#renmar
Ripping out pages and crumpling paper
Lately I can't just express without saying
Something too raw pulling **** out the closet
Leave grown women sobbing this **** is bizzare just
Bare with me I'm sorry my life is revolving
I'm falling in hallways get faded to jot this
Can't bring you up every girl I'm involved with
Hates you to death, because I share my heart with
You and you only
Only you see my side
We've loved and we've lied and we've cuddled and cried
We built up our pride
We've drank and gotten high
But every sober moment
Protected my mind
You rejected my kind gestures and efforts in time
made me realize I played the Jester
Just to get by
Wonder why did I lose love?
Well at least I did try
Stealing you rings just to make you all mine
Still remember your size
Those seven point fives that you'd take off at night
I know you lost a couple shouldn't come as a surprise
We both lost it all even who we both are
These emotional scars make what we had hard to find
I'm just stuck in the car strapped along for the ride
I tapped in to the side of me that's still too in love
I know its too much and you don't want to rush, but
Me and you were playing house
Start thinking that I'm losing touch
Falling asleep together on Mare's couch
Maybe I should loosen up
When I leave you and I go home
I start forgetting what it is
Gotta keep in mind our two beautiful kids
I mean that's **reason enough to ************* live**
Why are we wasting our relationship on other relationships?
You know how sticky these situations get
You go up higher than me some days
You know what I think we could be some day
But you already know my side of things, man
Jul 26, 2015
Jul 26, 2015 at 6:38 PM UTC
Antidepressants on antidepressants
I've been so depressed yet you stay majestic
You stand in my flames
They just enlighten your features
I burn more brightly and char at your feet just
Looking into those eyes
What a gorgeous demise
Yet the only way I'd die
Is if you severed all ties
I could live as a picture in your beautiful mind
And every time you remembered me I'd be fine
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 3:45 PM UTC
You say
Don't laugh at me
I text back
Lol
You say
I kinda love you
I respond
Very well
Looks like neglection meets affection
In one magnetic pull
I hate all these emotions
I'd rather remain cool
***You warm me up inside
Like a sun rise
You warm me up inside
Like a sun rise***
I try not
To talk to you
But always
Look your way
I try not
To talk to you
But listen
As you say
*I love you
With all of me
With every
Little piece
Won't you please
Fall with me
In emotional
Release?*
***You warm me up inside
Like a sun rise
You warm me up inside
Like a sun rise***
***We sit
Contemplating life
On the endless horizon
Of our fingertips
We touch down
On each others temples
Weightless
Floating on a kiss
Moments become memories
And we watch it all happen
I'm falling with you in emotional hues
And all your colors are catching***
***You make me whole inside
Staring into your eyes
You make me whole inside
Staring into your eyes***
Oct 3, 2014
Oct 3, 2014 at 5:40 PM UTC
***Turning the tide above my bed
Thoughts of you slosh around inside my head
I smile and you smile
Looking at the future
And the way we come together
Sewing the past up like a suture
Bandaids and burn scars could never stop our motion
Not while these thoughts of you in my head, girl, are steady as an ocean
We sway this way and that on the waves of our songs
And though others call us different, we know we're not wrong
How could we be?
When we feel so right in each other's arms
You're the tide in my head Renmar
Protecting me from harm***
I hope I never wash ashore
Sep 20, 2014
Sep 20, 2014 at 2:43 AM UTC