#saddude
Tear drops
Jealous of the ones who can
Teardrops
This sadness is heavy
But I can't help but be in love with it
Held down for so long
Held in for even longer
They never crash around me
Slap me back into existence
Slap me again and reawaken this heart
Held my head in the dark
This heart can't seem to restart
Teardrops
This sadness is heavier
Than it will always seem
Jan 7, 2021
Jan 7, 2021 at 8:48 PM UTC
Id fallen in love with a girl who had died.
fallen in love with a corpse bride.
An image, apparition, a fiend, and a lie.
A smile with fangs behind and stained glass eyes. A connection of the depths i wish I could hide.
Intimate reflections of infinite life,
Gone in an instant, remembered in time.
Immortalized in the wounds that i never could find.
In love with death and the devil in flight.
The details were gone where the fairy tails write, and whats left but a fight.
Why return to the exceptions i try.
Though still struggle i might to accept what I write
Ive fallen in love with
A treasure, a shrine, a hedonist pride. The pleasure of life, and weakness of mind.
Ive fallen in love with death, ive fallen in love with life,
Ive fallen so many times with deception and hell in my mind.
The interruption of entering high
Energy eruption destroying the signs.
I wish it was true, that wishing was worth the time.
But even if things had a reason, the seasons still change like the lights
In the sky and the tides.
Will the spirit reward all our risks with a ride. What you do with your will, will be fine. Just remember who gave you the time. What words can alarm the forlorn.
The award was a sword cut from ice. The current can keep me at peace, electricity. The currency foreign or at least, if I reign for a moment as king, would the kind still remember me. Or be cast aside as a cloud in the sky, overcast could the rain last for life. Thunder claps when the performance is right.
And if I die, on my corpse perform rites.
Ive fallen in love with a bride.
Ive fallen in love with a lie.
Ive fallen in love with a girl.
Who has been. Gone for as long as I.
Head in the trees feeling free
Head in the clouds where the spirits come out
In the canopy of leaves visualizing dreams.
the crescent moon peaks, looking out, at my feet.
the sun sets soon then comes back around.
Scars from a war left unfinished,
wounds on my arm from a battle, self inflicted.
In a room with no walls as I wished it.
Burn marks and questionable decisions.
Unwavering confidence I listened.
Makeshift options of forgiveness.
Oct 6, 2020
Oct 6, 2020 at 1:08 PM UTC
By the light of the moon
Let its rays wash down.
Dancing in the garden
Wanting to sin like
Father and Mother
The first bite of
The golden apple was rotten
Was it worth it
To be haunted by what was to come
By the light of the moon
The serpent's kiss
Was ever so tempting
Was it worth it
To be haunted
By what was to follow
By the light of the moon
Paradise was burned
The hands now bound by fate
The seraphim ripped
Their world apart
The apple was rotten
And beautiful
Was it worth it to be haunted
Sep 27, 2020
Sep 27, 2020 at 8:30 PM UTC
My heart
My heart
Can't call out to
Something that isn't there
It won't call out
Into the unknown
You left me there
You left me there to die
How can I forgive?
Oh God! Save me!
Oh God! Save us!
This isn't my time
This isn't the place
Hell hath no fury
Like a broken heart!!
My heart can't call out
My heart won't call out
Sep 27, 2020
Sep 27, 2020 at 8:25 PM UTC
Rage
Rage
Go into that darkened light
Rage
Rage
Kiss my lips and tell me how to die
Expect us to change
Trapped like a rat in its cage
Rage
Rage
Fight against the dying of the light
Found myself in the shadows
Of Prometheus’s might
***** the candle
Drink from the poisonous well
Listen to the chiming of Deaths bell.
