#resentments
If I never feel happy again.
If I get a case of the **** its”
and follow that red glow all the way to my grave
(because it feels warm once in a while).
If I walk into a venue in my hometown
and smell the familiar scent of stale beer and regret.
If my mom passes away
suddenly or succumbing to the passage of time.
If I never heal from how I was treated
and continue to treat myself the same over and over.
If I have to rely on jokes about my grandmother
to keep her memory alive
when she is not.
If I let myself down
again.
Jan 9, 2021
Jan 9, 2021 at 7:43 PM UTC
SOLIDARITY
When men
Units it's
solidarity and
no goal is
too huge
to achieve.
But destruction
upon a city
of men
where hatred,
jealousy, envy
and resentments
reign. Love heal the world.
#c9_fm
Dec 13, 2020
Dec 13, 2020 at 9:51 AM UTC
The growth I wish for you will burn strong-
just like your picture and the dried rosemary did tonight.
Oct 20, 2020
Oct 20, 2020 at 11:21 PM UTC
As I begin to lose
my sweet memory
The flotsam and jetsam
and ephemery.
The regrets, the injustice,
the pain and despair
The resentments, the insults,
the hurts and the fear.
The timeless reminders
of not good enough
That pale yellow post it:
“Hasn’t got the right stuff.”
That time that you said
what no one would say
“I don’t really love you
now please go away.”
Most of it gone now,
I can’t quite remember
It whispers to me
from a foggy December.
Am I better off for it?
Perhaps in some way
Have I gained from the loss?
It’s a bit hard to say.
I need no longer sit here
and artfully languish
In all the sad fury
of my piquant anguish.
Like my father before me
I’m one of those old timers
Reaping the benefits
of beneficent Alzheimer’s.
Jan 14, 2020
Jan 14, 2020 at 10:30 PM UTC
gasping for air
I feel like I am dying
can't breathe...
until at last
I realized I was choking
on my old resentments
as I let go of each one
the air I breathe become
clear and deep
flooding me with life
Mar 16, 2015
Mar 16, 2015 at 7:42 PM UTC
I regret (usually too late), the authority
Of the sitting government.
Any government.
Once in power (I regret that word)
The back room broking good ole boys
At the exit polls loose their senses,
Sight and hearing.
Feelings get hurt.
Taxes are wasted.
The trough gouging is too loud.
I resent lying.
I regret (mostly from the evidence),
The too full baskets of organized religion
Overflowing from indulgences;
The Roman fingers
Poaching coins for another memorial window;
The glass cathedrals
And get-a-way cars.
I resent hypocrisy.
I regret people don't arrive on time
(no matter the time);
Especially when outside anyplace waiting,
Perhaps a light for a smoke is needed,
Or there's inclement weather,
The nearby company is distasteful.
Waiting dinner.
Late children are the worse.
They cause worry.
I resent the selfishness of time.
I regret being diseased,
And hated for it.
When in remission I'm loved.
Active, not so much.
The know-its say it's a matter of will.
Like you can cure
Cancer or smallpox with thoughts.
The one symptom alone, hurt,
Would need temples of meditating chanters!
I resent condemnation.
I regret failed relationships:
Family, friends and women.
My thoughts are mine;
If I said everything
You'd have a different opinion
Of what I am.
So we don't
Because we can't
Say things: we would appear as socio-paths.
We think good and bad;
Therefore we're real.
A virtual humanity.
I resent blathering.
I regret an educational system
That believes in paradigm shifts;
Spouting new-age lingo:
If it's not broken, break it;
Selling out to athletics,
Or Mr., Ms and Mrs. know
All about education;
They went to school.
Bullies top the list.
I resent permissive parents.
Most of all,
I regret
My resentments.
Jul 15, 2014
Jul 15, 2014 at 12:44 AM UTC
today I am free
to love without fear,
without hatred in my heart
today I am free,
resentments no longer bleed
into all my thoughts and actions
today I am free
to give and receive love
without expectations
Because deep in my center
I experience a loving God that
loves me today and everyday
Jun 19, 2014
Jun 19, 2014 at 5:26 PM UTC