#reprocessing
With the closed door
behind me
in my back
I feel like before
like the last time
He calls silently
with the hand for me
and offers the place
on the bed
I feel every step
and I sit down
As I did
before knowing
what comes the next up
And as he touchs me
looking in my eyes
he whispers to me
‘don’t you fight’
and again I fly
far away
to another place
Mar 16, 2019
Mar 16, 2019 at 2:08 PM UTC
Ten years and more are not enough
I can still remember
Every torturing tainted touch
that forced me to surrender
Your hushing words, my rising fear
cutting like sharp searing threads
Your very gaze I still see clear
It burned into my head
Once you abused me
Long time I tried to Forget
the paralizing clutch
So long I tried to renounce
your tantalising touch
But all I achieved, all I obtained
Is a constant Aversion
and irreversible pain
Once you abused me
Now you are gone
And your presence vanished
but the memories have won
Even if you´ve got punished
I´ll never enjoy the love of a man
And I´ll ever avoid intimacy if I can
Once you abused me
You´ve branded me once
turned me inside out
Now I´m wrecked to my bones
But I´ll say it out loud:
Once you abused me
But you´ll never do it again
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 1:15 PM UTC