Rage
Rage
Sing the funeral song
Fight against the darkened light
Give us one last fight
Rage
Rage
Against the darkened light
Sep 13, 2020
Sep 13, 2020 at 2:57 PM UTC
Solitary sinner in a God-fearing world
Heretic to some
Blasphemer to others
Mirror mirror
Is this my disguise
The disguise to hide
To hide- the anger
To hide- the guilt
To hide- the shame
Half God, half devil
This is the role we were meant to play
My roots are cut off at the base
My fight isn't against the world
My fight is with the demons within
My blade is stronger
My wounds lie deeper
Mirror mirror
Can I face this disguise
I show the world?
Tired of fighting back
Tired of lieing to others
Sep 13, 2020
Sep 13, 2020 at 2:53 PM UTC
Hold my hands - I want to feel
Kiss my lips--I need you here
The words I hear are the truth
The words I need to hear are the lies
Scared like a kid who needs his parents
I don't wanna die
Will you be there when I arrive?
It's a fatal mistake
That we take life for granted..
It's a fatal mistake
That we all make
And I guess I won the grand prize
These curtains are trying to fall
But I'm not ready to go...
I'll be reckless... I'll watch it burn
I'll be fatal.. I'll make my words
Ring out loud and clear...
Middle finger to the sky
As long as I have air in my lungs
My destiny is my own...
Sep 13, 2020
Sep 13, 2020 at 11:19 AM UTC
Climb the ladder
Higher and Higher
Wanting to feel the love
Soul shattering screams are beneath me
Climbing the ladder
Higher and Higher
My words are free
Free from the shackles of the heart
Free from the poisons of the mind
Climb the ladder
Higher and Higher
Through the ashes
Through the darkness
I climb.
I will always climb
To escape
I will always climb
To feel the love
I will always climb.
Sep 9, 2020
Sep 9, 2020 at 2:19 PM UTC
Cancer
Our eyes heavy falling asleep
Crying when we should be asleep
Can anyone tell me why
We're laying on the bed barely breathing
They walk on in closing the door
Scream to the gods above us
Scream to the gods below us
It eats away at our soul
It rots away at our bones
Holding onto what's left
Giving up screaming with all of our might
It eats away at our soul
It rots away at our bones
Can anyone tell me why
We're laying on the bed barely breathing
The darkness found its way in
We finally found our way out...
Sep 9, 2020
Sep 9, 2020 at 11:23 AM UTC
Caught up in your words
Stuck in the back of my throat
Kiss me, like you loved me
F*ck me, like you hate me
I can feel you carving into me
Etched in my heart
Im still a slave to your words
Im still bound to these dreams
It was your, your words, your hatred that ended it all
It was my:
hurt,
devotion
To make sure i survived you.
Go ahead encourage your twisted little lies. Tell them all what a failure i am when you're the one lost in your heart.
Go ahead and do those bad things to me.
It was a new way to bleed and in the end..
I survived..
Sep 8, 2020
Sep 8, 2020 at 11:35 PM UTC
Another Life: Wick Part 3
You shown so brightly
The gods grew envious
Death fell in love with you
The darkest star
To ever shine
You were ready to just go home
In the dark
You screamed into the void
A voice full of hatred
You're time of fighting
Finally came to the bitter end
Your grave,
A monument,
A reminder
Of what is gone.
Turn back the time
Another life
Another love lost
To the darkness within
Into the dark
You were ready to go home..
Sep 8, 2020
Sep 8, 2020 at 2:52 PM UTC
God: Wick Part 2
Shatter the glass
To see the truth
God is in us
And I believe in you
(You were my anger)
It's a cycle
It's a vicious cycle
Let's break it...
Am I alive or just breathing?
A deep breath in
To remind us
To- let the dark in
To- let the light in
(You were my strength)
A deep breath in
To remind us
A smile you can't fake it
The love you can't push away
(You were my will)
A voice full of hatred
The bait was taken to destroy from within
A candle to light the way
You will always find a way back
(I'll see you in the next life)
These strains that bind us together
They shine like the palest silver
You always told me
God is in us
And I will always believe in you...
Sep 8, 2020
Sep 8, 2020 at 2:50 PM UTC