#revealing
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If I can so easily see (and so deeply love)
both sides of your multifaced self, don't you think
you also can start at least try seeing and loving
yourself as equally beautiful (simultaneously, so) parts,
who's congruent sum so beautifully make within you,
the whole?
Look at you shoot and scoot (run back and hide)
after never even (until now) having a taste of being seen
(and yes, Babe.. loved) for who it is that you truly are
( a beautifully.. goobery, complex sum of the whole)..
growing, as you little by little embrace the truth,
and in doing so, have the broken-into-shards ,
tainted perspective within your trauma-stricken mind
become slowly rebuilt and renewed
into an accurate picture of the true you..
Even if that picture is conveyed back to you
as I hold the mirror's reflection up to you
(a reflection that your beautifully.. at times, open heart
paints upon innerwall linings of my heart-infused soul)
and then you admittedly (your beautiful honesty, again)
jet back into your world of daily distractions..
So I say to you, beautiful girl..
It is you that chose to reveal to me your true self
in a way that I could so easily grasp within all of who I am
as I struggled to keep myself from truly falling in love
with your gorgeously-blatant honesty..
so I ask you once again--
Why would you so beautifully choose to paint
your true self upon the inside of a man
that you knew and believed could actually convey
the utter and beautiful reality
of that incredible picture back to you:
but do it in such an unholy, sneaky way
as to be able to bypass any and all of your intricate,
security (survival) based defense system
in a way that the true view of you could (and can)
actually get through?
You fear the congealed congruency of the truth
of your own consolidated glory,
as if you are forced to live within the resignation
that the true parts within you
cannot co-exist equally and simultaneously
within you at the same time,
without the (feared) unbearable tension
and anxiety within you
causing your own spontaneous annihilation.
But still, young Beautiful...
You showed me you, anyways.
You did not do it because you hate you,
that we can both agree on..
But the manufactured (created) you
has a whole world of relation (its own form of 'connection')
*built around the you that feels safe inside
if the presented image to that world
remains loved and cherished*
But also, good as people that they are.. they find you..
(you, who so well emanates a self that congeals
with their emanated self).
..So when you enter into a room
that you can truly breathe (as your true self) in--
As you prepare to exit its beautiful doors,
you almost have to (temporarily) sever all there is of you
that you have so beautifully and tangibly painted (imprinted)
upon the insides of all of who it is that I am.
You are beautiful within your entirety.
I am not intimated by it, nor am I threatened
by the possibility of its beautifully shining glory
being 'stolen away' by another. The gift of it all to me
is that you have chosen to reveal your true self to me
even though you very well knew
what it was going to cost you--
(the stronghold within your manufactured self)
And so now, here you are--
shaking and trembling within the
unprotected tenderness of your own, newfound Glory.
You feel it here within these four walls
like you have felt it in no other place on earth,
..So why would you want to betray yourself
by running and hiding back into your detachment?
It is horrifying to be seen and loved like this, I agree..
But think of this...
What if what is seen and felt (Loved)
within the four walls of this private room
we are in together here,
is the true taste and pieces of True reality,
and most all outside of this,
only continual extensions of 'the game'.
What if this right here is how life (love)
was truly meant to be experienced and lived,
and most all other things out there..
just a well-built and contrived (machine) of distraction.
Let your own heart be your guide.
You can sit and play my guitars
while you unfold so beautifully (as you so well do)
right in front of me. In turn..
and through day after day
of me being there for you like that,
your beautiful war-torn mind will slowly
(and then, quickly) become renewed.
It will all be about (and for) you..
and when you have had your fill,
you can punch me in the nose
for my having a hand in plunging you
into "the horror" of it all,
But you truly also for the rest of your life,
will never be the same.
You are fascinating to me in all of your brilliant-minded,
gorgeousness. You are absolutely beautiful, kid.
This is what is truly real. This.
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Feb 19, 2023
Feb 19, 2023 at 2:08 PM UTC
#
*Turning her head
as if to bury it all
back under the covers..
This hiding away
from me
from everything about me
that could hold her
right where she is at--
This crazy holding
That cannot stop itself
That cannot keep from doing
what it does
That cannot control itself
from what it feels
every time she shows me
(who it is that she is)
She is anything
but a death to me
whenever she sings,
whenever she..*
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Jan 15, 2023
Jan 15, 2023 at 12:10 PM UTC
What is inside?
Something I do not know
Building in my veins
Will it help me grow?
