#rows
There are 72 days between today, October 20, 2025, and the end of the year on December 31, 2025.
and grow tired of the husbandry, the seeding of the rows of corn,
the writing with ribs of meat, the drafts that fallow my life like a herd of less than docile crazy goats, and i shall lead them them to freedom, like spaghetti fresh delivered to the ceiling, some to stick, becoming ceiling tapestries, some to fall to the floor where the housekeeper will deposit them in the cute little can designated solely for compost consumption, an irksome decycling.
There are 72 days between today, October 20, 2025, and the end of the year on December 31, 2025, and that by divine division, means they will come in storms of two or three, for there are many more than merely a minor key of 72.
thus come the new year, I will be cleansed, carefully choosing my newer burdens bundled, and slow unwillingly, start RE~amassing them, like the secret hoarder I truly am.
my apologies in advance. nml
Oct 20, 2025
Oct 20, 2025 at 12:30 PM UTC
Do you have everything
let's check?
The ((Pleasure of Life)) is in a
prime
love setting
Ancient times the Queen meeting
her acquaintance little Horderves
At the wedding reception
Like the Antionette, her laced curtain
moved their rows and rows invitation
What shows Vanity Fair
(So Debonair) to find her glassware
remembering another time
The World fair 1960
But pleasure arise more
You get what you deserve affairs
They are sitting comfortably
Lake George
their beach chairs
Minds start looking elsewhere
We need to check over there
Mrs. Honey Bear, I see Claire
Well what do you know
checkmate
This wasn't a date Friday the 13
red unlucky dress
Rows more pleasure affairs
debonair conceited smirk
book for two umbrella
steampunk
She saved all his junk
what a pair
You better hold it steady to be set
Square and fair
Your hands couldn't save them
All the magical book/ hearts
Kate spades, they played
She got his"Rock Candy"?
Before you get seated he pleaded
You jumped up to cheer
Billionaire Evening prayer
A-bloom preserved for me tears
Castle high society killed the air
You felt like the debutante
but you weren't at the ball
Your pants hit me football ouch?
Rows and rows, come-at-able
Moods bat swing hit double
Voice behind you rhapsodic
X graphical red dress design
Dove-like debonair wearing the sign
body notes cinnamon and cloves
Pleasure please be fair
She is Robin in her East Windsor chair
Jun 29, 2018
Jun 29, 2018 at 9:19 AM UTC
Enid slept badly.
Voices came and went,
winds blew,
trains shunted.
She woke up slowly
to a grey morning.
The voices had stopped,
just the birds singing.
Had the rowing stopped?
Where was her father?
She sat on the side
of her narrow bed.
She could still feel where
her father hit her.
Back to how it was:
him hitting them both.
She got up and walked
to the bedroom door.
She listened for sounds,
but nothing was there.
She opened the door
and looked down the hall.
Had he gone to work?
Had her father gone?
She walked down the hall
to the small toilet.
Went past their bedroom,
the green door still closed.
Went to the toilet
and sat on the seat.
She felt the chill bite
at her naked feet.
What would Benny say
when she told him all?
Things don't change he'd say:
your old man's a ****
Benny often said
your old man's a ****
She heard fresh voices;
her father was up.
She heard his footsteps.
The door handle shook:
is that you Enid?
Her father called out.
Won't be long, she said.
You better not be,
her father replied.
They were arguing,
both her mum and dad.
She finished quickly
and opened the door.
Good about time too,
her father shouted,
what you been doing,
laying ****** eggs?
He went in and shut
the door behind him.
Enid saw her mum
by her bedroom door,
her thin arms folded,
her hair in curlers.
Best get washed and dressed
and don't be too long,
her mother told her.
Enid washed and dressed,
then ate her breakfast.
Still her parents rowed
loudly from the hall.
What would Benny say
when she told him this?
Your old man's a ****
and give her a kiss.
Oct 31, 2016
Oct 31, 2016 at 4:42 AM UTC
The parents row again, but
You just sit in a corner like
The good little girl you are,
Watching shadows cast by
The sun flow through the
Kitchen window. Your dolls
And toys are in the other
Room where the row is;
So you just sit and listen
To birds sing from outside
The house, like the patient
Little girl you’ve become,
Playing with dark dancing
Shadows in the cold hall.
The words of rows seem
Harsh and loud and vibrate
The walls causing your ears
To ache and invisible friends
To depart. The words are
Unknown to you: the ****
Yous and cruel ***** fill
The air; the loud blows will
Come next and Mother will
Cry and the rows will stop
And the there theres and oh
I’m sorrys will flow along
The walls where you sit and
Watch the shadows on the
Cold linoleum floor play
As you and they have before'.
Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 3:53 PM UTC
Morning came
she woke up
in her room
she listened
the old brown
Bakelite
radio
was churning
out music
she got up
remembered
her father
had hit her
before bed
she opened up
the green door
and went through
the bright lit
sitting room
her father
sitting there
eating up
his breakfast
she passed through
he watched her
said nothing
she went past
the kitchen
and bathroom
her mother
was coming
out the bog
how are you
young Ingrid?
Mother said
Dad hit me
before bed
Ingrid said
why was that?
Mother said
I went out
with Benny
we played games
cut my thumb
Ingrid showed
her mother
the bandaged thumb
let me see
how it is
Mother said
she unwrapped
the cut thumb
how did you
cut the thumb?
Ritual
Benny said
what Injuns
used to do
joining thumbs
that are cut
blood brother
and sister
Ingrid said
is that why
your father
hit you one?
