#resillience
slow down
it’s not
a race
to the finish
line
daybreak has
yet to start
the sun has
yet to rise
the skies have
yet to turn
the tide
slow down
take it
in stride
coming clean
is the first
step
acceptance
is the next
remembering
who you are
isn’t about
what you became
so don’t fret
don’t be hard
on yourself
daybreak
is still
coming
your time
to shine
will arrive
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 12:18 AM UTC
midnight roads
have never felt
so alone
headlights burning
down highways
less traveled
looking for something
to push me
over the edge
something
I swore
I’d never
return to
the numbness machine
the monster
meshing
with a broken state
corrupt data
running wild
a manic pulse
distorting
ones and zeroes
conditioned
and unconditioned
to the highs
and lows
of addiction
I felt the signal
drop
and lost
control
I chased the light
but crashed
on the fall
now I continue
down roads
never traveled
with a new
way of seeing
midnight roads
are less alone
my star
burns brighter
now that I’ve
awoken
to a new
lease on life
Apr 25
Apr 25, 2026 at 11:48 PM UTC
it’s a bad,
bad world.
the world's
on fire —
and i'm just
livin' in it.
don’t
tell me
it's alright,
don't tell
me it'll
be fine.
because
when the
fire winds
down,
all that's
left is smoke —
truths and regrets.
the world
feels heavy,
and i wish
this wasn’t
testing me.
(is it over yet?)
all
i want,
and all
i need,
is to
find my
center again —
and not
let this
get the best
of me.
because
being pulled
down by
the weight
of the world
is somewhere
i don’t
want to
end up
again.
Aug 8, 2025
Aug 8, 2025 at 12:57 AM UTC
Winter is a season
With barren limbs
Fallen leaves
Blowing winds
And frozen eaves
Winter is a season
Of greyed out skies
And barely touching suns
Cold, burning eyes
And noses on the run
Winter is a season
Where green and beauty fades
Buried ‘neath a white sheet
And it seems that for an age
Winter is all there is.
But winter is a season.
Seasons always change.
Seasons come and go
Seasons are a phase
Winter is a season.
Winter is a season
One of four, in fact
The other three are green
Winter has an icey grasp
But Spring, summer, fall -
Flowers! Bees! Warm, soft breeze!
Butterflies and normal flies,
Fruit and veggies, rain and shine!
Running, laughing, falling, playing
Kissing, hugging, gasping!
Winter is a season.
Right now I do feel cold.
I feel like I want to stay in bed
Until the day that I grow old
And no longer raise my head.
Winter is a season.
This one seems worse than most.
But if I give up now-
If i choose to let this go-
Then I miss the next.
Winter is this season.
I’ll try to stay warm while it lasts
And maybe share a blanket where I can
But I feel, coming fast,
A fresh new spring to share.
Apr 9, 2025
Apr 9, 2025 at 9:45 PM UTC
Heart beating,
short of breath.
I wake up alone
and wonder:
What would life be like
without you by my side?
The fear of losing you
leaves me choked up inside,
but I'm doing my best
to cast those feelings aside.
It's taken me so long
to open my eyes,
a long journey marred by mistakes,
one after another.
It's taken me so long just
to let my guard down and try.
Sick and tired of building up walls,
I'm simply tired of losing it all.
I'll do everything in my power
to save myself from the fall,
just to spend one more night
with you by my side.
Mar 30, 2025
Mar 30, 2025 at 3:35 PM UTC
you can’t say
you’ve lived
until you’ve
truly tried.
you can’t say
you gave it your
all
until you’ve
given everything
you’ve got
and fight.
[…]
years spent,
paralyzed
tired of myself,
everyone else,
and all the lies
i spent my days
wondering,
will
somebody help
me
before i meet
my demise?
neon sunset,
fade to black,
black and white
silhouettes dancing,
overexposed memories attack,
reminding me of a time
when i was barely alive.
(somebody help me
before i meet my
demise.)
two years in,
i can imagine
a life without
you in it.
for too long
you held on
like a ghost,
a hellish prison.
never letting go,
never setting me
free.
but i learned to
move forward
without you.
i learned to
break the chains.
like a dream,
a wake-up call,
a realization:
how many times
do i have to
hurt before
i’m accepted
for who i am?
Sep 12, 2024
Sep 12, 2024 at 3:14 AM UTC
A hundred times I tried
A thousand times I failed
A million times I lied
A billion more times I failed
And a trillion times I cried
I lived in fear everyday
Bullets hit they did not ricochet
I waited for that day
That single day
For the one that would save the day
He was my one and only
With him I needed not to be
Scared, afraid or terrified
By our covenant he would abide
In his presence was my delight
In his embrace I saw the light
Our relationship was never bright
But I always dreamt of being his bride
I imagined making vows in a gown so white
But the reality hit me with all its might
The love we had for each other, we always had to hide
It was either we lose each other or lose our lives
We could bear neither so we covered ourselves in lies
Through the darkness, through the light
Through daylight and through the night
Whatever time of day we had to hide
Hiding from the battles of the war
At the same time hiding from our own wars
Fighting on opposite sides of the war
Was the greatest challenge we had to face
We never intended to fight the war
But joined it only to save face
Dodging bullets, striving to achieve
Upsetting hornets but trying to live
Violence was the order of the day
Always seeking resuscitation
Seeking doctors everyday
When what we needed was not medication
Indeed we were victims of intoxication
But we were not looking for physical recuperation
What we really needed was intellectual restoration
We needed spiritual inspiration
Then again there was the physical calculation
It was 'needed' for our own recuperation
But in the end, at the end of it all
We all wondered
What was it worth? But nothing else mattered
It was just the war
Nothing less, nothing more
We were all striving to achieve
Striving to live
Even though it destroyed our love
That was one thing we could never have
We could never, ever have love
Miss Fit
Feb 15, 2019
Feb 15, 2019 at 8:17 AM UTC