I come across a wall
And moving to the side
I see another obstacle
That I can’t reveal or hide
I turn to my left,
Then right and around
I see my mirrored self
She doesn’t make a sound
Too long she’s been standing
Waiting to take control
And find that ***** girl
That some ******* stole
She is fierce and fantastic
Wanting to explore
Taking any sensation
To become a slutty *****
That ******* didn’t ****** you
I heard myself say
You’re a **** hungry woman
But are you ready to play?
I thought I was prepared
For ******* and the feast
Though I’m scared to show the world
The carefully hidden beast
Pressured stirring mounts
Like an ******** ***** fever
It is time for slutabration
And unhinge to receive her
May 5, 2021
May 5, 2021 at 12:10 PM UTC
#--And,
After picking her beautiful
jaw up, off the ground
over the shock-blast of realizing
that she (after all of these years)
had been finally seen..
there was a shuffling noise
that I could hear in the background
over the phone..
and I couldn't tell if it was her--
scrambling to finish filling out
the restraining order she started
last week
or maybe
just flopping around in the dark
in her search for the block button
But perhaps.. just perhaps
she is running upstairs to find for herself,
a dry pair of *******
Or better yet, in order to
race into her room, her clothes--
strewn, in a wake behind her
in her overwhelming need
to knock out a whole series of
wildly uncontrollable, release (s)
Strange how it is
that far too often these things
can go either way--
yet either way, sweet love
your beautiful jaw
will never again, be the same
Xo
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Jan 18, 2021
Jan 18, 2021 at 1:31 AM UTC
I can always tell when my life is beginning to fall apart by the mere glimpse of my ****** torn and gnawed to the bone fingertips. A reflection of my internal chaos, now exposed. Revealing my lack of will power to resist the urge when life’s mundane patterns and stress-induced anxiety take over. There’s something to be said when your toenails become longer than your fingernails. I’d say it says that it's time for a manicure of the soul. **** a pedi wouldn’t hurt either.
Feb 3, 2020
Feb 3, 2020 at 8:40 AM UTC
It is really so revealing
Only takes five weeks
You already need somebody else
Moving between another's sheets
Looking at the terrible facts
Betrayal was truly unexpected
So many times you have hurt me
Yet I thought our love was more respected
Let's hope distance strengthens us
Afraid to lose your heart
If you give it to someone new
Mine is going to crumble apart
Aug 9, 2019
Aug 9, 2019 at 3:19 AM UTC
Writing poetry is an exercise
in making myself rise
from ordinary preoccupation
to enter the realm of creation.
When I share it I am revealing
thoughts, doings, and feeling,
so I need not hesitate to share
or bore those who care.
A poem might not be art
but it is a letter from my heart
more than a quick posting
or social media boasting.
So if you do not receive a sealed letter
from me in the mail, a poem is better.
It is a moment of being bold
of sharing a small slice of my soul.
Getting a poem from a poet or friend
is an honor for me and I will attend
and count it a privilege worth prizing
a noble moment of the creator’s rising.
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 10:23 AM UTC
My problem is I fear.
I hold on.
I never know when to give up.
I blindly wave my hands in front of me in hopes that I'll find a hidden door to paradise,
Althewhile I fully expect to never find something that will allow me to stop wandering.
If that wasn't enough,
I drag the locked doors that I find along the way behind me in hopes that,
one day,
they'll magically open.
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 7:49 AM UTC
Do you hurt the way I do?
Can you feel love?
Should everybody know,
how does it feel to be loved?
Can you see?
Can you see all the hatred I see?
Would you be,
would you be there for me?
All these questions,
in our heads
All these thoughts,
come flooding in
Tell me what you're feeling, yeah
Tell me what you're thinking, yeah
Let's lay our troubles down,
lets let it all out
Instead of bottling it up
And carrying it around.
Do you feel?
Do you feel the frustration?
Are you sick?
Are you sick of straining?
Does your energy,
Does your energy feel like it's draining?
What are people saying?
Are they saying you are
taking everything in vein?
(MMMM)
Tell me everything,
Tell me all that's on your mind.
All these questions,
in our heads
All these thoughts,
come flooding in
Tell me what you're feeling, yeah
Tell me what you're thinking, yeah
Let's lay our troubles down,
lets let it all out
Instead of bottling it up
And carrying it around.
Do your thoughts,
do your thoughts keep you awake real late?
Tell me is there,
is there a solution for what you're feeling, yeah
(MMMM)
Can you see?
Can you see there are people
who want to be there
Can you trust?
Can you trust in another person's love?
