#sadboi
Release me now
I'm dying
Drunk with sorrow
Until I breathe no more
Can't fix me now
I'm not a thing
Not a machine
Can't replace my heart
There are no spares
I erode
Do not despair
I'm barely here
Invisible
I am essence
Ethereal
Shall I dissipate?
May 4
May 4, 2026 at 5:45 PM UTC
I would like to build you a garden
Weeping in symphonies of rain
Where tiger Lillie’s crave truth
Hortencia holding our pain
Tender, sown and tending
Tilling, telling, & mending
Love is a choice to pull the weeds
To prune the stems & water needs
To bear the seasons and bide the weather
We need to heal but I’d rather heal together
I would like to build you a garden
Dec 24, 2024
Dec 24, 2024 at 1:20 AM UTC
A generation navigating illusionment:
I am one. Excavation; i sift. Shaking
a plastic basket.
Round - and channel mouths spout
a wire crosshatch. I
Tap
Against
My palm.
Fine flour lands on the counter and
In my head I listen to the same songs
because I already know the words.
I look for a truth outside my mind
because on weekdays I tell myself
I’m not worth knowing.
How do you stop hating yourself
When you hate yourself because
You hate yourself?
When I slide my hand across the counter,
White flour mist puffs and I listen:
Mac Miller’s alive. He said he’s
surviving on ***** almonds, and granola bars.
Grasped in some five fingers
A thin red handle.
Apr 10, 2020
Apr 10, 2020 at 4:31 PM UTC
Check in, Is it time
to Check out, or maybe love
its time to pull up?
Mar 10, 2020
Mar 10, 2020 at 11:37 AM UTC
smoking in my room
so i know what to do
write the next line
about how i wanna die
i think that message got through
so i keep acting a fool
tell me, do you think i'm cool
i know i act like a tool
but you act so cruel
you turned my heart into goo
i want so many tattoos
so when you see me
you know that i'm bad news
im a drug
so run away
before i catch you
cause i'm addicting
you won't wanna leave me
but soon your gonna hate me
i'm a druggie
with no money
hiding from my mother
cause im a shame like no other
Feb 29, 2020
Feb 29, 2020 at 11:13 AM UTC
I feel so broken
busting at the seams with emotions
my heart feels eroded
my mind is overloaded
these feelings are overflowing
and time keeps passing by
don't know when im gonna die
don't mind if it's tonight
cause i lived my life
just the way i that wanted
pocket full of drugs
when i stumble through the halls
imma make it all mine
tell me, will that make me shine?
Feb 25, 2020
Feb 25, 2020 at 10:33 PM UTC
shawty told me we were going way to fast
i told her we weren't prolly meant to last
but she only my past now
i don't even care now
cause i know we don't work out
how could we possibly
cause this next girl seems to be in love with me
not like the rest
cause this new girl the best
but then she start to **** the same
or soon she start hate my name
then she tell me i'm insane
don't look at me, i'm not to blame
im not sayin i don't got no shame
cause i feel that **** every day
wake up and it's on my mind
smoke a little **** and i'll be fine
Feb 27, 2020
Feb 27, 2020 at 9:24 PM UTC
there's no one by my side
I can't help but wonder why
so I start to cry
and wish I could fly away
but if I die today
would you take the time
and start to cry
would you wonder why
I wanted to die
Feb 11, 2020
Feb 11, 2020 at 7:09 PM UTC
I feel all alone
no one to call my own
I felt love once
could feel it in my soul
made me feel so whole
but my selfish desires took their toll
so now I walk alone
Feb 10, 2020
Feb 10, 2020 at 11:46 PM UTC
I look for love
but it's never enough
so i hurt my girl
and get with a guy
im sorry im bi
why would you tease me
if your just gonna leave me
Dec 13, 2019
Dec 13, 2019 at 6:29 PM UTC
Drugs, will they fill me
or will they **** me
they can make me feel alright
but I can also die tonight
but is life worth living
with all this pain and suffering
i don't know
give me one more hit and i might know
Dec 12, 2019
Dec 12, 2019 at 6:41 PM UTC
runaway from the pain
cut my wrist in the rain
silver birds fly away
i know death is a shame
especially when they have fame
who am i? just a name
we are one in the same
both heartache and pain
you make me feel some kinda way
but i cut my veins
to send endorphins to my brain
Dec 12, 2019
Dec 12, 2019 at 6:35 PM UTC
every time i hit rock bottom
someone digs a little deeper
now these walls are too steep
i’ve not enough grip
slip and slip and slip and slip
pickup and pack up perpetual bags
start the process over
with new characters
and settings
and expectations
but the same feelings
and probably meanings
and letdowns and stained cheeks
should i cut or burn this time?
there’s one thing i control
another:
where shall i take these scissors
to my forehead or my closest ties?
that are holding me together
but all too tight
well
is it weak to wither away
at the hands of something
i can’t see?
my demons are only metaphors
just like those bags and ties
i used to think depression pains
were the same
but they’re as literal as can be
not just tears but pangs
broken hearts bleed faster
and tarnished lungs take shallow breaths
the past took a pocketknife to my skin
carved and scooped me out
and turned my body to a little tease
that won’t give me the real mortal thing
Aug 1, 2019
Aug 1, 2019 at 3:03 PM UTC
every morning i awaken and sigh
with dismay i have to live another day
friends as if I'm okay
im fine
i say
you see the thing is i could try open up
but i would not know where to start
no words can describe
this emptiness and loneliness
hey the list goes on but why bore you
ill say I'm okay and you can cary on with your day
Sep 3, 2017
Sep 3, 2017 at 5:43 PM UTC