#ripped
I was torn apart as a child.
My fragmented pieces grew like weeds, unwatered, unwanted.
I was unwanted as a teenager.
My identity is what made my mother cry, revolted, restless.
I am restless as an adult.
My anger is what keeps me up at night, terrified, torn apart.
Mar 7, 2025
Mar 7, 2025 at 7:45 PM UTC
A part of me is left behind every door that closes
Like a mourning loved one, I leave roses
Another chunk of me is stolen by future pretend friends
Right when I step through the convenient door they told me always opens
With every new venture a strand of hope ends
©2024
Jul 20, 2024
Jul 20, 2024 at 2:53 PM UTC
Stabbed in the back
I never bled
Heart ripped out
Not one cracked rib
Contorted and twisted trying to fit a mold
Almost did but didn't break
Absorbed every physical blow
Not a single bruise did it make
Took in each syllable of every verbal assault
Still I stand tall
Blamed for trust and abandonment red flags forged by others
Still couldn't crush my spirit at all
Opened up and bared it all just to have it used as ammunition
Refused to clam up completely
Kicked repeatedly when down
Tried to prove it's deserved, couldn't convince me
PSYCH!!
HAPPY NATIONAL OPPOSITE DAY!
©2024
Feb 13, 2024
Feb 13, 2024 at 3:59 PM UTC
You ripped me away from my roots,
my aroma, with every breeze,
haunts you, your love for me,
your memory can't refute,
you hold me up to the sky,
begging the sun to rip through
the clouds, and you cry,
hoping it'll bring my soft petals to life,
but if I had a voice,
I'd beg to hear heavens deny,
just toss me back down,
turn your back,
don't turn around,
that's what you've always been best at.
~SacredInkedBlood
Jul 1, 2023
Jul 1, 2023 at 2:52 AM UTC
If I give you my book
with all these ripped pages would you risk to read
all of its bittersweet phases?
Would you stay to scribble in the remaining pages?
would you take the time to understand each chapter?
Jun 11, 2021
Jun 11, 2021 at 8:52 AM UTC
The memories of you are haunting me
like a wild animal
wanting to rip me apart.
It's the middle of the night
and I am trying to find something on my phone
that reminds me of you,
that reminds me of you caring for me,
wanting me,
loving me
but I can't find anything
because I deleted every conversation
every picture
just as you did with me
Jun 18, 2020
Jun 18, 2020 at 8:08 AM UTC
You ripped me away from my roots,
my aroma, with every breeze,
haunts you, your love for me,
your memory can't refute,
you hold me up to the sky,
begging the sun to rip through
the clouds, and you cry,
hoping it'll bring my soft petals to life,
but if I had a voice,
I'd beg to hear heavens deny,
just toss me back down,
turn your back,
don't turn around,
that's what you've always been best at.
~SacredInkedBlood
May 12, 2020
May 12, 2020 at 1:05 AM UTC
Torn up shirt
Ripped up blazer
Hair of dirt
Occam's razor
Tries to stand up
Hides the inability
Takes a step, has to stop
Law of probability
Sep 17, 2019
Sep 17, 2019 at 12:49 PM UTC
Throughout the night
You ripped the comforter from me
Your memories tore me away from sleep
While I sleep
I remember how you pulled me
by my ankles as I kick and scream
The look on your face is
Something I will never unsee
I awake breathing heavily
I could have sworn you were here
He grabs my hand
“You were just having a nightmare”
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 5:17 PM UTC
You ripped my heart wide open
and bled it out til dry
but you caged yours too much
and just let mine die
Aug 18, 2018
Aug 18, 2018 at 9:02 AM UTC
And she talks about feelings..
She doesn't know that
She ripped someone's heart.
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 11:49 PM UTC
I thought we were going to be best friends
For a really, really long time.
I thought that you would never leave
Especially without a warning.
And now it seems that you don’t want me
Anymore.
You don’t feel the need for me
Anymore.
I feel like a part of me has been
Ripped apart.
Apart from my body.
My heart.
I don’t know what I did
But I’m sorry.
Please come back to me.
I can’t seem to stop crying.
May 6, 2018
May 6, 2018 at 2:03 AM UTC
When I sliced that tender flesh
Bleeding still, so ever fresh
It was not that I tried to die
But because I wanted to feel alive
So save me from this aching death
One of hatred and harsh breath
Suffering on the inside
My bleeding heart, now bleeding thighs
My throat choked and wailed
As my sadness was veiled
So help them, and help us all
Whose ripped skin is a pleading call
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018 at 10:46 PM UTC
“I’ll get over you”
I whisper to myself through the nights
memories haunt me
and your voice that taunts me.
But there are tears on my pillow,
tears on the ground.
My tears flow like the ocean,
dripping in slow motion,
scraping my skin
and bringing me down to my knees.
I find myself turning into a storm,
howling like the wind.
Clutching my heart
as though it was ripped apart.
I am unable to escape from the pain and ache
The constant search for your face
in the passing cars and soaring clouds.
My breath is stolen and gut twisted
at the sight of someone similar to you,
face turning to the side your name is called.
When will these feelings end?
When will I escape
from the shadow
that lurks in my mind and heart?
The loss that ran deep,
breaks open through resonating heartbreaking songs.
But I know the pain will wash out
and you will leave me
like a distant memory.
