#resent
You get to scream at me
Get angry
Lash out
Insult me
Accuse me
Swear at me
Treat me like ****
Ask stupid questions
Say things with no relevancy
Make up things that never happened
Tell me to think about what i'm saying.
But when i do it
You act like its killing you
Begging me like a lost, starving puppy
like i'm the one causing all the damage
Like i was the one throwing insults
Like i don't take this seriously
Like i don't care
Like i don't think.
I'm scrambling my brain trying to understand don't you dare say that i don't care for it.
I'm trying to understand you, i truly am.
I just don't get it.
I'm left defeated.
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 12:24 AM UTC
Sweeter, to adjust to a shadow
Fruition, in no way a sudden future
Survival to alacrity, glad to owe...
Where we are, a have to predict purity...
Same sense, same scent...?
Adrenaline fueled
A reason to foretell meant
With the ides of composure, silence due?
Mutual poise
Purpose ought, a halt
To obscurity, a wiser choice
Has said hello, for a salt...
Common, certain problems...
Just to save curiosity the trouble
Succinct energy's, sated by a whim
Share a decency, like it was ours, wonder
Shadows of change
Told to accrue accept, like another friend
Spare time, for the total of strange...
No matter how well done, we know life for its ends...
Aug 22, 2024
Aug 22, 2024 at 11:54 PM UTC
Beneath the canvas of the starlit sky,
A beacon burns, a lullaby.
Through shadows cast, a tale unfolds,
Of a love more precious than gold.
In shadows interlaced, the glow would sing,
A celestial whisper, a familiar wing.
I'd stray at times, chasing the day's fleeting gleam,
Questioning the light, like a forgotten dream.
Resentment clung to the flickering light,
As if returning home was a surrender to night.
In my heart, a whisper of pride,
Home meant I hadn't soared wide.
Through the years, the light reframes,
No longer a symbol of forgotten aims.
Like moth to a flame, I’d circle back,
To a hearth that murmured, a quiet track.
Now, the light's not a sign, not a line in the sand,
But a soft place to land, in an unknown land.
A sanctuary, a heartbeat, a welcoming roam,
In the cadence of shadows, I find my home.
The door swings wide with a creak and a sigh,
A refuge awaits, where tears can dry.
So, as I wander life's unknown,
The light guides me back, a beacon of home.
Jan 15, 2024
Jan 15, 2024 at 4:18 AM UTC
you don’t want me anymore
the touch of my skin crawls from your insides
what is it baby
you used to love laying next to me
now you stare off when you say I love you
if you’ve fallen out of love with me
please lay down by my side one last time
i know how it feels
you finally typed out that sentence with tears in your eyes
it’s more real than ever
im so sorry you’re hurt
but i still want to hold you
Jul 31, 2021
Jul 31, 2021 at 6:35 PM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, some memories haunt us to the grave---they never fade:|
I put the space
mere a distance
and air to redeem
for the desk to choke the
fogging steam
heavy unspoken glares of things untold a gleam
nears and approaches some spites that repeat
if walls at least could shout could scream
lines would be spit to the ultimate some tense perched
meant on bits of merged
known subtles
left on the bottles
shaped from knuckles
inherited not chuckles
reds on the addicting muffles
------ravenfeels
Apr 6, 2021
Apr 6, 2021 at 7:20 PM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, some days can be numb:\
in the instant blink of an eye
in the double slow tick of the clock
in the gloomy twitch of the sun
in the unnnotice of the dusk and the dawn
in the raw mere of blur
in the racing droplets down the tub
in the pretentious eyes of red
in the odorless stink of the day
in the companion of numbness
in the tasteless lines of wry disgust
in the lyrics of merciful peace
-------ravenfeels
Apr 4, 2021
Apr 4, 2021 at 1:48 PM UTC
Forgiving is more than difficult and challenging
But if to not forgive or forget
You will live your life in regret and denial
Resent will build and build
For we are humans for we f*ck up and do things we deeply regret
For not to be excusable but responsible
If to imagine a world with them gone or hurt
Remorse and resent in yourself will imperfectly mix
Building a lifetime of continuous persistent regret
The question being is it worth it to not forgive and forget
For will you ever truly move on?
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 11:54 PM UTC
I hate when the my thoughts go there
And I sit and stare
I hate when I get tempted to do that
And I do and regret
I hate when I do not feel content
As I haven't lived a sad life.
I hate when I do not know what I resent
But that feeling controls my life
I hate to see that I am not what I wanted to be
Feb 18, 2017
Feb 18, 2017 at 6:35 AM UTC
I thought I heard hate in your heart
Maybe it’s just me
I flash my teeth to blind my hurt
It doesn’t work
all it does is fade a little
May 25, 2020
May 25, 2020 at 2:21 PM UTC
I am the thunder that you never hear,
Suffocated in air and light;
Electricity,
Fire,
Lightning’s tiger-
(The roar you associate)-
The fighting call;
The alarm,
Rough, harsh slice of the night,
Unafraid,
The creature caged,
The light you saw and died in nothing-
Defining silent isolation,
A cage, a room, a tomb-
A buried body still alive,
The suffocation, the air, the light,
The absence,
The void,
How unremarkable I seem from the epitaph, from above,
So high above me, are you, you stand;
You morn me, I am alive,
Alive and buried under and under six feet of fear and anguish-
Of all the pains of past and future,
Of all the unsurety,
I can still assure you;
I am the thunder,
Waiting.
May 4, 2020
May 4, 2020 at 1:40 AM UTC
They started off with with small taps
But then they came with giant axes
Chipping away at the foundation of sanity
Nothing seemed to be able to fix it.
I worked and worked to keep it stable
But nobody believed it was possible
The more I worked the more it cracked
As they went from manual to explosive means
Sticks of dynamite crammed into the cracks
As they said it was my fault I lack
They laughed as I began to fall
My hopes and dreams started to be shredded
As the foundation of sanity splintered
The shrapnel became scattered
As it cut up my mind
I lost all hope in mankind
Then nothing but despair remained
I began to turn and frayed
I hurt my sled and others
As anger filled my mind
The glass that was now my mind
Guided me to shred others and leave them behind
As my resentment turned others
Into the same mess as me
Dec 21, 2019
Dec 21, 2019 at 12:55 PM UTC
Stagnant and thinking
Confused and blinking
Age draws on
Yet still a pawn
Standard and simple
Dull and wimple
Wrapped in indifference
Trapped warm desire
In need of deliverance
If I come un-strewn
May I be blessed in womb
Re-birthed and open
More accepting and woken
New insight could dislodge this anchor
Only I can treat my own lamer
Once in motion
Loneliness is in emaciation
Finding friends in exploration
Finding one for intimacy
Not based on elegancy
Venerate character
Each must love the other entire
Both exchanging devotion and tenderness
Only full of equality, truth, and openness
Nurture platonic love, beautiful and scarce
Defend it like a dove, only vicious and fierce
Nov 3, 2019
Nov 3, 2019 at 5:29 PM UTC