#reserved
It drains too much energy π€§ and i fret I'll burn out ere it infer coz I can't afford to burn out here or now.. π hope u understand andΒ Β step on or stay with minimal draining.
Sep 6, 2023
Sep 6, 2023 at 8:27 AM UTC
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Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 1:19 PM UTC
I-
-want to say-
-something-
but i-
-to talk to you-
but i-
-thinking about thinking-
-too- because i-
-think- Β Β -much-
-i meant too much-
but i-
-m just a ******
because i-
-donβt know what to-
but i-
-see you walk away-
because i-
-didnβt- -opened my-
dumb mouth
but i-
sit-
next to you- -so close-
because i-
-want-
-want,want,want-
I really want
-talk to you-
but i-
-stumble, fumble, tumble-
over words-
-because i-
No- -iβm not-
-really-
but i- -iβm not lonely- -because i-
-convinced myself 15 different times-
-with 15 different excuses-
β¦
-so what-
-if you walk away-
Iβll talk to someone else.
Oct 18, 2021
Oct 18, 2021 at 1:49 PM UTC
When an Autumn
starts to truly come
I like to sing into the air
of the world
the sweetest spring lullabies
of much sunnier days,
just to try to
hide away the crumbling sound
of falling dry, dead leaves.
Feb 1, 2021
Feb 1, 2021 at 10:06 PM UTC
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Dec 31, 2020
Dec 31, 2020 at 1:42 AM UTC
These walls are
not just stone,
more than wood.
It's a smile,
a white lie,
a fake confidence.
With these walls,
I have built
a fortress.
Nov 12, 2019
Nov 12, 2019 at 3:50 PM UTC
A sky full of wishes waiting to be had
Twinkling against a backdrop of deep dark blue
A billion stars poised to gracefully fall
Every last one reserved for you
Oct 19, 2019
Oct 19, 2019 at 12:44 AM UTC
You are reserved
for my
My first start
My first way
My first chance
My first dance
My first kiss
My first half
My first wish
My first love
My first laugh
My first hug
My first heart
My first day
My first night
My first right
My firstβ¦
Β© Feelings Coated
Sep 26, 2019
Sep 26, 2019 at 1:06 PM UTC
sometimes,
princes - s
wait - i
at the - h
top of - t
their tower. - e
waiting for - k
a rapunzel - i
to toss their - l
long hair up - t
tied at the end - s
with a grappling - u
hook and climb it - j
Feb 11, 2019
Feb 11, 2019 at 3:25 AM UTC
New face
New voice
Same feels
Same fears
I love how
You relieve me
But I fear
That youβll leave me
Like the others
That wondered about
Until they found what they sought out
Leaving my heart to whither and shrink
While my thoughts become filled with doubt.
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 6:25 PM UTC
A rock spins inside a world
too large for us to see.
On it is many creatures,
including you and me.
We've never known what it's like
to live on another rock.
It seems to me that somehow
we have found the best spot.
We weren't the ones who found this speck
of the universe, which we dwell.
It was something else that put us here.
It's not very hard to tell.
Our creator knew this precious rock
was specially reserved for us.
From his playful heart of love,
he built it as our flying bus.
Jul 24, 2018
Jul 24, 2018 at 6:30 PM UTC
i am me, simple and steady,
i am me, not needed.
dead inside, complex in the mind.
no one ever cared, no one ever wondered.
i was always alone, in my mind, in my soul.
my words never reached anyone.
i am me, no one.
just one that was none,
always and forever no one.
in a complex and steady kind of way,
no one until time has its say...
no one are the words that are in display,
NO ONE....
Jun 19, 2018
Jun 19, 2018 at 8:23 PM UTC
Donβt put me in a group and expect me to talk
Be careful with your questions or youβll meet a roadblock
Ask me about my feelings and out the door I will walk
This is who I am
Despite my reluctance to deep conversation
Talking can sometimes be my great salvation
My inability to talk just brings me more and more frustration
This is who I am
If asked what I need Iβd probably just shrug
Although you should know that I just want a hug
Just tell me that you love me and hold me snug
This is who I am
The rest of the time I seem as if Iβm all smiles
I leave everything to clutter my brain in big piles
Then I put up a facade so no one can guess at my trials
This is who I am
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 3:49 PM UTC
βYou seem quiet today,β they say.