I’ll pick myself up
and won’t be feeling blue.
I know I’ll find love again
if I start loving myself.
Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 8:29 AM UTC
But the lovebirds turned into ravens and heart warmth into heartbreak. The pain felt inexplicable as I crumbled to the floor, face scrunching up to let out a gasp through the heart-wrenching sobs. It was as though someone ripped my heart out of my chest and bore a hole in my mind and soul with no hopes of repair.The future we painted was tinted and washed with the tears that scraped my cheek, that once used to blush. Our love didn’t have a Disney proof happy ending or of the star-crossed lovers that fought by one another’s side.
Visiting areas where we spent time dragged me through memories, attacking my nerves and ravaging upon what was left of my being. The home we built and leveled with intimacy, trust and love reduced to ruins, crumbling and collapsing. It’s like my heart is dying a slow death, shedding hope like leaves every day until there is none. Our love sailed for some time but only to end up shipwrecked. Fragile like the glass that awaited to broken until the shards fit no more.
Defeaned by the repetition of the melancholiac rhythms that soothe my spasming and scorched heart as the beat resonates with my heart and lyrics echoes in my skull. The wound that was cut bleeds deep for there was no scab to heal; endless anguish and agony. The pain felt like a constant ache, a constant stain on the floor and the pillow. But then it came in waves, crashing and enveloping me in its depths, stealing appetite and sleep. Drifting away from the shore where the people lie, I find myself drowning in isolation. Inhaling the heaviness that made me one with the sea.
The echoes of your words in my skull send pulsating self-doubt questions that make me question my worth. “Was he not the one?”. The world seems like it’s going to end and that I will never find love. But instead live with a heart yearning your name and the broken, hollow vessel that I have become.
You changed the way I thought of myself and now I don’t know who I am without you. The world seems to ripped from my arms for I didn’t have you to turn to. No one to catch me; to caress and to soothe. Your face is engraved in my memory, without you, everything seems meaningless. Saturating myself further in dreaded apathy. In a shattered state, I am further tortured in dreams if I were to find sleep in the darkness that consumes the night.
Plastered on a smile and laugh occasionally, when deep down I am longing, drowning and gasping to breathe with your name on my tongue.I mourn the unspoken words while my head hangs heavy in the thought of you, every fiber and cell missing you.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 3:56 AM UTC
I gave you my love
My soul - my heart
But the words you speak
Seem to tear me apart.
Aug 2, 2017
Aug 2, 2017 at 12:33 PM UTC
A new born to some years old
Cute, happy and smiling soul
Words weren't a need at all
No complaints or demands I recall
I don't know what and how I thought
I don't know if I cared or not
But as I learned understanding what people said
I started confusing myself in my head
Listening and talking the talks, I learnt
Thinking weird things, do's and don'ts
Restless my mind
Never ending my thoughts
Shame on this mind
For not understanding
The understanding disease I'd caught
All began unraveling with what people said
And the talks in this mind that stayed
Sowed the very first of them in the mind
To reap every word and it's kinds
It did reap
I enjoyed listening a lot
I enjoyed blabbering words
I enjoyed thinking the thoughts
But what it reaped
Ripped my peace of mind
And
Now
When I try to keep it quiet
Inside
I feel
The peace....
Peacefully died!
Apr 6, 2017
Apr 6, 2017 at 8:02 PM UTC
Though I have lost you from my life,
You dwell forever in my heart;
Scars borne from being torn away,
I shall wear as a badge of honor;
An unjust separation, too quick and harsh,
Cut to my core, separated heart from flesh.
You were so much more than friendship and lust;
You were true love, true love, oh you are true love!
You are my friend, you dwell in my thoughts;
You are my love, you dwell in my heart.
I will endure for you these hardships.
Jan 24, 2017
Jan 24, 2017 at 2:22 AM UTC
If you're a pencil,
then I'm the paper,
We're perfect together,
but not forever.
Lean on me,
tell me your deepest lies.
Show me your true self,
what's under that disguise.
Spill your secrets,
Color me grey
Tear off my edges,
Mean what you want to say.
Fill me up
With your darkest thoughts.
Leave me stranded,
Alone in your room.
Let me down
With your fancy words,
And leave me to my doom.
I'll shrivel up over the ages.
With your secrets locked inside.
But you'll forget me and move on,
For the world I have died.
Because I existed
only for you
for your smiles
and the pictures you drew.
But I guess I was stupid
you never even knew
how much
I truly...
Loved You...
Jan 21, 2017
Jan 21, 2017 at 5:34 PM UTC
I was changed.
Altered by your words.
Forever deformed...
Never to be recognized.
No longer me.
But scraps of what I used to be.
Your words were knives.
And they slit me.
Ripped me.
Don't you see;
the effect of the words you speak?
Now, may I please
R.I.P.
Aug 14, 2016
Aug 14, 2016 at 1:37 PM UTC
When I was young, I decided
I ought to keep track
Of what color I felt like.
Nowadays I feel black.
My mind is this color,
And so is my heart.
Black is all you would find
If you ripped me apart.
And I am ripped apart
Every single day.
You ask me why I feel black?
You made me this way.
I was drained of my vibrance
By your very hand.
And now all that's inside me
Is black ash and sand.
Now there is one more question
I'd like to pursue.
Of all the colors you see,
Which color are you?
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 9:15 PM UTC