#repress
I simmer in the anger
It surrounds me and
Brings life to a boil
Stretches the rubber band
Pulls back on the string of the bow
Hits the bottom of the bungee jump
Gets ready to fire the catapult
And SNAP
It leaves in red hot flashes burning with built up resentment
It snaps and cuts and hurts the innocent
Rather than the stokers of the fire
It slashes and leaves hollow emptiness
In a space once burning with the desire to
Scream
Yell
Lash
Hate
Thunder
A space burning to let go.
Apr 16, 2024
Apr 16, 2024 at 2:16 AM UTC
That pen was not just
another pen like,
Was close to his heart
soothing moonlike.
He bought that pen
after paying huge cost,
That was one reason
he liked that most.
For sbowing status for
showing the fame,
What he had achieved
position and name.
Pen was a symbol for
flaunting repute,
That he was on top this
no one dispute.
It reminds him also
reminds the all,
He reached at the top
after many so fall.
But one day in office
that pride was lost.
It was that pen that he
liked the most.
He doubted in office
workers and staff,
At times in office
abruptly he laugh.
He had suspicion on
ally and friend.
Driver & sweeper too
themselves to fend.
One day in office clerk
found that pen.
Was hidden in file and
lying since then.
He wished to say sorry
and admit the guilt.
His ego but came in
his way as a hilt.
Ajay Amitabh Suman:
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Dec 25, 2021
Dec 25, 2021 at 9:13 PM UTC
Cold Night of Winter,
The Wind flies and sees a small house.
She hears the sound of thumping knock;
Through the window’s house, she enter;
Her eyes widened with state of Shock!
A Little Girl Cries!
A Man strikes his wife in anger-
Face transform into My Hyde.
The Wind can sense the great danger.
Woman soaked in blood and bruises!
The Woman Pleads!
She quivers from shameful violence.
The fearful fate she must cede
As her Husband wants obedience.
Tension escalates in silence.
The Man Strikes Again!
The Woman spirit; crushed in pain!
Ferocious fist full of fury
Like tyrannical typhoon rain.
The Girl cries at her sad story.
Her Father beating her Mother!
The Wistful Wind Weeps!
She tries to sing sweet lullabies-
Knowing The Girl’s scars will run deep.
Pure innocence lost in her eyes
As memories will haunt in sleep!
(c)2018 Joanne Chang
Oct 3, 2018
Oct 3, 2018 at 9:37 AM UTC
This violent sadness,
A self-devouring source of madness.
It is an Atlantean endeavour,
It is pure, jaw-dropping terror.
It is this dense weight that I carry -
Snap out of it, hurry, do not tarry,
For my shoulders quiver
And my nerves grow tired and bitter.
Please, hurry;
Wake the **** up.
We don’t have much time,
And up to the mountain’s peak
I wish to climb.
Do not delay;
Every moment wasted
Is an inch further towards necrotic decay.
Why could you never understand?
Why did you never want to cross into uncharted land?
Why the need to cocoon in one place?
Why did you resort to making me hate my own face?
This road, this journey that is life -
I will live it on the edge of a knife,
In between the worlds of peace and strife.
With the soles of my feet,
I shall run on burning coals, exposed to heat.
Within the corridors of my heart,
I will host freedom as my eternal mistress,
And make my life her work of art.
A sun that never quite rises,
After all this, I feel like a discoloured iris,
Like a struggling butterfly,
One that does not want to die,
But does not want to live, either.
I don’t know
Whether you’re lying to yourself or me,
But all I know is that of these hateful chains
I wish to be free.
I will now walk alone, towards the balcony,
Ready to jump and spread my wings;
I wish to fly alone,
For the skies have no queens nor kings.
