I looked at the reflection in her eye's then leaped deeply into her thoughts. I began to drown gasping for air trying to catch my breath. She overwhelmingly suffocates me,with her deepest fears of  her insecurities. In which I suffer to pay for some else's actions. Without given a fair chance to win her love. Lost and confused trap in a selfish maze of emotions. That has nothing to do with me.
Not to mention the outside contractors that began demolition of the foundation you trying to build. ***** recklessly grasp and pull you back down. Every time 
You try to escape the chaos of the miserable company within the barrel.