Can you confide?
Can you confide in another person's heart?
Do you know,
do you know there's someone to help you out there, yeah
All these questions,
in our heads
All these thoughts,
come flooding in
Tell me what you're feeling, yeah
Tell me what you're thinking, yeah
Let's lay our troubles down,
lets let it all out
Instead of bottling it up
And carrying it around.
©2017 Written By Benji James
Jun 4, 2017
Jun 4, 2017 at 7:05 AM UTC
You are like the sea,
Truth be told there is no other way to put it.
The sound of silence covered in repeated sigh.
A total embodiment of things placed of collective wonderment.
What shall triumph the noise of wave overlapping wave.
Of all things calm you spread your presence,
Drowning in the bliss of serenity.
You and only you could create the quiet hush dreams are made of.
Although
Some tides are bigger than most,
Of all times, not all are escapable.
Splashing against the shore in a bipolar like disorder.
Crushing everything it touches, selfish in nature.
For every action there is a natural reaction that displaces the initial action.
A need for finding peace in the eye of discord.
This is where your heart becomes a walking representation of the sea itself.
And I the jagged coast, cleansed of any disbelief that things won't get any better outside of the moment.
Pieces of myself lost in you. A constant movement no longer stagnant in thought.
This is where I consider you the sea, the depth of your eyes covering everything it touches.
And I the boat lost in mid drift, without a care in the world.
A means of transportation exploring a depth of things I never knew to exist.
The things you keep hidden.
Far from the hindsight of eyes, your habits, things you reveal to be true given enough time.
The constant change that happens every moment of every minute.
Still it doesn't take away from it's beauty, the things kept hidden.
You are like the sea,
A profound way of expression.
And I, the sailor.
Watching the truth reveal, bit by bit.
Jan 3, 2017
Jan 3, 2017 at 10:15 AM UTC
Revealing form within, words so true.
Undressed with nakedness, words of the inside.
Uncovered and pure, words of love,
Penetrating the blood, words of the soul.
Voicing in agony, words of pain.
Screaming in darkness, words of loneliness.
Cravings of the heart, words making you mine,
Creamed with kisses, words of embrace.
Words untold and words that die,
Words revealed and killed with disgrace.
Words unmatched for the power of the within,
Words you never hear, for what was never returned- is You.
-Silence
Dec 7, 2016
Dec 7, 2016 at 11:56 AM UTC
There's a story on my lips--
Unwarranted, can't let it slip.
On my pen I'll cling, I'll grip;
Bleed my heart through fingertips.
Ink stained page, a wounded soul;
Fine point to slay my self control.
Carnage I could never show
To those I have come to know.
This is a side meant only for
Fellow soldiers out at war.
Faceless under armor worn--
But words we jab revealing more.
Mar 6, 2016
Mar 6, 2016 at 7:36 PM UTC
Listen-
How am I supposed
to word the things
that have already
been elucidated by my eyes
and that have already been yelled
by the pounding of my heart?
Uttering these feelings as words
proves nothing more than me
being
superfluous.
I refuse to be redundant.
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 6:12 PM UTC
You allow me to believe that the impossible is possible
making the craziness inside of my head plausible,
You allow me to control these abysmal thoughts running through my head
making the endless doubts within me run ahead,
You allow me to escape from the terrors of this world
making me sleep peacefully in bed all comfortable and curled
You allow me to enjoy all the happiness I never got to feel
making all the sadness on my surface begin to peel,
You are my perfect dreams.
May 10, 2015
May 10, 2015 at 7:37 AM UTC
I never wanted simple, I never quite 'got' it,
Complication was my easy way, As I could hide behind every crack,
With you this was different, There was no hiding,
You pushed all my buttons, I revelead the real me,
Still this is not simple, But easier than the hiding was,
And for this I thank you for saving me.
Apr 6, 2015
Apr 6, 2015 at 5:08 AM UTC
Poetry
is my counsellor
prose
my revelation
the unravelling
of who I am
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 10:11 AM UTC
Bane of gasping gentle breath,
Wide eyed searching for car crashed trees,
Crying over mountain peaking,
Peaking out over life times of achieve,
Timid rabbit darting emoticons,
That aren't disguised as suits,
Emailing faults of profiled skin,
Obsoleted by obsessivenessly,
Picking at unreachable kills,
Wasting away from sunny sleep,
While in the background,
The TV play that one movie,
Where everyone dies,
On repeat.
Oct 15, 2014
Oct 15, 2014 at 12:42 AM UTC