I am who I am,
A soul, permanently on the lam
And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Jul 7, 2018
Jul 7, 2018 at 11:17 AM UTC
The only person that listens to me is my external dialogue
You call it schizophrenia, I call it a duologue
But in reality it's just, it's just that in a group of two
I am my own leader, subject, enemy and compeer
Born out of a fear of being alone, my mind began to sere
And unintentionally planted a voice into each cerebral hemisphere
Feb 25, 2018
Feb 25, 2018 at 9:36 PM UTC
You speak
You yell
You slam
These are the things I remember
The times of fear
The trembling of my hands
The streams of tears
These are the things I remember
The times of hatred
The fire burning
Yet I hid it
In fear
You slam
Remember?
That's what I remember
Do you remember?
I don't believe you
The hugs you gave
That drove me insane
You said it was fine
You never asked me
You asked yourself
Is it okay?
Yes
That's not what I said
Tears
I hope I left a stain
I recall all that
The times when you raised the hand
I don't recall if I felt it
The time I stared at the number on the screen
Debating
I took to long
The door opened and you were there
I never made that call
That day is when my Fear burned bright
My instincts told me to run
I was frozen
Had I run
What would you have done?
Raised your voice or your hand
Or something else
I hope I'll never know
I want to know
Are my fears justified
I can only know if I break out of my silence
Silence that screams
Run
Leave
Forget
Forgetting is what I've done so far
Repress
Suppress
Forget the times
I forget the times that would lessen my fear
Do those times even exist
I don't know
I don't care
I have to break free
A cage I've built for protection
You used it against me
To keep me where you want me
Vulnerable
Silence is screaming
All the times
I curled up
Fear
Hurt
Pain
I don't want to feel that way
Yet here I am
Silent
Staying put in fear
I can't speak
Tongue tied
Screaming Inside
Caught up in my own words
That you will never hear
Shut up
I don't care
...
Silence
Oct 10, 2017
Oct 10, 2017 at 3:21 PM UTC
I wish to see what I once saw.
To spectate a simple moment that has long passed.
Memories fade, they say,
Fade away from your mind to make room for what's ahead.
But I don't believe that,
I know they are there.
Tucked away deep waiting for the proper time to resurface.
Who is it that decides when these things should be recalled?
Oct 9, 2015
Oct 9, 2015 at 8:06 PM UTC
***If one tries to shut out their emotions and problems
Are they truly shut out at all?***
Sep 13, 2015
Sep 13, 2015 at 12:36 PM UTC
She comes with a body. Lithe, plain.
Two things Warchief said no, don't chew.
Don't disgrace the Orc way.
If you transgress it better be just to
rip off her arms. You're in my palm.
(I'm in whose palm?)
He comes with a presence. Foreign.
Alien of the Karwa Wastes.
Don't you pass this chance on.
You recognize, don't you, when
better comes along? You're in my palm.
(I'm in whose palm?)
Douse the candles in the war hall
for me my lines arrested caught
in the splinters of dry throat
won't reach the thunderous cry
you repress, to release me.
Jul 19, 2015
Jul 19, 2015 at 8:12 PM UTC
Life, the pursuit of happiness.
Some will go insane trying to fine this "happiness".
They say its just a chemical in balance in your brain,
"Here pop some pills, tell yourself you're happy!"
But what if somewhere along the way we forgot what happy was.
How can we pursue something when we have no idea where to find it, how it feels, what it looks like.
Everyday we'll wake up and place a twinkle in our eyes, a 1000 watt smile on our faces so that those around us don't know.
So that even though the chemical imbalance is there,
And even though we don't know what it feels like, the others around us can go on finding their happienss , forgetting about any of our troubles.
Dec 27, 2014
Dec 27, 2014 at 6:47 PM UTC
They sigh at the clouds when it rains
They curse the wind when it blows
They look at the sun with disapproving eyes
When it lingers too long in the sky
The weather in my own head
Is much more violent
Screaming thunderstorms
Wild, breath-stealing hurricanes
And a heat so scorching
That it burns anyone
Who comes near
So I've sealed myself up
In a glass box
So people won't feel
Or hear
Or see
For surely, if they can judge
The unstoppable force
Of Mother Nature
I can only imagine
What they will do
To me
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 12:16 AM UTC