#rm
take this road
to the moon
take his hand,
the moon child,
cause that’s how
its supposed to be
all this pain
all this sorrow
that’s our destiny
Feb 11, 2020
Feb 11, 2020 at 9:18 AM UTC
This garden is filled
With blossoming loneliness
I tied myself
To this sandcastle filled with thorns
What is your name?
Do you even have a place to go?
Oh, could you tell me?
I saw you hiding in this garden
And I know
Your heat is real
Your hand picks the blue flowers
I want to hold it but
This is my destiny
Don’t smile on me
Light on me
Because I can’t go to you
There’s no name to call
You know that I can’t
Show you me
Give you me
I can’t show you my weakness
So I’m putting on a mask to go see you
But I still want you
A flower that resembles you
Blossomed in this garden of loneliness
I wanted to give it to you
As I take off this stupid mask
But I know
This can’t go on forever
I must hide
Because I’m ugly
I’m afraid
So pathetic
I’m so afraid
In the end, will you leave me too?
So I’m putting on a mask to go see you
What I can do is
To make a pretty flower
That resembles you
Blossom in this garden, in this world
Then breathe as the person you know
But I still want you
I still want you
Maybe back then
If I had just a little more
Courage
And stood before you
Would everything be different now?
I’m crying
At this sandcastle
That’s disappearing
And breaking down
As I look at this broken mask
And I still want you
But I still want you
But I still want you
And I still want you
Jul 17, 2019
Jul 17, 2019 at 2:02 AM UTC
How the first time I saw you I taught you were the most perfect being I had ever seen.
How I started seeing all your flaws and they made you real, and attainable, and human, and even more perfect.
That you have the softest eyes and the truest smile.
That now I have songs that I love (not even love songs) that make me smile because of you.
That there is not one single place I've been since I met you that I don't think could be better with you next to me.
That I've kissed so many guys, that I've touched so many lives, that every one is so different from you, that some may even be a little bit better than you, that I've failed every time I tried to replace you.
That I admire you, that I respect you, that if I ever have a little boy I wish he could grow up to be like you.
That I still get nervous before we meet, that I check my make up when you are not looking, that you make me calm, that you make me remember to breathe when my head is spining a thousand miles.
That I've learnt to love you in the distance, I've learnt to live in peace without you even if I wish everyday to be with you.
That I'm happy giving you my heart, even if I dont get it back from you, that I know you love me, in your own way, and that I'm complete (almost) just knowing our paths crossed.
May 29, 2018
May 29, 2018 at 2:44 AM UTC
I'm exhausted.
I'm physically and emotionally drained.
I find myself looking to nowhere, thinking of nothing, empty
and I still don't know where all these tears are coming from.
I'm not mad, I don't feel rage, I don't feel anything,
nothing but this sharp pain in my chest that comes and goes,
and the sudden knot in my throat as the smallest thing reminds me of you.
But no, I'm not mad at you. Stop asking me that.
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 6:27 PM UTC
So you come and casually tell me that you might leave,
that foreign places are waiting for you far away from me.
But you go mad because I ecourage you to go,
you say I don't love you enough.
But who am I to stop you?
Who am I to crash your dreams?
I fell in love with you while you were free,
because you fly wild and high,
I wouldn't dare to keep you in a cage,
I wouldn't dare to cloud your happiness with mine.
And you still ask if I love you?
Jul 29, 2015
Jul 29, 2015 at 8:49 PM UTC
You are the reason I listen to love songs at 2am.
You are my favorite flavor.
You are in every choice, in every chance.
You are the laugh I want to hear every day,
the arms I want around every night.
You are my light.
Nov 13, 2014
Nov 13, 2014 at 3:20 AM UTC