Mother asked
I don't know
Ingrid said
Mother washed
the cut thumb
and put on
a plaster
off you go
to get washed
then get dressed
Ingrid went
to the bog
and sat down
she could hear
raised voices
Father's roar
Mother's shout
exchange
of insults
a duet
of anger
words flying
like dark birds
Ingrid thought
where's Benny
wish he was
here with me
my brave knight
with his quiff
of brown hair
hazel eyes
and that sword
his old man
made for him
he like me
10 years old
the voices
had silenced
an eerie
cold silence
was out there
Ingrid sat
stiff as death
listening
with held breath.
Mar 5, 2016
Mar 5, 2016 at 2:02 AM UTC
Another hobby has been destroyed
By my lover, my wife, my best friend
I won't be annoyed.
I decided to read and watch a number of works
but have been made to feel guilty, I hate that
and it completely *****
We only can talk for a few minutes each day
Then it's time for the national news, I am hanging up
I hear her say.
Over half my salary gets transferred to that bank
My emotional energy stands up in our talks every day
Then the proverbial rug, out from under me is yanked.
I am accused so often having made a big choice,
In the past and now -- in the future
That is what ends our conversations, silences my voice
Why continue? Promises are made to me of a "for all time".
Pain and suffering are projected back at me,
How can I live like this, how can she? The fault is all mine.
Earlier in life, I never spoke. I dared not reveal,
To friend or acuqaintance, distant orclose.
My pain inside, how everything made me feel
So with this last long relationship, right from the start
I explained how I felt each step of the way
I poured forth a flow of words from my heart.
Now I do hear, that the novels, and movies, and author I chose
Makes me feel guilty, and I hate the, "SOUND FAMILIAR????"
So the videos can stay off, and each book I must close.
Is this what my life is, and how it will end?
Confusion and heart pain, they happen each day.
Using technology or words and sight our feelings we send.
What am I doing tonight, this weekend, for all of each day?
see you later, is what she will say, See you tomorrow,
You Love me in your own special way.
I guess
mgm 1/22/2016
Jan 22, 2016
Jan 22, 2016 at 6:48 PM UTC
The finishing touches
applied to hair and eyes
and Sheila is ready for school,
her elder sister
prim and proper
and plain as grey
stares at Sheila's image
from the back
sitting on her bed
brushing her hair
thinking of how tarty
her younger sister is,
how God would judge
she knows not nor care,
names you called out
in your sleep last night she says,
Sheila stops her touching hair
and turns and stares,
names? what names?
her sister eyes her
don't know couldn't make out
boy's name sounded like,
Sheila studies her
elder sister's gaze,
the slit of lips,
dark eyes staring,
probably that male teacher
I don't like him
always telling me off
Sheila says,
which male teacher?
the sister says,
Sheila looks away
the sky is clear today
blue and white clouds,
Mr P with eyebrows
dark as bats and eyes likewise
Sheila says,
shouldn't mock our teachers
disrespect of teachers is a sin
the sister says
hands in lap,
God has placed them
where they are for a reason
He alone knows
and we not to judge,
Sheila sees birds fly the sky
wishing she could too
he mocks me
Sheila says,
why does God permit
that if He does allow?
her sister stares
and her slit of lips tighten
and she says no more,
thinking no doubt
of her Jesus standing
and calling her
from some distant shore.
Dec 29, 2015
Dec 29, 2015 at 3:21 AM UTC
My day died an abrupt death. Ignominious.
At the hands (and lips) of my own mother.
Yet another broken thread, burning bridge,
lost key to a door shut in your face without a parting kiss.
Ce la ma vie.
Sep 26, 2015
Sep 26, 2015 at 9:38 AM UTC
Best words written in rows,
Makes them poems not prose.
May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 5:55 AM UTC
You wanna know what it's like
to be a rebel?
You wanna know what it's like
outside the salt circle
looking in?
I tell you what, I'm not dancing
as much as flailing.
Fitting enough, I am crashing
again the closer
that I get.
You wanna know what it's like
to be the other?
You wanna know what it's like
to live as if you were
not dead but
wholly aware
in stasis?
Holy stasis,
what is it like
to be alive
unmoving
and empty,
dry of passion?
I better tell
this bitter truth,
that being you
isn't worth
half the strength
you generate.
I tell you what, I'm not dancing
as much as flailing.
Fitting enough, I am crashing
again the closer
that I get.
You wanna know what it's like
to be the other?
You wanna know what it's like
to live as if you were
not dead but
wholly aware?
I would trade wealth
and mental health
for just a touch
of the sand
containing
what has gone lost.
Just a touch,
I want your hand.
What's it like to be the metronome?
I tell you what,
I dance a lot.
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 3:59 PM UTC
Clawing up grey walls,
stumbling on,
breaking nails off
paper and ink,
in silver screen
dreams
they haunt,
if you ignore
them cause you could be like them
if you ignore
the qualities you bring, inborn,
since you can't be
what you see,
what's your worth
to redeem?
I repeat:
Why are you alive when you could be dead?
Hide your hideousness, plebeian.
The silver I love, the love that I want, lies just behind
your, "Lovely Countenance".
Mar 11, 2015
Mar 11, 2015 at 7:13 AM UTC
I crave freedom in my very core
I sing randomly
I write randomly
I cry at night to not be attached to anything
I’m sick of putting my ducks in rows
I’ve never seen ducks in perfect rows
Aug 17, 2014
Aug 17, 2014 at 3:21 PM UTC