I reply, βOh, Iβm okay.β
My lies come out hasty
Thatβs just how itβs been lately
I think she can tell Iβm not just fine
The problem is that my head and my heart donβt align
Even then, I just wish I could tell someone
My heart says to talk but my head says to run
My heart feels sad and heavy
Instead, I should feel steady
My head thinks the sadness is all a mistake
I just feel like such a fake
These things make me hurt but
I feel vain in my gut
Others have it so, so much worse
But here I go feeling as if Iβm under some curse
Maybe thatβs why I canβt talk about it
Does this make me a counterfeit?
Itβs like I donβt have the right to be sad
For all of my blessings, I should be glad
I search for love and care and from some, it unfolds
My momβs heart hurts from my dad but their marriage still holds
My grandpa has health problems but he is still here
I still talk to my friends even after they disappear
Thereβs something inside of me that I canβt see
I donβt like this different side of me
There is so much conflict going on
Maybe thatβs why Iβm always withdrawn
Itβs like I donβt know who I am anymore
Inside my head and my heart I just canβt explore
Iβve isolated myself to a major degree
Now my isolation is what defines me
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 3:43 PM UTC
"You're very reserved lately"
...
"Did you have an argument?"
No
"This time of year I was studying for my finals the most"
'Congratulations' ...
"What's your plan?"
...
"Won't the trip, if it happens, pressure you?"
No
"Your mood..."
Yes
"Are you having trouble getting out of bed in the morning?"
No
"I have choir tonight"
Okay
"I'm tired"
I can see that
"Really? I'll rest before dinner then"
Okay
I want to cry
Dec 20, 2017
Dec 20, 2017 at 12:03 PM UTC
Inscribed upon silk
Is your raw humanity.
Lessons have taught
That such delicacies
Cannot be caught.
Unless uncovered
From the tomb
In which truth lies.
l.v.s
Dec 23, 2016
Dec 23, 2016 at 11:10 AM UTC
"It's easy to die but it's not easy to live."
-D.E.T
Jan 16, 2017
Jan 16, 2017 at 12:25 AM UTC
BY:D.E.T
Faith belongs to those who are not blind
To sight the light and darkness
When the light's fade
All you are left is with darkness
Because 'tween the light there was always the darkness
Nov 12, 2016
Nov 12, 2016 at 9:14 PM UTC
I'm only good in doses the closest you'll ever get to all of me is in the trees when runnin free from dreams of animosity and childhood fears
I wear thin
my impact only comes (in)
if I keep the light dim
If i let it simmer and shout then there is no doubt you'll see all of me and my childhood dreams
My needs that seethe on you
Are a kid and his toy wrench
Turning every loose *****
Oct 12, 2016
Oct 12, 2016 at 11:43 AM UTC
Written in July 14, 2016
Spring the leaf is born
And summer the leaf has grown
Then when autumn has arrived
The golden leaves
Will whisper
Good bye
To the branches
That once form
Part of the tree
Silently the leaf will collapse
On the ground
With no sound
Kneeling down
It will lay down till
They become dust
Meanwhile the wild
Breeze
Blows
The sentimental memories
The shadows of the wind
Will make the leaves that lay down in the ground
Speak to the shadows
Of the remains
Of the presence
Till it slowly
And lonely fade away........
Jul 29, 2016
Jul 29, 2016 at 7:05 PM UTC
Burning fever
Its signify
As the ''Sea of flames''
From the other side
Lies the pale of glory
It's the fever
Of the old times
Old but cold
Among the top
The pure
Of innocence
Lies on the side of depravity
Among the battles
Among anathema
Of difference
Lies the voice of the horror
Jun 11, 2016
Jun 11, 2016 at 1:46 AM UTC
Crystal haze, painted in grey
Smooth shadows embrace me
Deep blue
Roaring and crashing wave
Calmness over comes you
Obsessed with the sounds of swaggering water
Reflect the sun gently kissing
The secret lover
Of the sea
Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 9:13 PM UTC
Mind to eyes time to live
Sleepless nights lay
On my restless
Reflections
Lost into your jewels eyes
Marveling if the birth of fire in the darkness
Will blasting through the darkness
Into your eyes I see
A lion starving
For desire
For a touch of my lips
Numb
Hard to speak when you are close
Inside your eyes are full of lust
I pull back in disappear with the dust
Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 3:38 AM UTC