages.
i love you,
y'know?
you don't have to worry anymore
we're gonna keep each other's secrets
sometimes art is a group project.
no one gets to see but me.
does it hurt?
you'll get used to it
you'll crave it.
just like i do.
stop sniffling,
you jumping will make me mess up.
you want to hurt.
not die, yet, right?
sometimes, when I'm alone
at night
or day
or anywhere
i paint little flowers.
little smiles
little words
little things
****
****
****
****
you do too,
i saw it on your thighs.
i saw the words.
did that say "hate?"
what do you hate.
tell me.
tell me it all.
I'm going to find out.
yknow.
I've been through some ****
we all have.
gotta cope some way.
clean yourself up
don't ******* touch me.
i say when you touch me.
i say.
you're so soft. just grab the brush.
grab the brush, do it.
I'm painting.
I'm painting.
we're gonna paint the sky, the stars.
nah, fuckin' with you.
we're drawin' grass right now.
see where that goes.
you look shocked.
stop looking.
you're cute when you're afraid.
relax, I'll live.
i wish someone would tell me it's
******* fine.
god do NOT ******* touch me.
I'll **** you.
I'm going to die alone.
I'll pretend that I'm fine with it.
I'll pretend that I'm not playing with the crippled canvas.
how much until it rips in half, i wonder.
sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so ******* sorry.
Nov 22, 2020
Nov 22, 2020 at 2:43 AM UTC
Its only those you trust with the keys who can destroy your soul.
Everyone who broke your heart you gave that power to.
May 5, 2019
May 5, 2019 at 6:09 AM UTC
Her.
reeking of cheap perfume and daddy issues
polyester black cloth elegant, purposeful in its placing
“everything is free if you run fast enough”
something was going to **** her anyway
why not let it be something of her own design?
taking a drag of her pernicious cigarette
forcing careful and cultivated opinions
if only to silence the sadist inside
she had already walked in loneliness
full of satin bows and amusement
so it might as have happened now
because everyone always loves you better when you’re dead
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 12:20 PM UTC
The cries of broken hearts
and melancholia,
pleasantly melodious to my ears.
I collect bottles of pathetically wasted tears
and use them as ink for my typewriter.
Hopping from window to window,
I come in the form of guilt,
and a tinge of wringing regret.
I will bring you to the highest level
of self condemnation
and keep you miserably awake,
gifted with the soul of an insomniac.
I’d even leave wisps of bittersweet memories
if I was feeling a little sympathetic
or particularly magnanimous.
Certainly, I cannot always be lenient,
after all,
being a sadist is part of the job description.
Mar 21, 2019
Mar 21, 2019 at 2:32 PM UTC
you're hurt
but it makes me so happy..
i hate this side of me.
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 9:46 PM UTC
It is not greed,
The thirst for riches.
It is not lust,
The hunger for skin.
It is not wrath,
The delight in spilled blood.
It is not sloth, jealousy, gluttony, or pride.
It is simply evil,
Devoid of complexity,
Absent and empty.
It is all-encompassing, surrounding you, surrounding me,
In a cloud of poison, toxicity.
Aug 28, 2018
Aug 28, 2018 at 1:13 AM UTC
Sickly
And
Dizzy
Thats
How
Anyone
Tells
Sees
Hear
Only if these
Wielding clocks could stop
I
Lied
I
Killed myself years ago
Evening filled of sorrow
I couldn’t
Take it anymore
Now I can
Only open my eyelids
When my
Grave is found
Or when
The tears wash away yesterday
Of when I
Slit my throat
Like if I was just snipping paper
Effectively cutting my artery
Eventually falling to a
Paralyzing feeling, lead into dark
I
A
M
Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 3:08 AM UTC
Tick tock goes my violent clock,
Lub hub beats my sadistic heart,
Bang bang explodes my venom bombs,
Boo hoo sighs my corrupted youth,
Pitter patter creeps away my virtue,
Ding **** calls my insufferable fetish,
**** a doodle do awakens my undignified temper and
Boom
Boom
Boom
Here comes my distasteful doom.
Jun 28, 2018
Jun 28, 2018 at 9:10 AM UTC
As my foreign bones and ragged skin were being disfigured and gritted underneath the heaviness of you.
I soon came to the realisation,
That my betraying heart was differing its rhythm...
It’s beating.
To match and partner with your own.
And although your mental and physical rebelled together to take and conquer my being and willpower.
I begged for your heart to have mercy,
To betray its instincts
And stop it’s beating...
So mine would unwillingly follow suit
and therefore save me from
Eternal sadistic blues.
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 7:53 PM UTC
You go snake
Spit your ***** venom
All over the room
Staged performance
With puppets
You aren’t yet tired
Playing
So much effort to destroy
The ground I send on
Seeking my exposed vulnerabilities
With your cold eyes
Sore for misery
Forgive me snake
I have a yawn and a laugh
To give but not to share
My face perfectly relaxed
As I imagine
Your anihilation.
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 9:49 AM UTC
i've been kissed
by a sadist
who holds my hand
and guides me softly
to dramatic
pain
at his hands
i've been held
like a child
so fragile
i could be dropped
or broken
with such ease
and no fight
i've been kissed
by a sadist
who hurt me
so fully
so hatefully
that i don't
quite
catch on
under his spell i wait
and wait
for love to greet me
like it once had done
the kiss
of the sadist
burns my flesh
exposing the weakness
underneath
but i always return
to the sadist's touch
the sadist's
kiss
the sadist
because i love
his love
and his love
is my pain
the kiss
of the sadist
makes me
a *********
Nov 3, 2017
Nov 3, 2017 at 8:41 AM UTC